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On January 24, 2017

New Year's Eve

you, uncle Qiu Yu and aunt Hongru all came to my home to spend New Year's Eve together. I'm very angry that you brought Qin Liulian here again. Hiding in the room, a man took a petal bath in the bathtub.

Unexpectedly, you showed up in my room drunk.

Don't you drink a lot?

Even if it's just one drink?

I'm still angry. I didn't expect that you would suddenly hold me

Kiss

My brain a blank, lips and teeth depend on each other, I just feel my heart does not belong to my own.

It turns out that I can't forget it at all. You can make me doomed with a kiss.

I hate being kissed, except you.

You are very excited. You stripped my clothes directly without any teacher. It seems that you want to kiss my whole body, from lips to face, to chest, to abdomen

I know what you're doing and I know you drink a lot. But I don't want to refuse.

I think that if we didn't have Qin Liulian's phone call, we might have done it.

I've never hated a person so much.

If Qin Liulian died one day, I would have killed him.

If I did, Susu, would you hate me? Or will you kill me?

The call interrupted our impulse.

You seem to wake up and hold your head in chagrin.

I don't know what you're thinking, and I don't want to know.

All of a sudden, I thought, let's just make mistakes.

I tried to knock you down, but I was disappointed.

You kiss me, but strongly refuse my further action.

Susu, what are you thinking?

Why can't I understand?

Or

In fact, you are driven by desire?

It turns out that men can have sex without love

I was badly taught by you.

……

……

December 2, 2024 is a very special day.

Sulina, the wand told me that I had moved the star this year. But the year is almost over, except for Xuanyuan Mufeng's cabbage, I don't see any stars.

Isn't hongluan star going to get married?

But Xuanyuan Mufeng is very interesting. I killed his lover and he wanted to kill me for revenge. This character is very similar to my beautiful dad.

I feel like I like him a little bit. It's a surprise.

Seeing him decadent because of his lover's death, I was distressed.

That's not good news.

Am I empathizing?

How far is love and love.

Or Susu is the cinnabar mole in my heart.

I think, this life, I may not love it

Because I can't fall in love with anyone

Susu, Susu

Can I love you?

Can I hate you?

……

……

June 16, 2026

sorry

Ha ha ha Sorry

No, you don't have to say sorry.

Who's going to tell me I'm sorry? I'm in a hurry!

…………

June 21, 2026

If I return to my good friend, is it the best choice? Anyway, I decided to make friends with Susu in the future.

I should have done that many years ago, but I'm not firm enough. Sometimes I think I really want to say to Susu that it's a lifelong mistake for you to miss me, because there will never be a woman who loves you more than me in the world! But just thinking about it. I know I don't dare to face Su Su. I've never been brave enough.

So many years, my best time, my eyes are all on you, but I can't even ask for your pity.

You would rather choose others than me

I don't know how, I suddenly think of Jian'an and Tianxing.

Jane Ann also decided not to let Tianxing's life be in danger, so she chose to leave Tianxing. It's the way she loves.

I think, if it's me, I would like to keep Su Su, even if the last second, listen to him say, I love you. Life, Chunhua Qiushi do not want, as long as you have. This is probably the greatest happiness.

Seeing this, Susu can't go on looking.

Xiaoye, my Xiaoye Even if the last second, listen to him say, I love you. Life, Chunhua Qiushi do not want, as long as you have. This is probably the greatest happiness.

Su Su only felt that her head was full of the expression when Xiao Ye wrote this sentence.Lobule Lobule What makes you write such heartbreaking sentences? Never like now, let his heart crack.

Are you really going to be happy? Life is still a long time

"Xiaoye Lobules... " Su Su called Murong Ye's name, he was afraid that if he bowed his head, more than ten years of persistence would become nothing.

"I love you Love you... " Su Su buried her head in the quilt full of Murong leaf fragrance.

It's his cowardice. It's his fault.

Not that I don't love you, but that I can't, dare not You said that there will be no woman who loves me more than you. What you don't know is that there will be no man who loves you more than I do.

If you want to listen, I'll tell you every day, OK?

Will you be happy?

After watching Xiaoye's mood for more than ten years, he could no longer escape. His love and hate were intertwined, and he could not stop. Every word, as if it were a pearl, was printed on his heart.

Even if the last second, listen to him say, I love you. Life, Chunhua Qiushi do not want, as long as you have. This is probably the greatest happiness. This sentence made Su Su unable to resist and broke the last insistence in his heart.

