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You've always loved me?

There were always good and bad memories about Li Chenxi, but whether or not someone asked them, they would always follow them like shadows.

Shu Yao thought for a bit, it seemed that other than Mo Wanwan, there was not a second person who knew everything about her and Li Chenxi in detail.

If not for the fact that she was bored to death, and was not able to escape from this place, Shu Yao probably would not have talked about this with An Xin'er.

But just as An Xin'er had said, no matter what, they had experienced life and death.

"Li Chenxi and I? We've known each other since we were very young. I remember the first time I saw him, I was eight or nine years old! "

When she was young, she once went with her father to the Li Family to be a guest. When she accidentally went to the backyard, she met him painting on a tree.

The conflict that was unclear, had begun at that time. Thus, after many years, when Shu Yao thought about it again, she could still vaguely remember the youth with a fairy-like temperament who sat on the treetop independently back then.

She was the one who pulled him into the mundane world. As such, everything that happened in the future would be done for itself. Who could she blame?

"Wah!" You are childhood sweethearts! "I'm so happy!" An Xin'er revealed a shocked expression at the side, and revealed an envious expression.

However, Shu Yao smiled, leaned on the wall and said: "I can't be considered a childhood sweetheart, I just know her from a young age! "However, I liked him. I liked him from a very young age."

"Ah?" Is she secretly in love? "

She nodded. If it was a few years ago, she would definitely not have said the same words.

The moment the word 'secret love' was spoken, she would be so ashamed that she would want to find a hole and hide in it. However, it would not happen now.

The accumulation of time, slowly grow up, mature people, naturally do not care about these, like is like, loved is loved, there is nothing to hide.

"I fell in love with him when I was nine. I didn't dare to tell anyone, so I hid it in my heart and observed his every move. I remembered every little detail and felt really happy just by being able to talk to him for a bit."

The joy of being in love with someone for the first time couldn't be concealed.

It was as if he would be happy for a very, very long time if he could meet her face to face one day.

"I can understand that feeling, I once liked Jiang Jisheng like that too!" An Xin'er said.

Shu Yao looked at her, "That's right, I do like him, but I never thought he would like me, or have any connections with me. After all, I was a mute at that time, and was also an illegitimate daughter."

An Xin'er was shocked, "You are also an illegitimate daughter? No way! How come I've never heard of it? "

"Shu's is not considered a very big family in A City. Furthermore, you have not asked around about these things, right?" Shu Yao explained.

An Xin'er thought about it, "That's true! "I can't believe we all share the same fate!"

"That's right, my identity is not worthy of him at all. How could I hope to marry him? But very coincidentally, when I was just over twenty, his grandmother suddenly passed away from illness, and her will told him that he must marry me as his wife, otherwise he would not be able to inherit the Li's's inheritance. "

An Xin'er immediately said, "Is this the reason why you guys got married back then?"

"Yes, everyone thinks I married him because of my will, but in fact, I don't regret marrying him. I even feel very happy."

Thinking back to everything when he married Li Chenxi, it was as if he was in a dream.

When the Li Family's Heaven Lord passed away, his will was exposed, bringing about a lot of trouble. Everyone thought that in order to follow his grandmother's will and to be filial, Li Chenxi had no choice but to condescend to marry a mute.

The people around them also thought that it was because of's stepmother's coercion and the dual threat of her will that she married Li Chenxi and started a family.

But in reality, she knew that Li Chenxi was forced to marry his, but she was completely willing to marry him.

"I know that my original identity was not worthy of him. Marrying me is like a stain on his life!"

This was one of the reasons why Shu Yao insisted on getting a divorce later on.

Seeing him and Han Cai Ling standing together, how well-matched were they? They were simply a match made in heaven, a perfect couple. She was even more ashamed and the only thing that could barely preserve the last bit of her dignity was to voluntarily propose a divorce.

"How can this be? You wanted to marry him, didn't he know? " An Xin'er asked.

Shu Yao smiled lightly, and shook her head right after, "I love him, this is my problem, how can I let him know?"

Besides, what could they do if they let him know?

Was she hoping that he would fall for her like she liked him? Impossible! Love is like this. When you like someone, there is no reason, nor can you control the other person to like you.

If they were to pay the price, there was no guarantee that they would be able to reap the rewards.

What was the point of paying if it was just for the sake of reward?

Actually, during that marriage, Shu Yao had already displayed it very clearly. She was a woman with character and backbone; even if she was an unknown little mute, if she didn't love this man, would she have insisted on giving birth to his children?

He would never know how long she had been happy when he found out that she was about to marry Li Chenxi and become his fair and square wife.

That was her dream from a young age.

It had finally come true.

They thought that they could live together forever.

However, he never would have thought that things would turn out like this.

In these five years, she had unintentionally seen her husband and wife standing together by the roadside. She couldn't help but think, 'Did they love each other when they were young?' Or is it just barely possible to live because it's right?

No matter what, they could always try to help her to the end of her life. Why couldn't she and him?

If he hadn't been so angry at the divorce, would things have been better between them?

Fortunately, she had a daughter by her side.

As he watched his daughter grow up, it was as if his figure was merged with her body. To be able to give birth to a child for the one he loved the most, his entire life was worth it.

"What about now? Can you and him ever get back together? " An Xin'er stared at the tiny expression on her face and asked softly.

Shu Yao thought for a while, "Probably not, he already has a fiancee, the marriage will be done soon!"

"Ah, how can this be! This kind of feeling, Li Chenxi seems to be a heartless person, to have such a good woman like you silently loving him, and he is so foolish that he doesn't know it, what a pity … "

The remarks of the onlookers, however, would inadvertently move the hearts of those involved.

Shu Yao only pursed her lips and laughed bitterly, "What's a pity? "I've married him before, and I'll never change my identity as his ex-wife. I've given him children, and the relationship between us will never be erased. With these, it's enough!"

How many infatuated men and women, just foolishly love a person, only a little bit of memory between them, never had a past, never had a child?

In comparison, Shu Yao felt that she was already very fortunate. The heavens had blessed her enough! That was enough. For the rest of her life, all she wanted was for him to be well, happy, for a long time.

The words were still ringing in his ears.

In another place, when Li Chenxi listened to the conversations through his headphones, he suddenly had the urge to raise his head and laugh out loud. But for some reason, he held it in, lowered his head, and a layer of mist slowly condensed in his eyes.

Is that enough?

He suddenly realized that foolish woman had actually loved him for so long. How could he have been so foolish to realize that she had used this kind of method …

He slowly closed his eyes, removing the voices that were still chattering from his ears and leaned weakly against the sofa.

Shu Yao, you loved me, why didn't you tell me earlier?

He finally understood what she was thinking, but it was a pity that she had already decided to let him go. How laughable was that? He clearly already had feelings for her.