Chapter 189 - Conversation

Shen Feng started with the reason why he left since this is where everything started. If before he thought that his daughter is still too young to know these but this tine that excuse is not valid anymore.

"I never intended to stay overseas to work nor have I ever thought of leaving my children to fend for themselves. When Wei'er died, I was devastated but not to the point that I would forget that I still have children. That time, the only thing in my mind was that I have to protect the two of you because if I lose you both as well I don't think I can still live.

You may think that this is just a story I was trying to make to prove myself to you but it was the truth. I lived for the two of you. Just when I thought that everything is going back on the right track, that person threatened me with your lives. The person who killed your mother.

At first I tried to ignore it but it escalated which led to Chen almost got kidnapped and you getting hurt."

When Xi Ana heard these words, her eyebrows arched questioningly. "Chen was almost kidnapped? When was this?"

"It was only a few weeks before I decided to leave. It's not surprising that you don't know about this because aside from the fact that you were still too young back then, the only person who knows about this aside from me is your grandfather."

That incident made me take the black mails more seriously and from that moment he kept on sending me pictures of you and Xi Chen wherever you are. Be it in school or when you were outside. That's when I decided that I couldn't risk your lives any further. What he wanted was for me to leave the two of you alone, he wanted me to suffer.

He gave me two choices, either I leave on my own or give you to him."

"What?" that person wanted her? This unconsciously made her shudder.

"He wanted you. I think it was because you look so much like your mother that it might have become an obsession for him. Giving you to him, how could I do that? That's why I chose to leave and the attempts to hurt your brother also stopped. But, we both know that it was not the same with you."

That last sentence made Xi Ana still. Doesn't that mean her father knew?

Her expression must have revealed her inner thoughts that Shen Feng answered that question even though she really didn't voice it out.

"I knew and I apologize that father was not able to stop some things from happening. If only I could protect you 24 hours a day I would, I'm sorry that I let those things happen to you."

Her father really knew! She grimaced as her heart tightened.

Xi Ana could already feel that her emotions will about to go out of hand. No, she can't lose it now! They are not yet finished with all the things they need to talk about. She needs to endure, she must endure.

"Ana.."

Of course even Shen Feng could see and feel the changes on Xi Ana and he is worried about her.

Xi Ana dismissed the idea of being comforted by his father.

"We don't have control over what already happened but one thing is for sure, I don't blame father for everything that happened."

She was disappointed in him but not once did she blame him because for her it was that person who to be blame and no one else.

It is enough for her that her father wasn't oblivious to it. Furthermore, what right does she have to blame him when he also suffered by that person's hand.

Clearly, Shen Feng could understand that those words meant that they don't have to speak about those specific things anymore. "Alright , if that is what you want."

"Father, you must have done your investigation right? If it was me, I would surely have done so."

Shen Feng isn't surprised about this anymore because Xi Ana really did investigate. He was not familiar with the person who Xi Ana is working with since that was beyond his connection already. "I did but it was really hard to do so and I guess what I've learned, you already know."

He took the black notebook that he has always been keeping with him and pushed it in front of Xi Ana. "This is my diary which contains most of the things I've learned all these years, I don't know if it will help or not but you can use it as you see fit.

I've already mentioned this a while ago but I do really think that that person is obsess with your mother as for why or how they were acquainted, I tried to investigate for some clues but there was only a dead end. I believe there are some questions that can only be answered by that person."

Just at first glance Xi Ana could already recognize the notebook, it was the same notebook she saw that one time when he just got back and was drunk.

"Those threats were continuous all these years?"

"Yes, but it eventually stopped at the end of last year. I only came back now after carefully considering it and I also waited for father to approve of it. So far, nothing really happened until I came. I don't know why but it might have something to do with the underground society."

He knew that his daughter and her friends also has a hand in the underground society as for how deep they are in this world, he doesn't have any idea.

They are already here, if they don't talk about everything then they would certainly waste this opportunity. "Father have not yet forgotten about the other things we have to talk about right?"

Shen Feng knew that Xi Ana is talking about the matter with Hannah and Li Jingli. It seems like his daughter is really determined to finish everything tonight.

"How could I forget?" he said as he sighed.

This night he had sighed more than he'd ever done this year.

"I know that you already know about Hannah's background, everything is correct except for the person who helped her because that person is me. Your grandfather helped in concealing that fact that is why there was no mishaps about it."

Xi ana was suddenly enlightened as to why her grandfather insisted that he will be the one to manage the selection for his ȧssistant, that was because there was already a person for it without her knowledge

"At first I only want someone near you who can somehow look after you from a far. It doesn't necessarily need to be your ȧssistant, just someone on the top floor will do but Hannah volunteered and before I could refuse she was already among the applicants and she was so determined that I had no choice but to give her a hand."

Hannah is a good child and she did those things to help me and believe me when I say that she is genuine in everything else so please give her another chance to stay with you. If you want to blame someone, then blame father instead since it was all my fault for being so selfish."

Though Xi Ana didn't say anything as a response to this, she knew that Hannah was really genuine with her except for the fact that she was working for someone else which turned out to be her father which is unexpected.

For all these years, Hannah really caused her no harm because if she did, she wouldn't have let her stay for a long time beside her.

"I keep on pondering about this but I can't seem to find the logic why do you need to do this father, why do you need to spy on me?" her words were full of disappointment that Shen Feng can't help but feel sad.

"I'm sorry that you felt as though I was spying on you but really, I just wanted to know how you were doing at least.I know that once you started working in the company it will be a lot harder to see you."

"What does that mean?"

"When you were still overseas I often watch you from a far." he confessed.

"You were watching me?"

"I can't feel at ease without knowing how you were doing. Sometimes I would stay for a few days and observe you from a far and that was enough for me. Of course it was impossible to always watch over you. The only times I could really see you was when you were in England, I even bought the building in front of the place you and your friends stay at."