Chapter 111 - Secret between daddy and Little Hae

In the elevator, her feet lose her strength. She squats down on the floor, cold sweats rolling down on her forehead. She has done something horrible. She has used her abilities for wrong. She recalls how he struggled against her. She is sick and disgusted by herself, nearly throwing up.

It's for the best. They need to be freed from each other.

She keeps telling herself, crying alone. She manages to walk out of the building. She doesn't want to go back to Young Hwa and her daughter right now. She doesn't want them to see her like this. She walks on the street until she reaches a park. She sits on the bench and gazes at the green grass that reminds her of Kang Si An's eyes.

"Kang Si An, we end up hurting each other without mercy. We bring out the worse in each other. That's why we must part and live. Little Hae needs one of us to become a better person. I don't want her to see the worse of us."

She closes her eyes and tries to calm herself. Her phone is ringing, but she's not picking it up.

Sitting beside her, Kang Si An is gazing at her with sorrowful eyes. Indeed, they bring out the worse in each other. He's hurting her always. Because of him, she's at this state.

"You did nothing wrong," He tells her. "You can never do anything wrong, Kyuri."

She can't hear him. His voice won't reach her. She might be able to travel in time. She can get into other people's minds and dreams. She can't see lingering souls around her.

Kyuri takes a deep long breath before she picks up Young Hwa's call. She says with a heavy voice, "Young Hwa."

"Yes, yes, everything is fine."

[It's almost lunchtime. Little Hae misses you.]

"I am on my way."

Kang Si An follows her to Young Hwa's house. He is surprised to see a big mansion. He didn't know that Kyuri was already staying at another man's house. Pained, he forced himself to go inside. His apartment is nothing compared to this mansion. There are not many servants or maids. Young Hwa must like to live a quiet life.

Kyuri doesn't show any sadness and pretends to be okay in front of Young Hwa and Little Hae. She hugs Little Hae joyfully and spins her around. Young Hwa smiles at her. The talk must have gone well. He wants to know what happened with Kang Si An. Seeing her laughing with Little Hae, he decides that he will ask her some other time.

Little Hae turns her head toward Kang Si An and blinks her round eyes at him. "Mommy, you brought daddy?"

Kyuri doesn't understand the meaning of her words. "Yes, daddy is already here. Let's get ready. We will meet your grandfather with your daddy."

Little Hae looks in the direction of Kang Si An. Why is this daddy here? Before she can ask anymore, her mother ushers her to the bathroom for a bath. Young Hwa is relieved. He goes to his room to get dressed. It's a big day.

Kang Si An realizes that she can see him. He wonders why. Little Hae can't see other random ghosts wandering around. Is it because he is her father? He watches Kyuri playing with her in bathwater. Her smile is natural. The agony in her heart is well-hidden, but he can see it. She's hurt because she did that to him.

"Mommy, daddy is here." Little Hae looks at Kang Si An. Kyuri also looks in the direction where her daughter is looking. She sees nothing.

Little Hae must be talking about Young Hwa being in the house. "Yes, he's here. After mommy and daddy get married, all of us will stay together as you wanted. Are you happy, Little Hae?"

Little Hae furrows her small brows. Kang Si An smiles and puts his finger on his lip. "Don't tell. It's a secret between daddy and Little Hae."

She nods and chuckles delightfully. "Mommy, Little Hae is happy."

Kyuri sighs. She feels exhausted. She said that she would try, but her heart is reluctant. She wraps the towel around her daughter and takes her outside. She sighs again before she opens her luggage. It's winter right now. She dresses up her daughter warmly. "Little Hae, I have a lot to tell you when you grow up. Don't be mad at me, okay?"

"Little Hae loves mommy." Little Hae grins and looks at Kang Si An. She's happy that her mommy brought her daddy to her. "Little Hae loves daddy."

He reaches for her, but his hand passes through her head. She looks surprised, but she's not afraid. He's unable to touch or hug his only daughter when she's so close. He smiles mournfully. "I love you too, Little Hae."

"You love your daddy a lot." Kyuri kisses her daughter's forehead. "Your mommy will do her best to build a happy home for you."

Kang Si An looks at the mother of his child - the woman he has loved for more than a thousand years. He can only watch while she builds a happy home with Little Hae and an another man. There is no place for him there.

"Kyuri." He whispers her name close to her ear. "I am sorry."