Chapter 198

His simple words make me feel heartbroken. When I have full of hope, I will accept the disappointment of toppling. This kind of gap can blow people to collapse.

His breath is very light, close to my ear, said: "you and Kuankuan are all I can't give up, dad is also my closest relatives, I really have a hard choice between you. I want you, I want a baby, and I don't want to have no father. "

I listen and put my hand on his hand around my abdomen: "I know, so no matter what choice you make, I respect you, cooperate with you and support you."

"I've been silly since I heard the news. He Xiao told me the news. Although we are at odds with each other, he can't cheat me on such a matter. You know what? " He took a deep breath, forced down the feeling of collapse, and then continued, "he told me for the first time after hearing the old man's phone call. I thought it was fake, but at the beginning of the meeting, the old man announced it with a happy face. Recently, all my energy has been on guard against He Xiao and the board of directors of the group. But did not expect, horizontal kill out is my that always gentle harmless little mother. It's ridiculous that my future brother or sister is one year younger than my son... "

He was smiling, wry.

My back is close to his chest. I can feel his body shaking slightly. I really want to turn around and give him a strong hug, but he hugs me and won't let me move. After a while, he said, "the matter of Lan Hua is not the opinion of the old man alone. It's decided by vote. I just found out that the so-called commitment between people is not equal to economic benefits. I think too naively. In the old man's words, I don't think too much, but too little. "

He finally gradually calmed down, the tone did not make people feel sad, but showed a sense of helplessness.

I don't know how to comfort him. After he slowly released his hand, I hugged him and said in a low voice, "if you want to buy Lanhua, let's buy some money. It's really no good. I can transfer the company. Now there are several big companies headquartered in other places that are more interested in me. They should be able to sell at a good price."

When he heard what I said, his face became loose. He tried to turn his head away from me, looked at the unknown night outside the window and said, "no, this company is the foundation of your life, and you can't move. Besides, women always have to leave a way for themselves. I don't accept it. "

"With you, what back road I'll leave behind, you are my back road..." I pulled his face and let him look at me.

"I don't believe you. I don't believe in myself. Your company can't move until I can't control the overall situation. At least, your company is making a profit. " He firmly refused my offer.

"It's not wise to transfer the group's equity. Think about it again." I know he will be a little impulsive now, trying to persuade with the most peaceful tone.

He nodded, released me, sighed and went back to the living room.

There is only a small table lamp in the living room. The light is a little dim. He walked over, the long shadow dragged on the ground, and then disappeared. I saw him pull to the patio door and stand alone in the dark.

I knew that he wanted to be alone for a while, but he was not at ease. He hesitated for a moment, took out a box of cigarettes from the cupboard, and took the lighter to the terrace.

When we first moved here, the two of us were in a relaxed mood and had free time, so we made a special arrangement. There are wide boards on the ground, and there is a small pond one meter square. Now the bowl lotus is in full bloom. Close to the glass fence, there are several pots of tall flowers and trees. The leaves of Phyllostachys pubescens hang down slightly, covering the rattan tables and chairs in the dark.

Before he came up, he didn't turn on the light from the room. The light in the living room was shining through the glass. He was so shadowy that he couldn't see anything clearly.

When I walked over, he heard my steps and didn't look back. Instead, he went to the most side chair and sat down, looking out.

I went up behind him and asked softly, "would you like a cigarette?"

He Liancheng is not addicted to cigarettes. When he is in a bad mood, he smokes two cigarettes. Since he has been lenient, he almost gives up smoking and doesn't even touch them.

He turned around and took out a cigarette, put it on his mouth and just wanted to take it off. He crumpled it in the palm of his hand and threw it back on the table. He said, "the biggest problem now is that there is not enough money. Nange biology is not willing to give up. It's a waste of months of hard work to give up now. Leyi, what do you think I should do? " His voice became more and more low. His black eyes flashed under the dim light. The sadness and helplessness like wine came out from inside. I pulled him to my arms and whispered: "some time ago, you said that a friend who did biomedical research could help you, now?"

"Those funds are only enough for the acquisition of Nange biology. Lanhua has so much registered capital. Even if I deal with some bad debts, the funds I have to hand over to the group are more than nine figures..." he Liancheng's voice is slightly hoarse, and he pushes me to the opposite chair.I held his hand tightly and looked at him across a table. We did not speak, so quietly sat for a long time, he finally said: "should not let you worry for me, you go to rest."

