Chapter 101 - Lose Him - Part【4】

"For how long?"

"Just for two days."

Unhesitantly he offers me a terse nod in acceptance of my request. "If this is what you wish, I suppose my brother can arrange a flight for you."

I frown at his words a sudden unsettling feeling inundates me. "Phobos I am inviting you as well, you must come with me." He looks away from my searching eyes weakly pushing me away from his lap for me to perch on the couch beside him.

"It is not necessary for me to come with you, Theia."

"Of course it is, you are my male. Do you not wish to properly introduce yourself to my family and friends?"

"Your family has already met me and your friends are aware of whom your male is."

"My family met you as Alpha Ares's male not as my moon blessed and I wish to formally present you to them."

"There is no need for that." He coldly dismisses my words getting up stretching his limbs, he casually acts as though I am not trying to have a decent conversation with him.

"There is a need for that! You were all mama and papa talked about, you were all Cronus warned me of and you must ease their worries Phobos. I want to show my brother how different you are than what he lectured me about you."

"I cannot go away for two days leaving my pack that way, Theia."

"You are being a hypocrite. You left for a day for Kal's birthday. How is it that you attend all your family celebrations yet you do not wish to come for mine or even meet my family? Why?"

"Kal is different you know this he is my nephew and it is not that I do not wish to meet them I'd rather not. They are not used to what I am and I do not wish to cause chaos or fear."

"They would welcome you, Phobos. We could even send out a lantern together and make a wish I always wanted to do that with my mate."

"Your parents would not embrace me at all. I do not want to hear how bad of a match I am for you. I am already aware of that truth and do not wish to be told so by your family."

"You are wrong, so very wrong about them. Whenever I speak about you to my parents there is a light that shines in their voices. They adore you so much like you are their own male."

"They adore the juvenile they knew, Theia and not the male I am today. They have never met him and I wish to keep it that way. Why do you think I chose to claim you right when they were not on your lands?" The beats of my heart pause and all I hear is an absolute disturbing silence to his brutal words.

"What do you mean by this?" I ask my hands clutching onto my gown for emotional support, for comfort. "D-Did you claim me then on purpose right when you knew mama and papa were not home?"

"Yes. In no way did I wish to face them whatsoever."

"You intentionally did not give me a chance to say goodbye all because of your suspicions and theories?! How could you, Phobos?" The feeling of betrayal his truth gives way to breaks my heart.

"I have done nothing wrong for you to be upset with me, Theia. I had always protected you all my life but at that time I needed to protect myself. I will go take a shower now and head to bed we can discuss this tomorrow." He brazenly turns his back to me marching towards the bathroom as I hurriedly pick up the pillow from the couch and fiercely hurl it at him.

It strikes his back startling him in the process and drops to the ground. When he slowly turns around to meet my eyes his teeth are bared to me a boisterous snarl of disapproval at my actions sent forth to me.

"You claim you protected me but you never once considered my feelings of how heartbroken I would feel being ripped away from my family from the only wolves I have ever known without the chance to even say goodbye! You are a coward, you are selfish so very harsh and cruel to me. These characteristics of yours I loathe them!" I cry out upsetly my chest heaving unable to reign in my displeasure with this male.

Phobos takes in a steady breath the bright light in his eyes dying to my words. He swallows registering in his mind what I spewed his jaw clenched his hands balled into trembling fists yet his calm eyes are fixed firmly on me. I cannot feel his emotions for there is a sudden wall he has built between us driving me out. "Yes, I am as you claim me to be. I am selfish, I am cruel and a coward. But I wish you would be able to somewhat understand the reasons behind my actions before condemning me, Theia."

Grabbing his shirt from the floor quickly putting it on he marches towards the front door leaving the warmth of our cottage and with neither another word nor a glance towards me he shuts the door with a loud slam that rattles the tiny cabin showing to me his upsetness.

With a huff, I walk into my bedroom picking up his pillows and his blanket taking them outside flinging them upon the couch, he can sleep out here or in his room I do not care! Returning to my chamber shutting the door behind me I drag out an old book from the shelf and settle upon my bed drawing the covers over my flesh whilst endeavouring to calm the fiery rage within.

Does he even know of the several weeks I suffered being homesick and regretting not saying a proper goodbye to mama and papa before they left home? Phobos is such a sly male for everything he has done was planned and properly thought out as long as it fit his selfish reasons. Did he ever consider my feelings at any point in time?

Yes, I understood why he left me there when I was eighteen and I do not blame him for that anymore. But this I cannot forgive him, my family is all I had and he knew...he knew my parents would have not let him barbarously claim me the way he did. They may have forced him to stay with us for a while and he would have refused for his pack is all he cared for. He probably thought it would be a headache dealing with them and came at the right time when he knew I would not be heavily guarded.

Why? Why does he keep hurting me this way? Why is it that despite marking the other it is still so very complicated to understand him? Our relationship cannot be as smooth as the others I know this but it truly is laborious to deal with him. He is as stubborn as a mule but so am I and that is what makes our bond more complex. He is profoundly patient and always working to understand my point of view but his actions are too heartless and it makes it challenging for me to try and do the same.

Every year during the lantern festival, I would achingly watch the way numerous mates would arrive from around the world. And I would observe the way the females would cuddle up with their males under the lantern-lit sky and proudly boast to all the present wolves of whom they are mated to. It was funny how I was the Alpha's daughter and instead of being a part of the celebration I would hide in my room and look up at the sky weeping that I would never have what they had for my male had abandoned me.

I was there when Deimos had come to take Lumina back home during the festival, I watched it all from the sidelines. Though those two couldn't see it I saw what they felt for each other how much they loved the other wholeheartedly. And I wanted what they had and I do have it now with Phobos. He is not afraid of love and shows it to me every chance he gets but it would be wonderful if I could show what we have to my family. I want to do this for him, that he is not the male everyone has sentenced him to be.

My male's heart and soul are...beautiful.

The door to my room is rammed open and the beast who has returned from his walk strides forward with purpose vivid ocean blues adhered to my flesh. Crouching beside me he hooks his limbs under my flesh and hoists me up from the bed earning a small squeal of shock from me.

"What are you doing, Phobos?"