CH 20

Chapter 20 – A Sense of Guilt, But…

Softly, I opened the door to the room.

In a dimly lit room, naked, she was sleeping.

I gently crawled into bed.

“…Nao-kun.”

That startled me.

“E-Eri-chan… You’re awake?”

“Yeah… Did you go to the toilet? That was a long time.”

“S-Sorry…”

“I was lonely, you know? Nao-kun wasn’t here.”

Eri-chan turned her body towards me and her cheeks puffed out.

The expression on her face is adorable.

“Hey, give me a hug?”

“S-Sure…”

A little hesitantly, I hugged Eri-chan under the futon…

We could feel the temperature of each other’s skin.

Eri-chan’s softness and… My firmness.

No, now I’m as limp as I can be.

Because just a few moments ago…

‘…Ahn! Naoyuki-kun, you’re amazing!’

…I had s*x with Miyuki-san.

I’ve crossed the last line which I’ve been guarding for so long.

This is now a clear betrayal.

No, it started a long time ago.

Eri-chan…

“…I’m sorry.”

“Nao-kun? It’s fine, you’re here now, hugging me like this.”

Her kindness is so soothing to my heart.

Let’s just get it over with.

Lastly, I have good memories.

I know it’s very selfish, but please forgive me.

From now on, I’ll only do naughty things with Eri-chan.

I will establish a good relationship with Miyuki-san as my girlfriend’s mother.

So please…

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How much time has passed?

Finally, I got out of the bathroom and sat down on the sofa in the living room.

“Hah~…”

My legs and feet are still shaking.

I can’t even get up the stairs.

I have no choice but to sleep here tonight.

It’s the season when the nights are still chilly… But my body is on fire.

It’s been like this since he… Since Naoyuki-kun held me in his arms.

It was really amazing.

Partly because he’s young, but still… He’s amazing.

I’m an old lady, and certainly not a virgin, but…

But he gave me my first experience.

I was poked…very deep inside.

My late husband never got that far.

Maybe he couldn’t reach it.

He always seemed to be escaping somewhere.

Generally, it was always near the entrance, and even if he went it, he only went halfway through.

Then, he would just get it over with, and make himself feel good.

I was left somewhat unfulfilled and abandoned…

So today, for the first time in my life, I was satisfied.

All because of him… Because of Naoyuki-kun.

“Fufu…”

I let out a chuckle.

But I immediately feel guilty.

Of course, it’s because of my daughter, Eri.

This is a clear betrayal.

Although it has happened before today too…

“…With this, I’ll get it over with.”

From now on, I will maintain a good relationship with Naoyuki-kun as my daughter’s boyfriend.

That’s why I want the three of us to be together forever.

Yes, that’s why… We shouldn’t do those things anymore…

“…Nnn.”

Naturally, my hand reached for my important place.

A few moments ago, I was turned into a mess, but now I’m overflowing again.

I thought I had exhausted myself and dried up.

It just keeps on pouring out.

Oh no, if it’s like this…

“…Naoyuki-kun.”

I know I shouldn’t, but…

At the very least, I hope you’ll forgive me for imagining it.

Remembering the first and last communion we had just had.

I spent a lonely night.