Chapter 1081

I'm a loser, a complete loser who has never won. But I know that I can't blame anyone else. If I really blame someone else, it's me.

The people around me think the most of me is steadiness and composure beyond my age. They all say that I will inherit the mantle of my grandfather and father, and I will be Chang Qingsong in the political situation in the future.

Their evaluation of me is not high, but it is not what I want most. But since childhood, I have learned to compromise and give up my wayward right. Even if I don't like it, I have to pretend to like it very much.

Many people think that I am a young and mature person worthy of trust and trust. My caution is famous in the circle. Even if I always smile innocently, no one dares to challenge me.

But who knows why I do this, just because I am a small and cowardly man, I am afraid that the feelings I pay will not be rewarded, I am afraid of being betrayed by others, and I am afraid that the world will abandon me.

From childhood to adulthood, my father was always serious. He hardly ever laughed at me. I know he didn't like my mother either, because he didn't show half a silk of tenderness towards her. At first I thought he was such a heartless person, but later I knew that he would laugh, but he never showed us.

That time, I played truant for the first time. In fact, I didn't play truant because I asked for leave, but I didn't have any legitimate reasons. On that day, I saw the woman who remembered her life outside the glass window of a coffee shop.

I have to admit that that woman is the most beautiful and temperament I have ever seen, and she is also a grand general. She is not a civilian, but a commander of the actual combat forces.

They were chatting and laughing in the window. My father, who had never had any facial expression, was talking and smiling, while she was just smiling. At that time, she seemed to have a light sad look on her face（ At that time, I didn't know why. After many years, I realized that she had just made a decision to take away her nearly seven month old child.)

It was my first informal meeting with her, but I was impressed by her. I knew that she was different in my father's mind. Goodbye is at my grandparents' house. She calls her grandma and cousin, but actually she is younger than my father.

From my grandparents, I know that my father once liked her, and her name is Qin Xiao. She is the woman who once set off a storm in the capital, and the pride of women in China and the world.

But my original worship of her, because my father's feelings for her disappeared, my psychology slowly changed, and began to blame her for my father's indifference.

I didn't stay in the capital when I was in high school, because my father went to s city to be a senior official, and because the headquarters of East China military region was near s City, I left the capital without thinking.

Huarui is known as the No.1 private high school in Asia. There are students from many countries studying here, and I have also entered this school, which is very good for my future.

On the first day of school, what I noticed was not how good the school environment was, nor how excellent the teachers were, nor how rich the family background of the students was, but the girl who wore glasses and had a very low sense of existence.

I seldom admire a person, but I couldn't help admiring her at that time. Although she was a beauty, she was able to reduce her existence to the lowest level. Almost the whole class ignored her existence.

But I can't, because I noticed her face, in addition to the purple pupil eyes, she and Qin Xiao have eight similar faces, and because she is young, her appearance is more gorgeous.