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I have an indescribable feeling in my heart. The two women in my life, Qing Er and Liu Yue, have already lost their lives and became the women of the Corydalis. Right now, Qing Er is very likely going to be the women of number three as well.

A commotion suddenly rose in my heart, and scenes of Qing Er's past and past for the past seven years appeared before my eyes …

I didn't have time to think about it. I said hello to old Xing, got on my secretary's motorcycle, and went down the hill.

"Obey the arrangements of the Party committee, and never disappoint the expectations of the Party committee, and guarantee to do a good job on Department of Public Information!" I calmly expressed my stance towards Ma Shuji. In my heart, I didn't feel any sense of achievement or joy, instead, I felt a bit of desolation and regret.

"It's going to be the new year soon, the handover is complete before the new year, and everything will be in place after the new year. Mei Ling, you take care of the arrangements!" Ma Shuji said at the end.

When Mei Ling and I came out of her office, Mei Ling smiled at me fawningly. "I'm back, I got promoted.

"Thank you!" I was expressionless and couldn't be bothered to socialize with Mei Ling.

"Your office is still Liu Fei's room. When the time comes, I will arrange for someone to change the latest computer for you. Mei Ling continued to please me.

"Thank you, Assistant Plum." I stopped walking and looked at Mei Ling: "I like to use Old PC s, don't exchange them for me, definitely don't …"

I know, that computer was used by Liu Yue.

The handover was actually very simple. On the morning before the New Year holiday, all the handovers had been completed and everyone had officially come on duty.

I became the Deputy Director of the Jianghai Daily News and took charge of the work.

After taking office, I presided over the first meeting of all the members in the department, and everyone gave me a warm welcome and support for my return and appointment. Chen Jing was especially happy, and during my speech, he saw her wipe the corner of her eyes from time to time.

I was very touched. This woman really didn't say anything to me. She had always been unwavering in her support for me.

It's just that, unfortunately, I don't have that kind of feeling for her.

Love couldn't be forced.

Seated on the Office of the past Liu Yue, looking at the branches shaking in the cold wind outside the window, I was filled with emotion.

The two women in my life, are Liu Yue and Qing Er.

Liu Yue had already thrown herself into the Corydalis's embrace, so she might be able to walk together with Old Third.

When I thought of Qing Er, my heart tightened all of a sudden. I couldn't help but think of those seven years of laughter and warmth. I thought of those warm and sweet memories …

I suddenly miss Qing Er.

However, I didn't have the face to look for Qing Er. I had once abandoned her so cruelly and mercilessly, and had even hurt her with indifference. There were too many things I had let down on her …

Closing the door of the office, I sat on the chair Liu Yue used to sit on. I would think of Liu Yue, and I would think of Qing Er.

Just then the phone on my desk rang.

"Hello, Jianghai Daily, I am Jiang Feng!" I touched the phone and introduced myself out of habit. This was a phrase that Liu Yue had set down when she was the director.

There was no sound on the phone.

"Hello, please!"

"You … Okay, Jianghai... University, I am... Xu... "Qingqing …" A slow, suppressed voice came over the phone.

So it was Qing Er who called. She was also replying to me in my standard language, but her emotions were too agitated and her words weren't smooth.

My heart was beating very quickly. Why did Qing Er call me? Are you going to inform me of his engagement to Old Third and invite me to a wedding wine?

"Qing Er, how did you know my phone number?" I asked Qing Er.

Qing Er slowly calmed her tone: "I just called your office to find out about your number, and I also knew that you just got promoted. Congratulations …"

"How did you know I was coming back?"

"I've been reading about your poverty reduction diary in the newspapers everyday, but it suddenly stopped. I think you've returned …"

My heart felt a wave of warmth. A year had passed, but Qing Er was still so concerned about me.

"Qing Er..." My voice was a little agitated. "You …" Are you all right? "

"Mm …" Qing Er's weak voice came out from the phone.

