Chapter 521

He Zelin is a qualified father. After knowing my treatment process, he sent Kuankuan to me.

Kuankuan came in time, because the day after he came, Kuankuan in my memory appeared in my infancy. Strange to say, when I recall Kuankuan, those memories flow into my mind with texture. The feeling is warm and thick, which makes me feel more profound than the memory related to Lin Leyi.

The little width lying on the crib is very different from now, but I recognized it at first sight. This is Kuankuan, my son.

The joy of being a father was found on the third day. It was a memory of Leyi's hospital delivery. My chest was filled with an indescribable emotion, and there was only one sentence in my mind - I'm a father.

Kuankuan's appearance in my memory made my condition stable. After the treatment, as soon as I woke up, I saw Leyi and Kuankuan waiting outside the glass window. They all had worried faces, and when they saw me open the door and go out, they all came in a hurry. In particular, Kuankuan hugged my leg and looked up at me without saying a word.

I leaned over to pick him up and looked at Le Yi standing in front of me. My heart was full of strange happiness.

Maybe my expression was so strange that she gathered up her drooping hair and said to me, "what's the matter? What's wrong? "

"No, I just thought about a lot of things before." I looked at her and softened my voice.

"What do you think of?" She asked.

"We were on the top floor of the apartment, together with a wide, those memories, although fragmentary, but also beautiful, I'm glad I took the risk to get them back." I looked into her eyes and really felt that something in my heart began to thaw.

The three of us went back to our residence together, although it was just a hospital. The short-term family room also made me feel like going home.

Open the door, aunt Cao has made dinner, a room of fragrance.

I struggled helplessly some time ago. It seems that I have made up for it. Those days of day and night, reality and memory, have finally passed.

After dinner, aunt Cao coaxed Kuankuan to sleep.

There were only two of us left in the living room. She was reading a medical book, and I was reading her.

After a while, she seemed surprised by my quiet eyes, looked up at me and asked, "what's the matter? You're a little weird today. "

"The more I recall, the more I can find your good memories." I said to her.

She put the book down with a smile, looked at me and said, "I'm very happy that you've recovered so far, and it's totally beyond my expectation. I saw your treatment plan this afternoon, and I think we can terminate this treatment after the end of the second stage of treatment. You can remember that the fragments have recovered very well. "

Her words surprised me a little. Didn't she want a complete he Liancheng?

Only one third of my memories are incomplete to her. Moreover, I still think of myself as Cheng Xin, and I have not completely replaced him as he Liancheng.

Now I'm very strange. I think about one third of them are he Liancheng, and the other two thirds are Cheng Xin.

"Why?" I asked.

"I don't want you to take risks. The third stage will give you more stimulation, which is likely to lead to mental disorder. Now you are very good. I can't bear the risk of your continuing treatment." She looked at me, the smile on her face disappeared, "even if... Even if you just treat me as an ordinary friend now, I don't want you to continue the treatment, as long as you have that kind of father son affection for Kuankuan."

"No, I've decided to give you a complete he Liancheng." I look at her.

It's not easy to make this decision. In fact, Cheng Xin killed himself.

"What if it fails?" She asked.

"I can afford it. If you fail, just go to the hospital and see me regularly. Take Kuankuan with you. If we succeed, we can go back to the past. You don't have to carry it alone any more. " I said.

As far as I can remember, in our relationship. Lin Leyi is always a giver. She has never tried to get anything from me. If we had financial contacts, the money only helped her for a short time, and she gave it back to he's family afterwards.

In the eyes of those money worshipers, she was with me as a wine girl just for money. She never explained these misunderstandings

However, now I want to give her an explanation, do not want to let a woman really pay into a vain.

"Liancheng, I believe you are back." She looked at me and took a few steps towards me. "I don't want you to take any risks. It's not easy for us all the way. It's good to have such a result. We have leniency and a common past. As for the future, can we leave it to time? None of us can guarantee the future. There is no need to take such a big risk for the uncertain future. ""It's worth it." My rare firmness.