"Liancheng." I leaned over, smoothed his tight forehead with my hand and said, "take a rest first, and think about it tomorrow."

He was silent for a long time before he said, "you don't see my father's expression today. I feel jealous because of the joy. I'm thinking, when he first knew my existence, did he face my mother with such expression and joy? "

His voice is very low and his speaking speed is very slow. Sometimes he stops to think about what words are more suitable. In my opinion, he is very calm. But I know, this is a superficial phenomenon, no one can understand the pain in his heart.

"I heard that we were at the break of the meeting, and dad received her phone call. I saw from a distance that his eyes were obviously bright at that time... I've never seen him look like this before. It's like finding the most precious thing. " He said with admiration and loss in his voice.

"I miss you very much. I knew it for the first time when you were pregnant, because at that time, Yu Miao was still working as an insider for me, lying in ambush beside you and telling me all about you quietly. I was ecstatic, too. I came back from the outside, and you were in the safe passage of the building when I found you. You don't know, at that time, I looked at you through a small glass, and I wanted to go and hug you... But, for the sake of that damned situation, in order to hold all this in my own hands, I held back and watched you stand there struggling and sad. You don't know how scared I am of you having an abortion. " There was an uncontrollable cry in his voice, which made me sad.

At that time, I expected my father to hold me and say something or nothing to me with a happy face. But no, my two pregnancies were carried by one person.

But now I can't say anything more. He Liancheng's self reproach has made him unbearable.

"It's OK. It's bitter before it's sweet. Liancheng. Don't think about it." I grabbed his cold hand.

In the hot July of the imperial capital, his hands were as cold as if they had been frozen in an ice cellar.

"I despise illegitimate children. I don't want my children to be born as illegitimate children. I'm eager for quick success and instant benefit in business. I just want to arrange everything before Kuankuan is born, so as to give you a proper identity and give the child a proper identity. But that damned car accident, let me can't help, I jumped out, can't play any more. At that moment, I even thought that if the baby was gone, you know if I pretended to lose my memory and would hate me all my life and never forgive me again... I'm scared to death, Leyi... "He didn't look up at me and said in a low voice.

I went over and squatted down beside him, took his hand and looked up at him. There was something moving in his eyes.

He took a deep breath and suppressed all these weak emotions. Instead of looking at me at the beginning, he continued: "my father can't wait to announce that he has a child at the board meeting. What about me?" He asked with a wry smile, "what about me? At that time, I was afraid that others would know that your baby was mine, and I wanted others to know that your baby was mine... Am I incompetent and mean? " He finally looked at me and asked me in a heart breaking voice.

"I let you face everything by yourself. I didn't jump out until the baby was about to be born... I'll never forgive myself for this. I look down on myself. I'm not as good as Liu Tian, and I'm not as good as Xiao. My whole life has been a complete failure. " When he said this, he suddenly stood up, quickly walked to the balcony door, stopped and said, "Leyi, if I fail this time, I will leave 3% of the equity of the group to you, and you will have a good life with your baby."

As soon as his voice fell, he jerked open the door and went out as fast as he could.

My heart was hit by his words, and it was empty. I stood up in a hurry and ran out. When I ran to the balcony door, I almost fell down in the dark. When I came to the living room and saw him go to the wide room, I was relieved.

I thought he would slam the door again after he said these words, and then when he was most helpless, he would go to a place where there was no one to hide.

He only turned on a small lamp in the corner, half kneeling in front of the crib, carefully looking at Kuankuan.

Kuankuan is still sleeping. Maybe she is still eating in her dream and her mouth is moving. After a while, I don't know if I feel someone beside the bed. He turns over impatiently and leaves his ass to he Liancheng.

He just half knelt and looked at his favorite son. He didn't move for a long time. I crept up to him and saw that his eyes were half closed and his face was tired.

I went back to my room and got a blanket for him. He was so cold. How can I do this?

He suddenly opened his scarlet eyes, looked at me and said in a low voice, "go to sleep. I'll be with you for a while.""You go back to your room and I'll take the baby." I pulled him up, dragged him back to the bedroom, and then carried Kuankuan back to the big bed.

Only today did I know that he didn't accompany me when I was pregnant. His guilt was so deep. Today, he Zelin knew his mother's reaction to pregnancy, which caused more stimulation to him and made him feel guilty all the time to the critical point.

Lan Hua's story is just a fuse, which finally leads to the old story in his heart. He can't let go of it and refuses to let go of his own death