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On that day, Qin Mei was very gentle and warm. Bai Shaotang was a little dizzy when she drank. She was really happy, but she didn't know. When she woke up, she was only empty.

After their love, Qin Mei puts her pillow on Bai Shaotang's arm. She doesn't move until she hears Bai Shaotang's snoring. She doesn't sit up until she is sure that Bai Shaotang is asleep.

Slender fingers gently stroked the young handsome face. Maybe it was a mistake for them to be together, but she didn't regret it at all.

Although pregnancy is very troublesome, but she does not blame him, all the things, she is willing to bear, whether it is laughter or pain, because love him, she is willing to taste.

After standing in front of the bed and staring for a long time, he knelt down in front of the bed, closed his eyes, imprinted a gentle kiss on Bai Shaotang's lips, and left, not because he didn't love, but because he loved too much and couldn't afford it.

They are still very young, unable to predict the future, and she does not want to be with him with inferiority complex. In the future, if one day, she has enough courage to face the gap between them, one day, in front of him, when she will no longer feel inferior, she will go to him.

She won't tell him about the pregnancy. For the moment, she hasn't figured out how to do it. If she has fate, if she can see her later, if she has the ability to bear the bitterness of this first love, if

Too many if, let her can't believe the promise, she only know, she must be strong to survive now, walk her own way, not parasitic on him.

She has no education background, no experience, no age, and just a heart that doesn't give up. Even if she leaves Bai Shaotang or Qin family, she will survive, no matter where her parents are? She's going to find them, too.

They owe her too much, too much, she needs a reason, a reason to let her no longer hate.

Too much love and hate, let her very tired, tired out of breath, tired can not breathe.

After leaving the happy house of love and her first love, Qin Mei wiped away her tears and rented a humble house in the downtown area with the pocket money given by Bai Shaotang and started a hard life.

Delivering newspapers, delivering takeaway, cleaning, sending flowers, she does everything that can make money.

She went out before dawn every day, and could not come back until very late. She was very tired. However, her physical fatigue could make her start the pain in her heart and temporarily ignore the pain of separation. However, this kind of fatigue also had sequelae, that is, fainting on the way to delivery.

At this time, Qin shaomei left the hall one night after she was drunk.

When he woke up, he felt that there was no one around him. Bai Shaotang was still a little unresponsive. He yawned. After getting up and washing, he went downstairs to find Qin Mei. However, after searching everywhere, he didn't see anyone. Moreover, the kitchen was clean and there was no food. At this time, he did not care. He went to the guest room and turned on the TV.

However, as time went by, Bai Shaotang's stomach began to sing empty city plan. Qin Mei was still not seen. At this time, Bai Shaotang was worried.

About half an hour later, he didn't see anyone. He began to feel a little flustered. At this time, Qin Mei's abnormal reaction appeared in his mind after he came back. The more he thought about it, the more upset he felt. But he didn't immediately call.

First of all, he rushed back to the room and opened the wardrobe to check Qin Mei's clothes. At first, he didn't find anything, because Qin Mei only took a few change clothes. But after a closer look, he found that there was really something missing. At this time, his face changed.

No longer hesitating, he picked up the phone decisively. Before hearing Qin Mei's voice, he first got the clear ring tone, which he downloaded to the mobile phone. He was very familiar with it. Looking back, the sound seemed to come from the bed. At this time, he couldn't think too much. He rushed to the front of the bed, pulled the quilt out of the bed, looked for the sound, looked at the trembling sheet and pulled it down.

When he saw the thick pile of paper under the mobile phone, his face turned white.

He did not dare to reach out, because he knew what it meant. He was too happy yesterday, and he was fascinated by her. He didn't think about the reason behind her abnormality.

"Qin Mei, how can you be so heartless? How can you leave without saying goodbye? "

Bai Shaotang closed his eyes, and Qin Mei's smile and tears flashed in his head. Why could she go so heartless?

Where is she at this time? Trembling to pick up the letter, the first reflection in the eyes is blurred by tears, she is crying to write this farewell letter, why so silly?

Can't you leave and start all over again? Why don't you believe him?

Bai Shaotang's tears fell again on the dry tear marks of the letter paper. At the moment of seeing the letter paper, a trace of resentment flashed in his heart. However, when he saw the tear marks on the paper, he was more worried. With her stubborn temper, she would not go back to the Qin family. She was alone and lonely. Where would she go?

Bai Shaotang went to Qin's family after Qin Mei left, but Qin Mei didn't go back. On the one hand, his father and mother urged him to leave as soon as possible. After looking for nothing for a week, he chose to leave. Before leaving, he asked his parents to continue to help find Qin Mei and her parents, and he took his phone number with Qin Mei.

He has an expectation in his heart. He expects Qin Mei to call him and she can come to him.Separated from Bai Shaotang for more than a month, Qin MEI works like crazy, but ignores the needs of her body.