"Qing Er, I'm sorry," I said sincerely. "I am truly sorry, I have hurt you deeply before, I am wrong, I am wrong …"

"feng-ge, I don't blame you. I have never blamed you …" Qing Er said softly, "I don't blame her either. You all, I have never blamed you before …"

The more Qing Er said this, the more uncomfortable my heart felt, and the more I felt that my heart was filled with tender affection and love for Qing Er.

I bit my lip to stop myself.

"feng-ge, the reason I called you today was to tell you two things." Qing Er said softly.

"Tell me, Qing Er, I'll listen!" I tried to keep my voice level.

"First thing, I've agreed to Old Third's proposal. Today, I'm going to register the marriage with him at the office …" Qing Er said calmly.

My heart spasms. Another woman of mine is finally going to be lost again today.

Who can you blame? It was originally my woman, but I forcefully pushed her away and abandoned her. Now, she is finally going to be married to Old Third.

There are no women in my life.

My heart was filled with sorrow and sorrow. Qing Er, who had accompanied me for seven years, was finally about to throw herself into someone else's embrace …

"Wishing you all the best... "Congratulations …" I suppressed the pain in my heart and tried to say the words.

After saying these words, my tears started to moisten.

"Thank you. I have a second matter to attend to."

"Speak, Qing Er, I'm listening." My voice choked.

"feng-ge, I want to tell you, I love you, I'll always love you, even after this storm, even after this year of separation, I still love you deeply, you are the only man I ever loved in my life, no matter who I end up with …" Qing Er's voice became choked with sobs. "Even if I entered the wedding hall with another man, you're still the only person in my heart …"

"Qing Er..." My tears began to flow.

"I... "I …" Qing Er's voice on the other side of the phone started to sob, "I … In another 30 minutes, she would go to the Central District's Marriage Registration Office... I... I want... "I can see you there …"

Hearing Qing Er's cry, my tears flowed down, and I couldn't help but clench my fists as my heart felt as though it was being cut by knives.

"Old... Third Brother... Today too... And that's what you told me... He … He said so himself, he said... "He also hopes to see you there …" Qing Er began to sob uncontrollably, "feng-ge … Even if... Even at the last minute, as long as... As soon as you appear... I... "I know how to …"

Qing Er was finally unable to say anything, accompanied by a burst of tears, she hung up the phone.

I put down the phone and sat there in a daze. Qing Er's crying filled my ears, and I felt waves of stabbing pain in my heart …

Remembering the contents of Ol 'Three's letter, I couldn't help but ponder. Could it be that Ol' Three had purposely arranged all of this?

As I thought about it, I looked at the clock on the wall.

I sat in the Office, on the seat that Liu Yue had sat on for a few years. I stared fixedly at the clock on the wall, watching the second hand move about in circles, watching the minute hand move bit by bit.

I grabbed my hair and fell into a painful situation...

If God wants to destroy a man, he must shilling him for madness. But I've been mad for so long, and why didn't God destroy me, and why did God give me space and leeway to think?

Some people would always be engraved in their memories. Even if they forgot her voice, her smile, and her face, the feelings they would have whenever they thought of her would never change.

At the moment, Liu Yue was the same, Qing Er was the same.

Liu Yue no longer belongs to me, could it be that I want to lose Qing Er again?

The years of youth are like a river, the left bank is an unforgettable memory, the right bank is worth grasping the youth, in the middle of the flow, is the melancholy of youth. There were many beautiful things in the world, but not many truly belonged to him. See the flower blooming in front of the court, honor and disgrace do not alarm, look at the sky rolling clouds, to leave unintentional. In this winding mortal world, being able to use a normal heart to treat everything around him was also a kind of realm.

I was unable to maintain my calm and tranquil heart. My heart, which had been lonely for a long time, once again surged with raging waves. I was once again moved by Qing Er's crying to the deepest part of my brain that had been affected.

It was 10: 50 P.M. and there were only 10 minutes left before I finally couldn't sit still. Closing the door to my office, I rushed down the stairs, mounted my bike, and rushed frantically out of the newspaper yard. Under the winter sun, I ran desperately to the registration office in the city center on a road that was melting snow …