Chapter 143 - 3.39

For the first time, Xu Jiaqi actually began to have ideas about seriously getting into this particular relationship that she had somehow gotten into. If the soul did follow her.. Then she wanted to try and delve deeper into it.

"I will miss you." Xie Yongrui became unusually clingy after the thought of Xu Jiaqi having to leave even after they shared this kiss, which was like a huge milestone to him sunk deep inside his head. "I will miss you so much, Qiqi."

If only he had made a move earlier, could he have spent more time before the girl had to depart for the land of Xi? Or better yet, could he have prevented her from having to go there in the first place?

"En, I know. I will miss you too." Xu Jiaqi indulged in his almost whiny attitude, smiling helplessly as she caressed the man's hair and played around with it.

"I won't forget you." Xie Yongrui added.

"..I know." Xu Jiaqi coaxed the other patiently. "Likewise, how could I forget you, my lord?"

"Qiqi."

"Yes, my lord?"

"Qiqi, Qiqi."

Xie Yongrui kept repeating the name, mumbling in a small volume.

"..Is something the matter?"

"Don't call me lord.. it's just a title, it makes you feel so distant. I don't want to be a lord in front of you. I'm Xie Yongrui.. and my feelings for you have nothing to do with my title in the slightest. So.. call me by my name, please?" Xie Yongrui asked.

"..So it was that." Xu Jiaqi laughed, finding Xie Yongrui's bashful nature to be a good contrast towards what she had seen him all the previous times. "Your name is pretty, my lord. Xie Yongrui. It does feel a bit weird since I'm used to calling you by your title.. But if you wish for me to do so, then I will comply with your request."

"Make it shorter."

"If you don't like Xie Yongrui.. Then perhaps, Rui?"

"..." Xie Yongrui lowered his head, not saying anything in return.

"My lo- Sorry, I mean.. Rui? Is the nickname unpleasant?" Xu Jiaqi huffed.

"Stop."

Xu Jiaqi halted and observed Xie Yongrui carefully. 

"..Was it unpleasant after all? Is it too intimate for your own liking? I'll just call you my lord, then."

"No! I.. I like the name, but it's just.. it's not good for my heart right now." Xie Yongrui looked away. "I think.. I like you too much that I won't be able to take it if we go any further than this." By the end of his words, he had already lost all the power to even look at Xu Jiaqi once.

Xu Jiaqi was once again surprised by his answer, which seemed so innocent that she was forced to hold her laughter back. She was at a loss of words.

"..Ah, it's not like I'm going to die you know? You acting like this makes me think that I'm being sent off to death even if I'm not. How cruel of you, Rui." Xu Jiaqi pouted, inching closer to Xie Yongrui, who was slowly backing away in embarrassment.

The clear flush decorating his face made it even more adorable. When he moved backwards, Xu Jiaqi would close up to him two times the amount of the distance.

In the end, after the little playful chase, Xu Jiaqi ended up hovering on top of Xie Yongrui's body, looking at his pristine face that had a disturbed expression. In a good way, of course.

She was indeed a bit possessive of everything she owned or those that she liked and wanted to obtain. Xie Yongrui was scared of her falling into the hands of He Yiyuan, but she was more scared about him facing her. If Zenith's soul did continue to follow her into the next world and the next, next one, she didn't know if she would be able to bear the thought of her not being his first in situations like this.

What if she fell hard, and found out that he already had someone by his side? Would she have to remove whoever was by his side, or stay by the sidelines and watch as they grew happier?

Or even worse.. What if he disappeared and couldn't follow her anymore? What if she lost him after she had fallen?

Zing!

Xu Jiaqi's 'essence' was unconsciously released as her emotions fluctuated higher and higher. The 'essence' that she emitted, its identity was her divinity, the one that she had forgotten how to use. A thin mist that began to wrap around them, getting absorbed by Xie Yongrui and triggering his senses.

Xie Yongrui began to notice that something was out of the normal and became full of questions. It was like all of his five senses were being violated at the same time. Or better yet, it was as if he formed a sixth sense and could feel a strange, yet familiar stimulation.

It was hard to describe. Hard to determine whether he liked it or not.

Xie Yongrui gulped a mouthful of saliva as he let this strange feeling take over him. With Xu Jiaqi hovering over him, it wasn't hard to guess that this occurrence should have something to do with her.

He wished to embrace every single inch of her. Whatever she threw at him, he wanted to savor it. This weird energy that filled him up.. It was not an exception.

"Rui.. You have to know that I'm not a very kind person. If you want to be with me, then.. so be it, but there can be nobody else in our way." Xu Jiaqi grasped his hand and pressed their foreheads together. Their hands intertwined with each other and their fingers were locked together.

Xu Jiaqi's long, undone hair cascaded over Xie Yongrui's skin, providing a ticklish sensation that made him want to shirk away. Xie Yongrui grimaced, shutting his eyes off as he turned away from Xu Jiaqi's direction.. The sensory overload was killing him.