After leaving Bai Shaotang, she did not go to the hospital for examination. At first, she was holding an ostrich attitude. She hoped that the test paper would come out. In addition, she did not want to spend that money. A visit to the hospital would cost several hundred at least. She did not have the extra money.

But with the passage of time, she had an obvious feeling. When she put her hand on her abdomen, she obviously felt different from before. It seemed that she could touch something. She knew very well that it was still time to go to the hospital at this time, but it was a lot of money. Although she had made some money in the past month, she couldn't pay for the operation fee, so she shrank back 。

It was the end of August. Qin Mei was sending her appearance. Suddenly, she was dizzy. She had no time to get off the bus and fell down.

When she woke up, there was a white wall and white sheet around her. She opened the quilt and was about to get out of bed, but was stopped by the nurse who pushed the door in.

"Miss Qin, do you know what's wrong with your body?"

Qin Mei looked up at the nurse and shook her head after hesitation. She knew, but she didn't want to admit that she knew what would be said and done in the hospital, but she had no money.

She had no money for abortion, no money for hospitalization, and could not afford medical and surgical expenses, so she had to leave.

"You are very weak, which is extremely unhealthy for a pregnant woman. You need to contact your family and arrange the operation as soon as possible. If you wait for the baby to grow up, it will hurt you more..."

The nurse came to Qin Mei and said a lot, but she couldn't listen. She thought about the operation, but she didn't have a strong desire. During this period of time, she thought more about her own life experience.

She wanted to know why her mother abandoned her at the beginning, and she also wanted to try to see if she would follow the same path as her mother.

Maybe she wants to prove something. She has a vague idea in her mind. She wants to give birth to a child. She wants to prove that a mother doesn't need to abandon her child. As long as she has a firm heart, she can raise a child by herself. This naive and childish idea is beyond the comprehension of adults.

"Miss Qin, are you listening to me?"

The nurse saw Qin Mei dumbfounded and frowned.

The nurse's words also attracted the attention of other patients in the same ward. They looked at Qin Mei with different eyes. Fortunately, Qin Mei has been used to this kind of eyes and won't pay attention to it.

"Yes, I'll call home later."

Qin Mei light road.

This is a perfunctory nurse. What she is thinking now is not when to operate and inform her family from time to time, but how to leave the hospital and pay for the medical expenses incurred.

The hospital asked her to find her parents, but she needed someone to pay for the medical expenses. Fortunately, she didn't have any information. Besides the ID card, the hospital couldn't find anything.

"That's good. There's a public phone outside. If you don't have a phone card, you can call the store next to the hospital. There are public phones available."

The nurse finally had a little smile on her face. It seemed that Qin Mei was right at all.

"Thank you, sister. I'll call in a minute."

Qin Mei raises her head and smiles. At this time, she has decided to escape, so she can't make people suspicious.

It's not that she is immoral. She can't afford to pay, but she promises that when she gets rich, she will come back and pay back.

The nurse took the temperature for Qin Mei and then left after nagging for a few words. After the nurse left, Qin Mei changed back her clothes and went out.

fortunately, there are many people in the hospital. Besides the people in the ward, no one else noticed her. As for the identity card, it was not even for the time being. Anyway, she remembered her ID number, and spent most of her money on dozens of dollars for a fake.

After leaving the hospital, Qin Mei returned to the fast food restaurant where she worked for the first time, but the restaurant was unwilling to use her. Although she lost a job, they paid half a month's salary more. For Qin Mei, who was short of money, it was a little consolation. Fortunately, other jobs were still there.

After returning to her residence, Qin Mei took out all her savings. So far, she has saved 5000 yuan. If she only lives and eats, she should be able to support for several months. However, she still has to find a job. Her stomach has not come out yet. She should still be able to work for a few more months. No matter what, she wants to try. She wants to prove that all the mothers in the world are not so cruel 。

After a half day's rest at home, Qin Mei went out to work again. The hospital didn't investigate Qin Mei's parents deeply without contacting her parents, because the kind-hearted people who sent her to the hospital paid the hospitalization fee early in the morning.

Since she entered the hospital, Qin Mei found that she seemed to be in bad luck. She lost several jobs, and suddenly she was faced with the dilemma of sitting in the mountains. Now it is different from before. In the past, when she was hungry, she could bear it, or she would just eat a steamed bread.

Now, even if she doesn't eat, she has to eat what she has in her stomach. Several times, she has walked into the public phone booth. When she picks up the phone, she can't press the key. At this time, Bai Shaotang should be in the United States. What's the point of her phone call?Every time I stand in front of the public phone booth for a long time, but I didn't pull out the number. When someone else goes to the United States, how can they still use the Chinese phone number? Maybe they have changed it.

Back to her residence, what she often does is to take the card in a daze. Although she can't see the money in it, she knows very well that although her stomach hasn't shown yet, it's estimated that it will be able to see it in two months. Fortunately, it will be cold after two months. When she puts on thick clothes, it is estimated that she can cover up for a period of time. The most important thing is the current work.