Chapter 182: Too red for my taste

"It is your nature to do this." Atvi, the goddess of energy, clasps her hands behind her back. Her body is petite, and her eyes have turned big and round. She looks like Rui, the five-year-old girl who was killed by Aeline. "Why are you angry at me? Ari or whatever her name is… she might never rise from the depth of that river. Aren't you free to do what you want?"

Chaos grits her teeth. "Someone else will take her place."

It's the law of nature. The law of balance. When the scale is tilted, chaos transpires in the universe. Something is born from the chaos itself to counteract the imbalance. Gods are nothing but forces of nature itself, compelled to follow their own natures.

"Or she will return as a new face." Atvi taps her chin playfully. "What do you plan to do?'

"I want to kill you." Chaos hisses at her, "Why did you have to interfere between me and her?"

Atvi clasps her hands behind her and starts walking around the throne. "I have been watching both of you for so long. You draw me when you need me. You throw me away when you don't need me. It made me upset."

"Attention seeker whore!" Chaos raises her chin and laughs, not bothering to look at her anymore. She sits on her throne, placing her one leg over the other, and she leans forward with pride in her eyes. "In the end, you are nothing better than us. You are tainted."

"Am I?" Atvi smirks at her. "I am the one who sent her to Iravan to stop you."

Chaos scowls at her. "And what did you get from this? 

The primordial goddess of energy lets out a laugh. "What do you think? I am only doing what I am supposed to do."

"Is that so?" Chaos lets out a heavy sigh, tilting her head, watching her with a lazy gaze. "Beginning or ending is part of the time. Many worlds have ended at my hands and many have begun. I am also doing what I am supposed to do. It's my nature. It's my will."

Atvi smiles at her. "Then are you going back to the Iravan to finish what you have started?"

To end Iravan? Chaos rolls her eyes. "I have no interest in that world anymore." 

Moreover, the world has reached a point of balance. The end isn't arriving in that world anytime soon. There are two primordial gods present in that world. "Why are they not aware of their true selves?"

"It's something that they chose to do." Atvi exhales, "It's boring, isn't? You also thought of doing the same. Didn't you imitate the mortal god Ari by trying to become a mortal?"

Be a mortal. Follow the laws of mortals. She was Amara. She was also Kresi. Between her life as Amara and her life as Kresi, she had many mortal lives. All the memories are in her head. She can't help but feel bitter when she recalls those days of weakness; take birth in the world, live for a while, and then die, only to take birth again. 

"Death for mortals is nothing but an illusion."

"True." Atvi replies with pity in her clear eyes, "Mortals also have the opportunity to leave the reincarnation cycles and find eternal death."

"Or immortality." Chaos wrinkles her nose. "Mortals seek immortality."

"Eternal death is also immortality." Atvi says to her calmly, "Once a mortal is freed from the cycles of karma and reincarnation, they get a chance to become one with the true one. Look at us! We might sleep for a while but we can't find a way to return. Then again, you created this oblivion to trap all the creatures who don't deserve salvation."

"Void and disorder." Chaos shrugs. "I represent two wills of the true one. That's why Ari was born. Another will to always fight me. It's better if Adira finds her and takes her back to Iravan. I can go on and do what I was born to do."

And she recalls something important. Chaos gazes at the little girl standing in front of her. "Why did you make Adira forget?"

God of darkness shouldn't have forgotten. If accidents did occur, he should have recovered his memories already. It's been long already.

"The wheel was already in motion." Atvi muses, "He might remember it soon."

"You set the wheel in motion." Chaos creases her forehead. "Don't pester him too much. He might recall his true self and chase you to perpetuity."

The goddess of power and energy says nothing. She smiles at Chaos before whisking away from Chaos' oblivion.

"I don't like her." Chaos leans back, narrowing her frosty blue eyes. "I got involved in an unnecessary drama because of this whore."

Atvi is the only goddess who doesn't have any face yet. Her form is unstable. 

"Since it has turned like this anyway..." Chaos stares hard in the oblivion. Ai appears in her sight. He's surrounded by toad folks. "I have also used him to cause chaos for a while. If she hadn't interfered, Ai could have turned into a powerful nameless creature who would have eaten all the gods of Iravan except for Noras and Adira."

The child in Ai's arms is smiling. 

"Ha!" Chaos chuckles. "Born to cause chaos, little one? I hadn't expected that one of my faces would be born out of the darkness."

It's no wonder that Ryou couldn't kill this child. There's a small piece of chaos in that one. What about the other one? Chaos closes her eyes and recalls Misumi. That one is too calm for an infant.

Maybe she doesn't need to do anything for Iravan. Both of them will certainly change that world -- as expected from the twin daughters of the darkness. 

"Where should I go now?" Chaos questions herself languidly. A pesky redhead's face pops up in her mind. "Tsk! Too red for my taste."

Her ear perks up when she hears an infant's cry in the distance. A slow smile forms on her lips. "You want me, little one?"