3 FIRST TIME-GUIL

With a heavy heart full of guilt Jairus stepped towards his room with thumping of boots audible in that quiet house. The door opened with a creak as he pushed his body forward towards the bed with black coat hung on his arm & threw himself on bed with legs touching down the carpet.

The heavy effect of alcohol faded when he saw that blood spot previously but by the time he reached home he was in his complete senses, all awake and normal. His mind was still stuck upon what happened. He brushed his hair back and wiped the sweat from his face, his heart was racing fast.

How could he forget that he stole someone's FIRST TIME when she was drunk and not in the position to resist or to stop him !

He took the shower. The luke warm water washed off everything from his body. But the guilt was still on his mind and despair in his heart !

Tucking his one hand to the wall he leaned a bit as the water was flowing on his shoulders and his mind was running.....pondering upon every single thing he did. Somehow this night made him to think and repent !

He thought of every single girl he spend his lonely nights with....how much sweeter was her taste !

But at that moment he felt bad, his mouth wasn't lingering for any girl or anything sweet. Instead his tongue was sour and bitter, he felt worse. With trembling hands he put on his white robe and came into the room.

Slipped himself into a grey pyjamas & shirt. Settled into bed with heavy body as if a weight was put on his shoulders. He pulled the white blanket close up to his chin when it reminded him of that white silk sheet he threw upon that girl !

His heart stopped , he felt pangs of pain inside his heart but then tried to calm himself. As he couldn't change anything now.

The night was much longer than usual ones, about 3 hours were left to his work. When the clock will strike 08:00 of morning.

He wanted to sleep but couldn't. Jairus sat straight, sweat was popping out from his body, the only thing coming to his mind was the face of that girl....whenever he closed his eyes. He rubbed his red eyes, opened the drawer.....sleeping pills and took the dose.

( oh no no....he wasn't committing suicide  ! )

The morning rays peeped out of the curtains. The alarm clock rang at the time set to it, 08:00.

Jairus woke up rubbing his eyes hard which were turning red due to lack of sleep. He pushed himself towards the washroom for a bath. After 30 minutes wrapped in bath gown he came out brushing his hair with fingers. By the time his dress was placed on the edge of the bed nicely ironed.

Ruby was still on time.

He thought of the old maid servant who was doing his chores since his childhood.

Wore that grey suit with white shirt which fitted him well. Put on a pungent cologne and stared at the man in the mirror. Jairus was proud of his features.....he was handsome indeed and the younger Ezekiel.

His elder brother was settled abroad and was managing the foreign business of Ezekiel's.

Michael Ezekiel divided his business empire between his two sons and was always on tours with his wife.

Jairus strode towards the kitchen where his cook was making breakfast. He sat on the table putting aside his things which included cell phone, car keys and wallet. And within a few minutes there came a plate of fresh pancakes with green tea.....all time his favourite breakfast.

After finishing he wiped his face and drove towards the company.

Jairus tried not to think again...anything that happened yesterday. But at very thought his heart became gloomy. He started the fm-radio to divert his thoughts and kept the volume high. Which helped him a bit.

He reached the company, parked his car....stepped out and took a deep breath to make himself normal. As he was the boss and to his employees a cold hearted and strict person. He didn't want to let anyone know that he still has a soft corner or he his icey heart can melt  !

Took the elevator and stepped into the corridor of 5th floor where a girl greeted him.

"Good morning Mr. Ezekiel"

"Good morning"

He replied her in a firm tone, as usual.

And he strode towards his cabin. Made himself busy with the office work. As he was dedicated towards his only love - business.

When the glass door of cabin opened and a slender silhouette appeared.

The girl was having blonde hair,dressed in green with blue eyes with false lashes which she was baiting at Jairus. She greeted him in honey coated tone !

"Good morning my love !"

"Morning Genevieve."

Jairus looked up at his RECENT girlfriend who was the daughter of a rich businessman. And used to come to Jairus...most often !

She came forward to him, sat on the edge of table and leaned with such a manner showing off her breasts..... stood up came closer to Jairus' face and leaned forward.... her hips which she was moving in delicate manner to lure Jairus to herself.

"My sweety pie isn't in good mood today."

"Yeah just a bit tired."

Jairus settled back in his chair and pulled Genevieve towards himself making her settle in his lap.

"Aw what can I do for you then ?"

She asked like a smitten kitty.

"Well....I don't know."

Jairus replied her and slipped his hand from her thigh towards her navel when she giggled.

"You naughty !"

She placed her lips upon his and bit him there to make him open his lips__as he did. She kissed him passionately as he started to rub her back. And kissed her with same force.

She moaned making him ferocious in that act. Jairus held her popping breasts with one hand and squeezed them while she laughed. And Jairus bit her above chest line.

HER CLOSED EYES !

THAT BLOOD SPOT !

THAT WHITE CLOTH !

HER SLEEPING FACE !

Guilt overcame his senses and he shoved Genevieve back. With sweat around his forehead.

"Are you okey honey ?"

She asked holding his face in her hands.

"Yeah I'm okey."

Jairus replied her pushing her back....as she stood up.

"You sure ? Anything bothering you ?"

She asked him again.

"Uh yeah ....No no I'm fine. There isn't anything.

Ah Genevieve you just leave now.....I'll call you."

He stumbled upon his words.

And she left without questioning him more. She knew he wasn't going to tell her anyway __he was hard to get !

And much more tough to reach his heart !

Jairus held his head between both hands.

When the screen of his cell phone flashed and the name of Kurtz was showing.

He was calling him to ask about yesterday.....as the way back to home Jairus kept quiet. Kurtz and Xander asked him various times but he shook them off. They knew something happened there but they knew this too that Jairus wasn't that kind of guy who gets upset easily. It must be something serious,  something big and something worse !

Jairus didn't took the call and the call ended. It was silence again in the cabin. He could hear his inner self making noise....forcing him to repent  !

@~~@~~@

"Where is the lady manger ?"

Regena yelled at a girl.

"She's busy with a client arranging deals."

She informed her.

Regena strode towards her cabin, herself dressed in white. The night was enough to suffer. To cry and to decide !

She wanted answers now.

The guy left the cabin when she opened the door with a bang and threw a deadly glare towards the lady manager.

"How dare you ?

How dare you to drug me ?"

Lady manger was mentally prepared for this so kept herself normal.

"Calm down Regena. And then tell me."

"Calm down !

Tskk.....how can I  ?

You drugged me last night....who told you to do so ? Why did you ?"

"Actually I was the one who drugged you last night. I gave you a dose of philter which heightened your desires. "

The manager explained.

"But why ?"

Regena smashed her fist on the table with a dang.  She was angry .....much more than that.

"It was the demand of that customer  !

He wanted you to be at peak with him !"

"What ?

And you gave me that dose upon that stupid request of that bloody customer  !"

"Yeah.....he was paying double for you !"

"Tsk....you're unbelievable."

"Calm down Regena it isn't a big deal. He payed advanced to have you !

It's hard to manage such a bar and too many girls. We needed his money. So I did what he said."

"Without my concent !"

This time Regena's voice was loud.

"Ah yeah !"

Regena stood silent for some moments then placed her decision.

"I'm quitting  !"

"Wha.... what ? "

Lady manager was surprised as she couldn't afford to let her go.....or to work for another bar.

"You heard me right. I quit. I'm leaving."

Lady manager threw another sentence in hope that she'd stay & took back her decision.

"But where you'll go ?"

"To the hell !

It's not your concern now !"

Regena replied her back immediately in loud voice with aggressive tone.

She turned back towards the door went out slamming it hard. Leaving the lady manager stunned.