Chapter 110 - You are an irreplaceable part of me

Kang Si An bites his fingers. He's nervous and restless. He has taken a quick bath, combed his hair, and worn clean clothes. He has done his best to clean the house in a short amount of time. He looks into his refrigerator. There are only frozen foods and bottles of beer. He curses madly. He should have brought something. What can he cook for her? He checks if he has some coffee. He should order food that Kyuri likes. He wonders if it will be delivered on time. He should order it anyway. In case, she decides to go out, where he should take her? He checks the list of restaurants.

The doorbell rings. He jumps and drops his phone. He doesn't look at the broken screen of his phone. He runs to the door and opens it. He is dazed when he sees her. She is wearing the same clothes that she wore yesterday. Her face is slightly pale. There is no smile on her face.

He lifts his hand to reach out to her, but his hand stops midway. Her yesterday's words echo in his head.

"Aren't you going to ask me to come inside?" She asks him coolly.

"I am sorry." He steps aside to make way. When she enters the room, he closes the door. He wipes his sweaty hands. "Please, sit."

When did they become so formal? His heart tightens at the thought. Things can never be the same again between them. It's been broken by him.

She doesn't take a seat. He notices that her hands are shaking a bit. She's afraid of him.

"Kyuri, I..." He sits down on his knees in front of her. "I am sorry for what I did to you that night. If you want to punish me, please punish me in other ways. Send me to prison. Ask me to become a eunuch. Throw me to the wolves. But, don't hide her away from me. Please stay where I can see you and her. If you love someone else, I won't bother you. Just... stay where I can see you both."

"I am bothered every time I see you." Her voice is monotonous. Her eyes are empty of any emotion. "How can I accept your request?"

Kang Si An kowtows to her desperately. His forehead hits the concrete and starts bleeding. "I will do anything to get your forgiveness. Just don't disappear again."

Kyuri isn't moved. She didn't know where her coldness came from. She bends down on her one knee and places her palm on the floor. He stops when his head hits her hand. He looks up at her helplessly, hoping and not hoping. Does she still care about him?

"Kang Si An, I will free you from your misery." Kyuri smiles at him softly. He stares into her eyes. His heart dares to hope. Will she forgive him?

She cleans the blood on his forehead with her sleeves. She ċȧrėsses his face. Kang Si An watches her intently, daring to feel the love from her. Her smile turns soft as she smashes all of his hopes with her following words.

"Both of us have had enough. A thousand years is more than enough. If you didn't remember, you wouldn't be going through this."

He feels that something isn't right. "Kyuri, you asked me what I would have done if it was another woman that night. I would have asked for her forgiveness. I would have asked her to punish me. If she wanted to kill me, I would have let her do so. What I did was a monstrous crime. What I did to you was even worse. But, you are an irreplaceable part of me. That fact will never change."

Kyuri lets him hug her. Kang Si An feels as if she's going further away. He doesn't know what to do. Helpless, he hugs her tighter. Then, she speaks slowly to him, "I know that you won't stop coming after me whether I marry Young Hwa or go to another continent because you know about Little Hae now. Kang Si An, I want to be freed from you. When Little Hae grows up, I will tell her about you. But, you will never remember anything about us again"

Kang Si An becomes still when he realizes the meaning of her words. He didn't think that she hated her that much. He tries to push her away, but it's too late. "Don't do that to me, Kyuri."

Her consciousness falls into his mind. He does his best to resist, but she is way stronger. If she hadn't been drunk that night, she could have stopped him from doing what he did. It would have been better if she wasn't drunk. Who knew that a drunk state of her mind can block her abilities? It wasn't the same before she absorbed the time crystal.

In his mind, she sees countless memories of them together. His raw feelings try to push her out. She does her best not to kill him or turn her into a piece of vegetable when he is fighting against her violently. She flicks her fingers and puts all the memories in a black box. She dumps it into the deep unconsciousness.

His past lives. Their thousand years old love. The last 3 years. Even the day he met her in this lifetime. Everything is gone.

She is about to leave when she feels something holding her back. The voice whispers to her, "Even if mind forgets, the soul will remember."

"You didn't remember before." She stares into the presence. "You can try to break the curse that I put on you. I guess that you will get what you want. You will see me and Little Hae. You will never recognize us as Kang Si An while you will continue to suffer inside him. I told you that I was a witch from the depth of the hell. Welcome to hell now."

She pushes away the presence and leaves his mind. Kang Si An has lost his consciousness. His body slumps down on the floor. Kyuri puts him on the bed and covers him with a blanket. She walks to the living room. Her foot hits the broken phone. She doesn't pick it up.

"Goodbye," She mumbles before she closes the door behind her.