Chapter 5：first kiss

after that night we are quiet comfortable with each other . we are now like roommates . I feel happy . even called my mother and said about everything . I treat her like my best friend . today onwards I will search a job . I like teaching . I applied for all schools .I will have too give a demo . this is what I am doing before my marriage . until then I am house wife . I said Ethan but he said boring and teasing me like I will wearing spectacles and look like granny. he is so mean but finally agreed . now I am sitting in my room , painting on book and I can't paint but I always try to paint . I am trying to impress my husband but making myself fool. today onwards I will not impress him . is he a gay? no he likes Jenny so he may be straight . I am deep in thinking what happens if never like me . o no I have to die single .it is very sad . I think I am in depression . is this a disease . oh no time is 9 o clock . he will be home . I didn't cook anything . what will he say? he came and asked come lets have dinner .I said Ethan I have not cooked . he asked what happened are you OK . I said Ethan I am thinking about my job and forgot cook . I said a lie . OK then we order online or go out he gave me option . let's go out Ethan .then get ready Lisa and wear something nice . I am really picking something nice . and something revealing . I wore a pencil cut skirt and low neck top . we started to near by restaurant and he is not speaking . I think he is having mood swings .

Ethan point of view :

wow , finally Lisa attracted to me but does she feel the same . I am behaving just like mad fellow . what does she think now . be a man and tell her your feelings . within short time I have fallen for her . and she is telling forget . how can she forget . right now I want her to be my side and I want her all to me. I will check her. is she sleeping or not . oh my god she is moving on bed like a snake .sexy. I am a pervert . if she finds this she will kill me . I have to go sleep and feel happy that she is also not able to sleep . with some dirty dreams . I slept

return to Lisa point of view :

I woke up after dirty dreams and headed towards kitchen . I can see a bare back of male . I asked who are you . and Ethan turned .what is the matter Ethan your in kitchen I asked him . nothing making coffee . do you want he asked . yes make one for me also . your wish madam was his answer . i said "Ethan you are so funny and I like this side of you ." thank you was his answer . after giving coffee . he came to my side and kissed on my cheek . I prepared breakfast we ate

he went to office with a bright and heart breaking smile . he looks young when he smile .before going he kissed on my forehead .I know he don't love me . he is only attracted and being nice to overcome some feelings . HE LOVES MY SISTER NOT ME BUT I THINK I LOVE HIM . oh Ethan why can't you love me we are destined to be together forever and ever . one day you will tell me that you will love me. I will wait until that day Ethan and hope you will me more than Jenny .I miss you and I am being so selfish . after 10 days

Ethan coming home early and sometimes bringing his friend's family and telling me how they are close . he want them to know me .slight kiss on cheeks and forehead . making me sit on his lap . making me blush everyday . I think we have moved to next step in marriage or anything wrong is happening. no nothing wrong is going . everything is fine . I will be confessing my feelings tomorrow before it is late