Volume 3 - CH 4

“You don't seem to be able to focus today.”

Only a few minutes into his daily meditation, he opened his eyes after teacher said this.

"Are you having a hard time studying for the exam?"

Yilmaz asked without criticizing Almark.

"Yes, for the first time in my life. ......""

Almark answered. Yilmaz nodded his head.

“I don't think that's the only reason you're not focused," he said.

Almirk was again surprised to hear Yilmaz's words, as if he could see right through him. As expected of . Teacher , he can't hide anything from him .

"The teacher sees through everything."

Almarc honestly told him about Wendy. Wendy helps him with his studies every day, but there is nothing he can do to return her kindness. But he wanted to do something for her, and his heart was aching at that thought.

At first, Yilmaz raised his eyebrows a little in surprise, but the rest of the time he listened in silence.

When he finished listening, he snorted and took a breath.

"I'm not an expert in that kind of thing,......," I had forgotten that you always act so calmly as if you were an adult, but you are only eleven years old, aren't you?”

"...... yes."

"To put it simply, you like Wendy."

“...... like......?”

Almark looks up at Yilmaz uneasily.

"I don't really know, if I like her or don't like her,......, because I haven't been in that kind of situation before."

"If you don't know, you'll just have to figure it out."

“It's the same with magic and everything else”, Yilmaz continues.

"You have to look inside yourself and see what it is you're feeling without being scared of it. That's part of facing yourself. And it's just as important as meditation.:

Yilmaz continues calmly, "You said you feel pain in your heart."

" value that feeling Rememberg. It will be very important for you in your future life as a magician to know that feeling."

"......So, what is it?"

Almark's expression said he did not understand.

“You don't need to know it yet, . And don't forget ......."

He raised his index finger.

"You say you bothering Wendy , but I'm sure she doesn't consider it a bother herself. You have to remember that Wendy herself wants help you ."

“Wendy herself wants to help me ......"

“If you could help her in her time of need, would you do that?"

"Yes, of course."

“Do you think that' Wendy is bothering you?"

“No, I don't.”

"Why are you think Wendy feels the same way right now?"

......"

Almark slumped down and thought about it. he chuckles when he sees this.

"As I said before, this is not my specialty. I think I'm talking about something that doesn't really fit me. Now, let's end this conversation. A good magician is able to separate himself from negative emotions when performing magic, no matter what his state of mind is."

"Yes."

At his suggest , Almark stopped thinking for a moment and started meditation.