C146 Phoenix No

I had taught her well, but I had never thought of giving her to those ugly men to warm her bed.

Li Shang is my Li Shang, is pure Li Shang, is elegant Li Shang.

No matter how naked she put on her clothes, no matter how colorful her makeup, in my heart, Li Shang was always simple.

Like a white lotus, elegant and refined.

I couldn't help but kiss her because I liked her, liked her to the bone. For her, I could give up anything, my dignity, even my chastity.

The bawd knows my friendship with Shang, she has advised me more than once, but I do not care.

I took her in during the day and slept with her at night. Her body was very soft, so sleeping with her made me feel extremely comfortable.

It was only then that I felt that I was Begonia, a flower blooming at night.

I took off all pretense and was able to be safe with Li Shang.

Yet, Young Noble Huang barged in. I know he likes me, but that is only limited to this pair of scumbags.

Which man didn't like young and beautiful women?

It was on that night that I became even more convinced that Liushang could not stay any longer. The bawd was a person who would give up Liushang at any time, and I absolutely could not let this happen.

The silver I have saved is still a long way from redeeming two people, but it is more than enough to redeem one.

I took the initiative to find the bawd and gave her all the silver, begging her to let me go.

Although the old procuress was stone-hearted, she opened her eyes to money.

"Alright, I'll let Li Shang go, but all the money you earn in the future will belong to me." That woman had a treacherous smile on her face.

I was helpless and could only nod. I added, "After she leaves, she will have no one to rely on. I hope that you can give her 10 silver coins so that she can live a peaceful life."

The old procuress nodded, "Since you're the one begging me, I'll agree."

Everyone in the Beauty Pavilion knows my temper. I don't easily beg others, like a proud phoenix.

No, how can a phoenix describe me? I'm nothing, yes, nothing.

As for what I have done for her, it will be an eternal secret.

The next day, I purposely told Li Shang that I was in love with Young Noble Huang, so that she could leave peacefully without any worries.

It is time for the thread between her and me to be broken and not be entangled any further.

As a successful prostitute, I was very good at acting, and Shang didn't doubt the authenticity of my words.

Perhaps, she suspected, my heart would throb for a moment.

After Shang learned that we could leave, I thought that she would pack her things and leave. I didn't expect her to come and say goodbye to me.

In the future, her life will be her own. I can't help her, no matter what.

She left just like that, and the big stone in my heart fell.

Young Noble Huang asked me, "You have done so much for her, yet she has always resented you. Can your heart not hurt?"

Of course I would feel pain, and when she said those heartless words, my heart felt as if it were dripping blood. I had never felt such pain before, as if it was about to suffocate and make me faint.

But I survived.

Leaving Shang is my dream. I place all my hopes on her. May she live well, live brilliantly, live beautifully.

On the fifth day after Shang's departure, I was diagnosed with plum blossom disease.

Everyone distanced themselves from me, despised me, and attacked me while I was down.

The old bawd drove me out of the Beauty Pavilion, and I had nothing and I was sick.

I settled in a run-down temple and lived by the charity of beggars.

I have to say, the poorer the person is, the better their heart is. Even if they can't fill their stomachs, they can still give me a portion.

I didn't tell them my story, because my story wasn't worth anyone knowing.

It could be summed up with just saying that a brothel girl had fallen from heaven to hell.

I asked about Li Shang's whereabouts and wanted to know how she was doing. I later learned that she had made a personal engagement with a teacher.

Very good, she had someone to protect her, at least it wouldn't be too desolate.

Knowing that she was fine, I felt relieved. The next thing I needed to do was to find a secluded place to quietly wait for death.

At this point, dying should be a release for me.

I am still very young, but my illness cannot sustain my longevity.

As I walked down the street and looked at the people hurrying back and forth, I felt as if I had been separated from them for a lifetime.

Those peddlers, trying to live for the family, and I, have nothing left.

Before she chased me away, she said three words to me, "You're so stupid."

I take it with a smile, because I don't deny it.

What I did was to help others and wound myself in the end. A woman like me, what else could I use to describe her other than foolishness?

The veil covered my face and neck, and all I could see were my eyes, which had dried out.

I saw Young Master Huang accompanying his wife as she bought jewelry, inserting an exquisite pearl hairpin onto the woman's head.

The woman's smile was like a flower, and I thought of myself at the Beauty Pavilion.

At that time, there were also many people who gave me gifts. I would take them all with a smile and give them my own "gifts".

The exchange of courtesies was just a dirty transaction.

He noticed me and should have recognized me.

After all, my reputation is already too smelly.

I could only turn around and leave, without that beautiful leather bag. I was nothing with him.

The words that he had said he liked him were just for show. There was no need to take all of the things that had happened in the past seriously.

After all, my mind is still a tradition. I've always heard people say that when a leaf falls, it returns to its roots.

Yes, what could be better than home?

Since he had grown up there, he might as well die there, even though he didn't know what his hometown had become.

I went back to the temple and said goodbye to the beggars.

Before I left, a grizzled woman in her seventies gave me a steamed bun and told me to take care of myself.

I shed tears, the world's true beauty, so it was like this.

But no matter what happens now, it can't stop my heart that only wants to die.

No, I should say, I had to die.

I dragged my broken body step by step towards my hometown. This road was very familiar, and I walked with Li Shang.

It was just that the two petite girls from before had already disappeared.

Instead, I went back alone.

Walking tired, hungry, I will pick wild fruits to eat, that steamed bun, but I have been carrying it in my arms, as a motivator to encourage me to continue walking.

It rained again, and I took shelter under a tree that was so leafy that I could barely stay out of the rain.

As the wind blew, I became colder and colder, shivering from the cold. After who knows how long, I lost consciousness …