"Xiao Ye, I love you..." More than ten years, countless times, in the bottom of my heart said countless times love you, but not once said to you. Heartless hurt, but hurt the most.

If there is an afterlife, he is willing to guard Xiaoye from generation to generation. This is the best answer he can give her.

Suddenly feel a gentle hand on the head, gently patted his head. Su Su raised her head and her face was red in her eyes.

Su Su suddenly hugs Hong Ru tightly. She is in a broken mood. The aggrieved child finally returns to her mother's arms. Besides hugging her, Su Su doesn't know what else to say.

Hongru didn't see him in the room, so she knew that he must be in Xiaoye's room.

Just as soon as I opened the door, I saw Su Su shrinking on the bed of Xiao Ye in pain, saying I love you sentence by sentence. Her hoarse voice seemed to be pulled out from the depths of her soul, and Hongru's heart was in pain.

Su Su's character with his father, since childhood is very mature, intelligent, calm. It's very rare to show a child's little character. When I grow up, I will be more elegant. It's not too much to say that Mount Tai has collapsed in front of me without changing his face.

If she didn't see it today, she wouldn't believe it. When no one was around, her baby was in such pain that she loved someone who loved but didn't dare to speak.

"It's OK. Mommy's here." Seeing Su Su's pain, Hong Ru feels the same. Next to Su Su is an open diary.

Red you understood in an instant.

For so many years, she loves Xiao Ye and Su Su. The son is old, a lot of things are not willing to say with them, red you also don't know how, the son will tell himself.

"Mommy, I'm so sad." Su Su said painfully.

Hongru is also very sad, "Mommy knows that you love Xiaoye, right? Mommy knows

Hong Ru feels that Su Su's tears have wet her clothes. If I had known it would be like this, I would not have come to Rome this year.

So many years, looking at Su Su and Xiao Ye from nothing to say, to nothing to say, she in addition to heartache, or heartache.

Su Su used to hide from Xiao Ye, who ran after her all over the world.

Now Xiaoye doesn't chase, and even begins to evade. Susu began to miss her.

Originally thought that these years, has been begging but not more painful, her son is too bastard. But now it seems that Su Su, who loves but can't, is in the same pain.

Why on earth?

Red you do not understand why two people clearly love each other, but to torture each other.

But she can't ask, Su Su has grown up, he doesn't want to say things, even know he deceives himself, also don't have to expose, this is as a mother, can give son the best respect.

She can wait until her son is willing to tell her, when he comes to ask what to do

"Well behaved, go to bed, lazy Xiao Ye's diary is wrong." Red Ru said softly.

"Sleep, and everything is over."

"No, I can't pass..." Su Su said in a hoarse voice. Depressed voice let red Ru hear despair.

"Come on, kid, what can't you tell Mommy? Mommy has never seen you like this. Mommy is worried about you

"Sorry Mommy... " Su Su was silent for a moment, clenched her fist, seemed to endure the inner swing, and finally did not say. "Sorry..."

Red Ru is also angry, "if you really love Xiao Ye, fight for it yourself. You've been wasting leaflets for years. I've been struggling with myself for so many years. I don't know what's in your heart that makes you so miserable, but if you were together at that time, at least you have lived a happy life for ten years. Isn't it? ""Mommy, I'm sorry, I didn't mean to I really didn't mean to... " Susu's voice is like the general force from the teeth, clenched teeth seem to endure great pain. The hand unconsciously covered the chest.

Red Ru is frightened by Su Su's appearance. Holding Susu, Susu fell back uncontrollably, pale as if without a trace of blood.

Red Ru scared silly, hurriedly loud cry for help, "a Yu, a Yu..."

Outside the emergency room, sudden changes disturb the warmth of new year's Eve. Qiu Yu, Hong Ru and Gu ran took the lead in sending people to the emergency room of the hospital. Murong Ling, Murong Di and Murong Dai also arrived in a hurry.

Hongru anxiously walks around outside the emergency room. Looking back at Su Su's fainting, it was clearly the appearance of a heart attack.

"Why is this so? Susu is always healthy. How can she have heart disease?"

Nervously seized Qiu Yu, "does your family have a history of heart disease? Do you have any? "

Qiu Yu hugged the anxious red Ru, "baby, don't do this, wait for the doctor to come out. Susu will be fine. "

Red Ru is still very uneasy, "the situation just now is too terrible, Su Su's heart doesn't beat It's going to be ok What did he hide? "