When she was almost out of breath, Lin Qing Kai stopped for a while, Their breath was entangled, and he asked in a low voice, "Is this your first kiss?"
"Yes." Jiang Ling looked like a bewildered soul, and her voice was faint.
Lin Qing Kai smiled, and kissed her forehead: "Then kiss me again."
A long time later, when Jiang Ling mentioned her first kiss, the first thing that she remembered was the dim lights and night breeze from that night. The voices of people and cars were far away, and Lin Qing Kai's fingers behind her ears were hot.
After a long time, the phone on his pocket vibrated. Lin Qing Kai moved away from her lips and pressed the answer button without looking at the caller.
The boys were urging him to come. It was quiet, and Jiang Ling could clearly understand the loud voice on the other end: "Aren't you done being intimate yet?"
Jiang Ling blushed. Fortunately, it was dark, and he couldn't see that her cheeks were red. Lin Qing Kai still didn't deny anything, only replying casually.
"We're in a KTV, the place where we used to visit often. After you're done..." Jiang Ling didn't hear the rest of the words--Lin Qing Kai slid his palm to her waist and wandered there for a while before lifting her skirt again, and hooking his middle finger between her legs.
"You're wet." He whispered in her ear.
Jiang Ling was afraid that the people on the phone would hear him, so she raised her hand to cover his mouth. Lin Qing Kai smiled, grabbed her wrist, and replied: "Okay, I'll be there."
It was the first time that Jiang Ling found out what a kiss could do. She always wanted him to kiss her deeper and heavier, and some water came out. She didn't even know if it was because of her own body or because it was him.
Lin Qing Kai took back the phone: "What are you thinking about?"
Jiang Ling stayed silent for a while before figuring it out. Her lips were still numb from the kiss, and all her troubles and losses just disappeared. "I'm not unhappy."
This time, it was the truth.
Lin Qing Kai deliberately teased her, and the corners of his lips twitched, "Do you like me so much? A kiss makes you that happy."
That's how she likes him.
Jiang Ling pursed her lips and looked away.
"You're also like that for me," Lin Qing Kai pinched her buttocks, "I'll fuck you sooner or later."
Jiang Ling blushed when she went upstairs. She put her forehead on the glass window and watched him leave. His shoulders were broad, narrow waist, walking without haste. Her whole heart was soft. She always feel... this time, compared to the past, there was something different.
After this subtle sense of 'difference', she stared at her phone for two days. He didn't contact her, and she waited for a long time for nothing. Jiang Ling slowly realized that for Lin Qing Kai, the kiss didn't mean anything.
Speaking of which, from the very beginning, Lin Qing Kai was very straightforward. His desires were straightforward, he didn't use words to trick her, nor did he force her. In other words, she actually understands that if she really blame someone for falling for him, it will only be her. She was willing.
Jiang Ling slumped on the carpet, exhaling a long breath.
Back at school, her desk mate was sharing snacks that she brought from home and threw a small packet of potato chips at her: "Did you not leave school that day? Did you see who Lin Qing Kai came to look for?"
"No." Jiang Ling rested her chin on the edge of the table, still slumping. Her eyes were empty, and her heart is even more empty. She sprayed a lot of water that day, and her voice was hoarse. She looked around and worried that anyone might know about it.
She answered simply. During class, she took out a note from the table: 'Are you with Lin Qing Kai?'
This familiar handwriting... Jiang Ling turned to look at the class monitor in the back row. The monitor and his desk mate were talking nervously at their side, and when they saw her looking over, they immediately lowered their heads. His reaction caused Jiang Ling to panic.
Fortunately, on the way back to the dormitory, the class monitor told her the truth: "On Friday, i was late to leave school. When I came out, I saw you and Lin Qing Kai getting on the same car. I thought you two were..."
"No, no." Jiang Ling was relieved. After denying, she added: "We are not actualy familiar with each other. That was... it happened to be carpooling?"
There were a few people behind, and a boy couldn't hold back his joy: "It's not a new girlfriend, but carpooling?"
Lin Qing Kai hooked his lips lazily. He didn't recognize the monitor, but he remembered the voice. He confessed to Jiang Ling in the abandoned teaching building that day.
But he hasn't seen him these days, and the monitor's courage has obviously improved. He was very happy and pushed his glasses: "That's good. I almost misunderstood."
Not at all, Jiang Ling thought.
The monitor secretly clenched his fist to cheer himself up: "Then, can I ask you to go to the library at noon?"
Jiang Ling thought of refusing, and the monitor quickly said: "I have a very important thing to tell you. You must come."
The fourth floor is the previous main library. There were a lot of old books and not many students were coming.
When Jiang Ling hesitated, she decided to go. It would be better to speak clearly with the monitor at once. She was also like this, hanging on without assurance. She doesn't want to do this to someone else.
The monitor became nervous again. He did not speak for a while and stuffed the letter that he prepared into Jiang Ling's hand, before shyly retreating.
Jiang Ling didn't open it first. She stood between the two rows of bookshelves, looking at the neatly folded paper in her hand, her thoughts drifting away.
It was the same as her feeling for Lin Qing Kai before. There was no reason to like, but she was excited when she sees him. She didn't dare speak, let alone confess. Her greatest hope was that he could look and smile at her.
Right now, they were obviously more intimate than what she originally imagined. But she was dissatisfied. On the contrary, she missed the past, where she only had a simple crush.
The sunlight came in from the window, making the room bright.
She looked down and saw a shadow on the ground, and then she was hugged from behind.
The arms were covered with slender muscles, wrapping around her waist, and the warm palm was climbing up to her left breast.
"Not familiar with me?" He asked.
Jiang Ling recognized his scent, and when she turned her head, Lin Qing Kai clasped her chin and kissed her.
Her breast was rubbed. She couldn't help but lean forward on the old bookshelf, and after a dull squeak, there was the only sound of the two people's intertwining breath.