If I had a little hesitation when she told me to give up just now, now I don't have any hesitation. For the woman in front of me, I'm worth gambling.

I didn't want to touch her with this, but I inadvertently moved her.

She looked at me with some hesitation.

"Don't worry, there should be no problem, because I have you and leniency." I said with a smile.

The third stage of treatment is so determined. In fact, none of us is fully sure. But everyone's face is written with firm assurance, just like the treatment will be successful.

The last treatment represents the strongest stimulation. No one knows what I will become after this stimulation.

Forced brainwashing amnesia is different from autonomic amnesia, because the physical trauma to the brain is double-layer, unlike autonomic amnesia, which is just neurotic. Your memory is still in your head. You just fall asleep. And my amnesia is like washing out the recording on the tape. I can only get it back from the subconscious that people haven't studied yet.

God knows what lives in everyone's subconscious.

I remember hearing from somewhere that there is a devil in everyone's subconscious mind.

Maybe it's just a guess.

We also hope it's speculation.

The third stage of treatment went on as scheduled. Before I lay down, I left a letter to Lin Leyi, which wrote about how to distribute the company and heritage if I went crazy.

All I have is for her and our children.

The door of the operating room closed, I lay down on the operating table, closed my eyes and left everything to God.

The initial feeling is calm, and then people just like sitting on the sea, the waves slowly come up, those memories began to surface, but this time is intermittent, the last second appeared, the next wonderful disappeared.

With more and more of these memories, I suddenly felt physically uncomfortable. My whole body began to feel sick and vomit, almost spitting out my stomach and gall.

The body starts to get hot

When I felt that I was about to lose consciousness, I suddenly saw a wedding dress, beautiful white wedding dress, beautiful enough to make people feel dazzling.

It's just that the person in the wedding dress has always turned his back to me. What he showed me was a beautiful figure. Slim waist, tall body

I took a few steps forward, trying to reach out and hold her to see if she was Lin Leyi, who was full of my memory. But after countless efforts, I found that no matter how I walked, the distance between me and her was only a fixed number.

When I found this, I was in a hurry.

"Leyi, is that you?" I asked her.

She didn't answer, I raised my voice, she still walked in front of me.

I don't know how many times I tried, but I didn't see her face. Then I saw the wedding car, he Xiao, the bridge and the sea, and there was a child covered with blood in the middle of the road. Then the people in the wedding dress began to change color, and their bodies began to bleed, and they all flew out.

At this moment, I saw her face. It was Lin Leyi

I ran over without thinking, and then I put my arms around her, and then I saw the width of the serious injury... Everything began to get confused, I didn't know what was the beginning and what was the end, and I didn't know which picture was in the front and which picture was in the back

I have a headache, The whole body aches

A man wrapped up like a mummy is lying on the hospital bed

He Xiao

Guo Mingming

White frost

Yuan Zheng

Peng Jiade

More and more people's names and incidents poured in, and my brain became more and more painful. I held my head tightly, I want to bump my head against the wall to relieve my pain... This kind of pain is like pricking countless needles in my brain at the same time, each of which is sharp and strange. I can clearly feel the needles sewing clothes in my mind

All of a sudden, everything is still, everything is faded, I feel that everything in front of me is back to the blank

I don't remember anything, but I vaguely remember what I was looking for

In addition to fog or fog, a face completely different from myself appeared. He was a handsome man. He stood calmly in front of me, looked at me coldly and said, "are you Cheng Xin? Trying to pretend to be me? "I don't know how to answer. Am I Cheng Xin? I'm not sure.

"You can never be me, because you don't deserve it. You let your own woman carry it alone for two and a half years. You gave up your own child, your own father and your mother's hard work..." his words are more and more, and my head is more and more painful

In front of us is the endless fog, A vast expanse of white

I don't know where I am or who I am. My only thought is that I am looking for something important