Chapter 476

"If those revolutionary martyrs are like you, because of some things in their families, regardless of the safety of the country, and want to retreat, how can we have today? How could China be today? "

"Our revolutionary martyrs really don't want to stay in their own families, so they don't worry about their families at all? That's impossible. What we Chinese people value most is emotion, and the most important is emotion. Nothing is more important than feelings. It is precisely because of feelings that those revolutionary martyrs regard their feelings for the country more important than those among their families. "

"I've been a soldier for such a long time now, and I've seen many people as young as you on the battlefield, fighting the enemy in life and death. There were a lot of unfortunate martyrs who died. And they were killed by the enemy in front of me. Don't they have families? Behind them is the hope and sustenance of a family. But they can do that and give their lives for the country without hesitation. What are they for? They are for the whole country. "

The officer pauses here for a moment, then says with some regret.

"I've seen too many parting. Too many, too many. I have seen my comrades in arms as big as me. They take the role of cover in order to cover their retreat. Almost all of these soldiers were killed on the battlefield. They can give the hope of life to their teammates without hesitation. There are also soldiers younger than me, even only 16 or 17 years old, who are killed by the enemy like that. My heart was really going crazy at that time

"Those children are really the future of a family, a hope, but they are so stifled by the enemy. Destroy the future of a family. What do you want a family to face? "

"It is because of this that my eldest son finally died with honor, on the battlefield of fighting with the enemy. I still remember that battle to this day, and that battle is still fresh in my memory. I can't forget my son's last brave performance on the battlefield

"I am the supreme commander on the battlefield. As a commander, I should take care of the lives of all the soldiers, not just myself and my son. That's not a qualified commander at all. And at the beginning of the battle, I didn't treat my son as my son at all. I just regarded him as an ordinary soldier like others. I didn't give him any special treatment, that is, let him be a personal guard beside me and not allow him to participate in the battle. "

"I didn't. My son, like other soldiers, bravely attacked and killed the enemy in the front line. But because the team they are in is the vanguard. Because their advance distance is too far, in order to create a better space for the follow-up troops and clear the enemy's position, they went deep into the enemy's position. But their whereabouts were foretold by the enemy. And then they got caught in the enemy's encirclement

"When I saw that our vanguard troops were surrounded by the enemy, I almost yelled out. I said to let the vanguard troops retreat quickly. Don't hesitate to retreat. "

"However, they are so far away from our base camp that it is impossible for them to withdraw all at once. And they had been in the ambush circle at that time, and had been in a fierce fight with the enemy, the enemy also slowly began to shrink the encirclement. It was in the telescope that I saw the vanguard fighting those enemies to death. It also found my son fighting bravely against the enemy. "

"In the end, our vanguard forces successfully withdrew some people, but at the same time, some people remained in the battlefield forever. Including my son in it. My son, because he is proud of me, has always regarded me as his goal in his heart. And in his mind, no matter what, he can't disgrace me, even in the face of the enemy. "

"Then my son took up the task of covering in that battle. He and several of his comrades fought fiercely against the enemy on the front line in order to cover the retreat of others, and fought to the last moment. At that time, my heart was really miserable. I really wanted to fight the enemy to save my son. But I can't do that, because I'm the highest commander on the battlefield, and I have to guarantee the lives of all the soldiers. I can't lose a lot of our army's lives just for my own son

"In the end, I could only watch my son die with the enemy in Wangyuan town. I was in the telescope and I saw my son smiling in the direction of our base camp, and I knew his smile was for me. That smile seemed to tell me

"Dad, I didn't disgrace you. I successfully fought with the enemy, to the last moment, and I also covered the retreat of my teammates, I am a proud Chinese soldier

"Then I saw him take the grenade directly in his hand and rush to the enemy position. My heart was almost broken. But I really can't do anything. I can only watch my son and the enemy die together. Then I gave the order to retreat with a strong heart ache"Because the strength of the enemy is several times that of our army. And I went through the heartache of losing my son again, and I realized that I was no longer fit to be the commander of the next battle, because my heart was not calm

"Don't I feel bad? Don't I have heartache? That's my son, my own son. It was I who sent him on the road and didn't go back. But he just laughed at me in the end, but I had nothing to do

"After that, for almost a long time, I fell into deep remorse. Because I ruined my son's future. But I've been in pain for a while, and I'm back. Because I am a Chinese soldier, I realize that the country still needs me. I can't indulge in the past for a long time. I can only bury that heartache in the deepest part of my heart. "

"I didn't even see my son's body, and when my wife learned that our eldest son had died in the battlefield, he fainted. Then directly because of extreme heartache, which led to direct hospitalization. In that case, when my wife was in great need of me, I was still because the country needed me. Instead of accompanying my wife, I appeared on the battlefield, fighting the enemy to death. "

"Can I not blame myself? I'm very sorry for my family now. But I am worthy of the country. I have basically devoted all my youth to my country. "