Chapter 203 - A fresh beginning

Reuben smiled at her reply and moved closer, but she was too full of herself to step back and just waited.

Waiting to see what he's up to.

She should just drop the back and turn to leave but she couldn't. Her leg wouldn't move.

She had come because he didn't call her and a part of her wondered if she had resisted too long and he had given up.

In the blink of an eye, his hand snakes around her waist and he pulls her inside, shutting the door firmly.

"What are you doing?" Ella asked, feeling her body pressed to his firm and strong one.

Her blood rushed because she really felt unsettled. She wasn't sure about what she's doing right now.

Rueben ignored her question. He gaze down at her and she was looking up at him.

She gave him a questioning yet nervous look. The tip of his finger reached up to tucked the few strands of her hair that had fallen on her face, behind her ear and smiled softly at her.

His smile was so radiant and beautiful.

Ella's body had gotten to used to having s.e.x whenever she was this close with men. It wasn't easy to stay calm but she's still trying to control herself.

She wanted to stop that lifestyle.

She blinked and avoided his gaze while letting it fall to his broad chest. She couldn't understand her feelings, completely.

She doesn't feel the urge to just sleep with him and leave any longer. Her head is telling her to give him a chance in her life.

To learn to love and let herself be loved.

Reuben liked her reaction this time and felt very happy. "Are you sure you only came here to deliver this?" He asked in a low seductive yet teasing tone.

No reply.

He took the bag from her and tossed it aside before reaching his hand up to caress her face.

He ran his finger on her brow, nose, down to her lips, while she had no choice than to gulp and look up at him again.

"This is seduction." Ella said in a low tone.

He chuckled. "Yeah, it is seduction." He admitted. 

"I don't want to sleep with you." Ella said, as a matter of fact, trying to control her breathing and focus.

"Not everything is about s.e.x. Sometimes we just have to enjoy being in each other's arms." Reuben said, finding his finger run through her hair as he leaned closer to her, leaving their lips an inch closer.

"So, I will ask again, are you here just to return the cloth?" He asked, his warm breath tickling her lips, making her swallow hard.

"No." Ella replied, feeling her heart beat wildly. She wanted to drop the cloth and leave after using the opportunity to see the troublesome man again, but things are turning around

This position he puts her in, it only brings out the feelings she has been trying to hide.

The feeling that had brewed and she was trying to suppress.

"Tell me the other reason." Reuben urged and smiled as Ella swallowed hard each time he spoke.

He was glad she is controlling herself this time, because it only proves that she's turning a new leaf.

"Can you let go of me please? I want to leave." Ella said, trying to resist one last time.

She wondered what she's doing right now. What had gotten into her.

Reuben grinned. "Are you sure?" He teased.

"Fine! I want to give it a try." Ella said, closing her eyes, not believing she just said that.

Reuben felt like the happiest man on earth. He felt his heartbeat pounding wildly.

"Thank you." He said before crashing his lips on her own, pulling her into a passionate kiss.

Ella wanted to resist, because her belief still lies with the fact that, all will still lead to s.e.x, and she felt that she want to abstain for a while.

Noticing her resistance, Reuben pulled back and stared into her eyes. "I won't touch you for now. I want to love you and make you love me for real, then we can talk about s.e.x." He said.

Ella stared at him, not fully getting his point but still decided to trust his word. She had never kissed anyone without it leading to s.e.x, so she wonder if it's possible.

"Okay." She said, before being pulled into another session of lips battle, which she did a good job at responding to, accordingly.

His hand caressed her and it was soothing and made her feel like she was in her teen and just fell in love. Every touch and a lot more she could not identify, as her head felt so light.

She just let out a soft m.o.a.n and let him savor the taste of her cherry lips. She felt her heart melted and longs for more like this, instead of the formal desire to get n.a.k.e.d and just get the deed done.

This feeling was heaven for her. It was exactly what she craved for before her life turned the way it did.

It was different from jumping to s.e.x and leaving before daybreak. 

He pulled back and both breath heavily, gasping for hair while he hugged her tightly. She didn't resist this time and let her arms circled around his waist.

"I love you, Ella. Thank you for giving us a chance." Reuben whispered into her ear.

"Thank you." That was the word that escaped Ella's lips.

Reuben smiled and stroked her hair lovingly. "Why are you thanking me?" He asked.

"Because you're willing to love me despite my past. Despite everything I've done and how I pushed you away." She replied.

"That is what I wanted to hear, Ella. 'Past' I will make sure you never think of it ever again.

You will only have me in your head." Reuben said, placing a soft kiss on her forehead and holding her more tightly, breathing in her sweet smell.