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I never despised you!

Shu Yao entered the sickroom and saw that Li Zheng was still lying on the bed. His empty eyes had no focus, and he was motionless.

She sat on the edge of the bed, looked at the small boy, and smiled.

The only thing that remained of an image in his mind was Zheng Er's appearance when she was young. She was about two or three years old, and she chattered about 'Mama' as she ran around her.

Time flew. The naughty little bastard from before had grown up into a little man now.

Shu Yao gazed at her son in front of him, raised her hand and gently caressed his cheek, "Zheng Er, do you still remember me? "I am your mother."

"Sorry, Mom is late!"

Although marriage and emotions were a matter of marriage and relationship, but at that time, she did not explain clearly to her child before she suddenly left, so even with Zheng Er, she was still not a good mother.

"Have you forgotten how your mother looked? "Five years ago, mother couldn't speak. Do you remember sign language?" She sniffled, sniffled hard, and raised her hand to sign in front of the child.

"You are mother's greatest treasure. Zheng Er, mother loves you."

After finishing her sentence, she couldn't help but hug Li Zheng and cry, "Mommy thinks about you every single moment. I'm sorry, I'm really sorry, Mommy was too stupid back then, to leave you behind. It's Mommy's fault …"

"So you don't have to act like this, okay?" You can go back to normal! Zheng Er, you are still young, you still have your own life to live in the future, you shouldn't be like this! "

Li Chenxi stood at the side and watched as she hugged her child and cried bitterly. The space between his eyebrows tightly knitted together on his calm face, and at the same time, he said as he walked over, "The fault is mine, not yours. I let the child down."

Shu Yao let go of Li Zheng, and wiped the tears on her face with a hand, then turned to look at him, "Of course you're wrong, not only did you let Zheng Er down, you're also sorry, too. There's more …"

She thought of the boy she'd carried away five years ago, still missing.

All of a sudden, his heart felt like it was being squeezed by something, and he was in so much pain that he couldn't breathe.

Li Chenxi squinted his eyes, "What else is there?"

She looked at him. "Isn't that enough?"

"Hmm?" He was stunned.

It was one thing for him to admit his wrongs, but it was another for him to be criticized all of a sudden.

"Everything was because of you! It was all because of you that Zheng Er became like this!" Shu Yao doted on the child, and the past and present came into view, what appeared the most was resentment.

She stood up and stared at him coldly, "Did you know? Back then when I married you and was pregnant with Zheng Er, I wanted to live a good life with you. I didn't expect to be as close to you as a friend with a case in hand, and I was willing to let it go, and I was willing to let it go just like that, but you just had to cut off all ties with your former girlfriend, it's unclear. "

"…"

Li Chenxi looked at her with a stunned face, and for a moment, he didn't know how to explain what he was thinking.

"Back then, I was a mute and was not worthy of you in the first place. Everyone looked down on me and I already felt myself inferiority enough, and you and Han Cai Ling were even paired up. Every time I saw you two like that, what kind of feeling did I have in my heart?"

That kind of feeling like there were thousands of arrows piercing her heart. She was clearly just a girl, but she seemed to have become a despicable third party. An existence that was like a joke. How could she understand that?

"In pairs?" Li Chenxi found the few ear-piercing words and repeated it.

Shu Yao nodded his head, "Yes, it was because of those small matters that I had accumulated in the past. After that, I became pregnant with my second child, afraid that you would force me to give birth, which was why I made up my mind to divorce you!"

Of course, that wasn't the only reason for the divorce.

It was just that when Shu Yao thought to this point, perhaps because she was looking at Li Zheng and associated it with a child, she naturally placed emphasis on this factor and spoke of it as if she was venting.

Li Chenxi looked at her with a stern expression. "So you divorced me, took my child, and left?"

Pausing for a moment, he continued, "Just because you acted on your own accord and separated me and my daughter for a full five years, I'm sorry, but who is it?"

"You and Xixi have been separated for five years, and Zheng Er and I have also been separated for five years, right?" she asked.

Li Chenxi was silent.

No matter how much the two of them blamed each other, the past was already in the past. No one could return to the past and make up for the mistakes they had made.

So at this moment, Li Chenxi thought for a bit, then directly took a step forward and hugged her strongly into his embrace, "No matter if it was at the time you couldn't speak or you were like this now, Shu Yao, in my heart, you were always beautiful, and I have never looked down on you either."

Right after she finished speaking, she had thought that she could get Shu Yao to be moved. She pushed him away even more indifferently, and said, "Stop it, Li Chenxi, you …"

No wonder everyone said that men could not believe their words.

She understood everything.

"Did you not despise me for being a mute? Impossible! "Why else would we be so low-key when we were married? There was no wedding, no ceremony, nothing at all, and you weren't willing to introduce me to any of your friends. You weren't even willing to reveal our relationship …"

As the words still echoed in his ears, Li Chenxi once again fell silent.

"There was a reason for it back then!"

However, Shu Yao shook his head, "I don't want to hear about your reasons. What has already passed is already in the past.

She turned around and looked at Li Zheng who was on the bed. The most important thing was to let the child recover as soon as possible, and not only that, she also had to find the child she lost previously.

Only, while she was thinking about all this, Li Chenxi suddenly extended his arm from behind her back and pulled her into his embrace once again. He bent down and whispered into her ear, "Don't move, listen to me —"

Sensing her struggle, he quickly reminded her.

Following Shu Yao's cooperation, she gave up resisting, and heard his soft muttering next to her ear, "You are not an ordinary woman, there are too many dots of light on your body. Even if you couldn't speak back then and were an obscure little mute, you still can't block the light on your body."

She was intelligent, kind and innocent, had a cautious mind, was methodical in her actions, had a temperament and beautiful looks, and had too many good points. Such a woman, even if she could not speak and was mute, would still attract countless gazes whenever she appeared.

"I didn't dislike you back then. I just wanted to tie you to my side and take you for myself!"

A deep voice whispered into her ear. The warm air invaded her earlobes, causing her to feel itchy and her mind to waver.

The thin lips's fat smile was just right on his face, but at the same time, it gave off an intriguing feeling. In that instant, Shu Yao felt that her heart was beating really fast, the heat on his face uncontrollably rose quickly.

"This explanation …" Shu Yao faintly smiled, and quickly dodged from his embrace. She subconsciously took a deep breath, "It's already over, so I don't want to pursue this matter any further."

She turned around and then looked at Li Zheng who was on the bed, and held the child's small hand. "Zheng Er, mom will bring my sister here tomorrow, okay? She's your little sister! "

And a brother.

However, his whereabouts were still unknown.

Thinking till here, Shu Yao hesitated and looked at Li Chenxi. After thinking about it, she finally spoke up, "Um, there's something I want to talk about with you alone."

"About what?" He noticed her serious expression and seemed to guess the gravity of the situation.

"About …"

Shu Yao was just about to speak, but the ward door was also pushed away at this moment.

Han Cai Ling walked in, looked at the two people in the room, and hurriedly said with slight embarrassment, "Aunt asked me to come over to see Chenxi, I didn't expect Shu Yao to be here too!"

Hearing her words, Shu Yao felt awkward.

"Chenxi, it's good that you're fine, then I'll be leaving first!" Although Han Cai Ling said that she wanted to leave, she did not turn around.

Shu Yao sighed helplessly, and could only say, "I'll come see Zheng Er tomorrow, it's too late, there are still two children at home! I'll go back first! "

She was holding her coat out, but she didn't notice the small change on the sickbed behind her.