Chapter 547 - What are you thinking about? (1)

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Lexi awoke, and slightly turned her head, and noticed Matthew asleep beside her. Normally when she awoke, he was either wide awake aside her, in the bathroom or even left their room. Watching him sleep beside her, made her contemplate how much her life had changed since returned home eleven months ago.

She would have been back almost two years earlier, but shifting her business had taken loner than anticipated, and had been frustrating. She had wanted to get back, so badly to Dominic and become the parent he deserved, having finally pulled herself together emotionally. A big part of that was the self-esteem she had rebuilt in creating LY, because she had shown herself that she was useful and worthwhile, not pigeonholed into the little boxes her parents saw for her. That of being their daughter, a mother, and a wife, who stayed at home.

The time in shifting the heart and soul of the business, being the design studio and team, the business headquarters and most importantly manufacturing home had been worth it. With Karen's help the retail presence has increased, not only in the high-end market, but that for the everyday person. When she started out in the fashion industry, it was on the back of everything she had learnt when Richard was in her life. That everyday person was who she wanted to target, but she needed the market position that the luxury end gave her.

The time enabled the leveraging of her small luxury retail presence in Europe to a world-wide business. The luxury end still dominated her business, but the everyday market was becoming more and more important.

The delay had let her shift into being Dominic's full-time parent, rather than the passing person she had been in his life. When he was a baby, the decision had seemed easy, as the hurt and psychological mess she was meant that he was safe and well looked after. But every visit she made, at Chester's insistence, her son had taken a little piece of her heart with him. Every separation tore more at her heart.

The funny thing was, returning home, gave her peace. Yes, she had her business, and she became the parent she had struggled for years to be to Dominic, but it was more than that. She was ready to move forward with her life. It had always hurt that she had missed out on so much with Dominic, but in getting to the place she could accept and deal with what Richard put her through, accepting that there were things she had missed out on became easier. She had done everything she could to be here for all the firsts she could, like his first birthday, first day of kindergarten, and his first day of school there were several first that relied on chance. She missed the first time he sat up, those first efforts to crawl and, his unsupported first steps but was lucky, to have been here when he stood up on his own, and even when he took his first steps with her help.

Over a few months they had been able to settle into the routine of her bring his full-time parent, despite the ups and downs of the early days. That is what made the current situation almost impossible to deal with. Dominic was shutting her out of his life and there seemed no way out. How could she make him understand?

The love that she and Matthew had for each other at the time he was conceived was utterly consuming. Looking back now, some people would say that she was simply an infatuated teenager, who knew no better, but with Matthew having returned to her life despite everything she knew the truth. He was the love of her life. The man that she was destiny to be with. However, they faced their challenges. His decision to join the military, her pregnancy when she was seventeen, their separation, her forced marriage to Richard, his abuse, her inability to cope with the consequences of this, her leaving the country, let alone the other mirid of other small things.

But fate, had brought them back to each other when they had returned home. Yes, their getting married was unusual to say the least, and her fears of being hurt had made her fight tooth and nail regarding not only the validity of the marriage but about staying married. Matthew on the other hand in those early days was patient with her beyond belief, only snapping on a couple of occasions. He took her verbal abuse and physical attacks, as if letting her lash out and express her frustrations with everything.

It did not take her long to realise how she loved Matthew after they were reunited, in her heart. The issue for her was her head was impacting how she dealt with things. It was telling her to ignore her heart and her longing and fight to get away as that was the only way that she could be safe from hurt again. Matthew, through his little things, ignoring her reactions, treating her like she was the centre of his world, and even just bringing her home a flower or some small gift to express how he felt, day by day, moment by moment chipped through that wall she was fighting to keep erected until she was left with no option but to admit even to herself her own feelings.

When she did that, she finally accepted the love Matthew had for her and knew within herself the past hurts would not be a problem, save and except the truth about Dominic. That truth hurt not only them but their child. It had put their relationship on shaky ground, with the added complication that Dominic hated almost all of them.

In that moment Lexi noticed Matthew had opened his eyes and asked, "What are you thinking about?"

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