Chapter 221 - I felt home...

|Eshan|

Those glaring eyes, tinged with tears of anger ignited a burning fire in my chest. Just the mere words of my demise were enough for igniting that fierce response from her. Did she consider how many times I had died in the past couple of days because of the guilt? 

Even when I understood her reasons, I could not help but be angry. She had suffered. Silently, without complaining... so that I would not hate my mother.

I have started to hate her habit of bottling things up. However, I could not help but love her for her selflessness and her love for me.

After the whole ordeal at our home, I knew I was in the worst mood. On top of that, she had ignored her health, causing her hemoglobin to drop. All the efforts of improving her health had gone down the drain. This only added to my guilt.

My dampened mood was going to hurt her. I knew it. Thus when she had asked me why I was being cold towards her. I had remained silent, pretending to fall asleep. 

Those dainty fingers of her moved through my hair. The feeling of finally being close to her washed over me, but Arjun had to intevene. I played dumb, and decided to carry on the facade.

The silence was better than hurting her with my words. I lost it when Arjun said those words. In the end, reality proved how right I was. Blurting those words out had created the mess I was trying to avoid. Taking them back was not the option available. 

"Hmph-"

She still had something to say, but I refused to let the words get to me. I pulled myself up, leaned over her, and silenced her in the only way I knew would not leave me with regret.

I kissed her. 

Deeply, longingly, and punishingly.

How dare she try and bear everything?

How dare she hurt herself?

How dare she forget that she had someone she could feel safe with?

Holding her face, I poured down all my anger and frustration in that kiss.

"God! You monkey, you could've warned me before starting the a.d.u.l.t movie here," Arjun yelled from somewhere in the background. Who told me to be friends with such character? 

Ignoring him, I pressed my lips against Innaya's. That baffled woman, with her wide eyes, stared at me foolishly. My heart palpitated with a rush of emotions as I poured all my feelings in the kiss. 

"Call me when you're done. Remember that she's hurt, don't go overboard. Oh! Innaya, remember to not move your arm, the needle might hurt you. And, lastly, Eshan, force restrain a bit. This is a hospital, not your bedroom… I see no one is interested in my advice… Ungrateful."

Soon after that, the door was banged loudly indicating that he had left, giving us privacy.

Eventually feeling her running out of the breath, I stopped.

"You are so stupid. Do you know that?" I asked her, pulling my head a little back.

Her face had turned red, and a couple of tears rolled down her cheek. She looked at me with utter disbelief, before her moistened red lips curved in a smile.

"Stop smiling," I chided her. That only seemed to cause her smile more.

This woman.

She had no idea what I have gone through in the past days. 

"What were you thinking? Huh? I'm so mad right now. I'm mad at you. Stop smiling. I told you to stop smiling." 

Grabbing hold of her chin, I kissed her again. She would not stop smiling otherwise.

What was I to do with this woman?

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|Innaya|

I could have expected anything but not this. Judging from the way Eshan gave me a cold shoulder, I never thought he would kiss me.

Never.

Anything but kiss which stole away my breath.

From the background I was aware of the Arjun's displeasure which was like a mirage in the desert, only to fool others. Deep down he must be happy that the two closest people in his life were going to sort out there issues.

Eshan's kisses always made me breathless for I never remembered to breathe. This time, he acted so suddenly that I had no chance to respond. He made that remark of the widow, making me furious and hurt beyond limits. When I was berating him, he chose to silence my protest. What had gotten into him? His behavior was turning more and more unpredictable.

However, with his taking an initiative to kiss me, I understood that our bad days had ended. If we did not have hope anymore, he would have chosen to distance himself from me. Then that would have been quite a tough task. Now, I knew we were going to be okay.

I could not stop smiling after realizing that Eshan was confused. He just not knew whether to get angry or remain hurt. I certainly did not understand his reason, but I could read his dilemma.

He was just like me in some aspects. Both of us did not know how to handle ourselves when it came to the people we loved. 

"What were you thinking? Huh? I'm so mad right now. I'm mad at you. Stop smiling. I told you to stop smiling."

Hearing his words, he sounded like a child to me. A child who did not know what to do when his favorite cookies were hidden so that he did not have a toothache.

His lips pressed against mine again, a little bit firmly, a little bit strongly… and I welcomed his fit of frustration at himself and the situation with bubbling happiness in my chest and tears of relief in my eyes

Moments ago, I was so mad and hurt because of his carelessly spoken words. I was ready with words I would say to apologize and ask for punishment. I would have asked him to punish me in any way but not with those terrible words. The thought of losing him was enough to throw me in the bottomless darkness of depression. I could not bear the mere thought of it.

The moment his lips touched mine…

The moment those dark eyes filled with myriads of emotions he was unable to handle, met mine…

The moment I felt his desperation, and his guilt…

The moment his warm breath caressed my face…

I felt home.

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