Chapter 1465

"Li Chen, you said... You love brother Gu, just because he told me before he died, so take care of me." Yun'an takes a deep breath, but no one takes care of his beloved's sweetheart and takes care of him in bed.

He looked at Li Chen steadily, "do you love me?"

Why, he said, just to take care of him.

He doesn't love him.

But he could see from Li Chen's eyes that nostalgia and love were not what he said he had no feelings at all. Why did he deny all this? He didn't even dare to admit that he loved himself.

Li Chen was about to stop talking, and his eyes were silent and sad. "Do I love you or not? Don't you feel at all?"

"I'm asking you!" Yun'an suddenly roared, "if I ask you anything, you can give me a good answer!"

He rarely speaks loudly. He is not an Ascaris worm in Li Chen's stomach. I don't know what he is thinking. He said himself that he loves brother Gu and just takes care of him.

Take care of

What a care!

"Now, answer me, do you love me?" Yun'an asked.

Is this question so difficult to answer?

Don't love, love, just a word.

He was silent.

Li Chen's silence is not that the question is difficult to answer, but after the answer? Whether to love yun'an or not is not a difficult question to answer. He lied and did something wrong.

Lies and mistakes rolled up like a snowball, and all the truth had been buried. What the truth was was no longer important. He was most afraid of yun'an's disappointment, and finally let him down.

"I see." Yun'an painfully closed his eyes. He couldn't look into Li Chen's eyes and said he liked him, but he was always unhappy without saying this.

Love or not, his heart is very clear.

"When brother Gu died, I was in a mess for a period of time. If I hadn't been with you, I would have been dead long ago. After his death, I drank alcohol, took drugs, degenerated, and indulged myself. For half a year, people were not like people and ghosts were not like ghosts. I lost my friends, lost my job, and lost everything. No matter where Gu Xingchen and his wife took me to relax, I seemed to see brother Gu, I said it well in front of them. I would live hard and live well. Where they couldn't see it, I went to find drug dealers. I went to get drunk. I crowded with a group of bad teenagers in a dark room to take drugs and dream of death. At that time, I was like living in a marsh. "

"I promised him that I would not commit suicide, but I couldn't find a little hope of living. I was wondering how long I could last, half a year, one year, two years? Or ten years. Living is too cold and lonely. I can indulge only when I am drunk and calm in the narrow life of drugs. I think I should die for a year at most. Maybe one day the social news will have a scandal about the death of a juvenile appraiser due to drug overdose."

"If it weren't for you, I couldn't get out of that mess, because you and brother Gu are too much alike... You are as tall as him, you are as reassuring as him, you like the same aroma as him, you have a pair of reassuring eyes as he does, you can give me the warmest hug as he does, and you are so gentle when you even call me a waste... Li Chen, I took you as him, and I didn't love you for a long time, But I love your breath, your voice, your eyes, your... Hug, but I don't love you. "