Book 4: Chapter 79: Darkness

Book 4: Chapter 79: Darkness

Scarlet

Darkness.

All around me, thats all I can see. Meanwhile voices continues echoing through my head almost as loud as my own thoughts. Thoughts that feel cloudy for some reason.

Then theres the pain. Extreme pain that seems to be bypassing my Pain Diffusion skill as I float in the darkness of whatever void Im in.

Pain that keeps me from thinking about anything beyond the pain and voices.

Pride. Regain your Pride. There is nothing more important than your Pride. You deserve death without your Pride.

The voices continue nearly endlessly, and over time I almost give in to them as they start to overload the pain to the point that I can think a little. Even if I cant really hear my own thoughts. Because whats the point?

Ive never attached all that much importance to my own life. Never had much attachment to reality itself, if Im being honest. Its one of the reasons I would always just accept my death when it seemed like it was coming.

The world itself is empty to me. There isnt much in it that I care about on a real level.

After all, whats the point of everything? Do action A so that you can do action B to do C. There just isnt an end goal to it.

Unless you count death, that is. And then what would the point of that be? Work all your life, maybe achieve some goals you set, and die.

Then again, I have always enjoyed achieving goals Ive set for myself. That feeling of satisfaction whenever you achieve your goal. Even if its a rather brief feeling, its a good one.

Probably one of the reasons I like fighting so much as a Guardian. To get that quick satisfaction of leveling up. Of growing stronger.

But even then, whats the point?

The voices begin to grow louder as I feel myself slipping away slightly to them.

Ive always been great at everything Ive tried. A rather stifling thought, and one that would probably have a lot of people call me arrogant or something.

The cold of the void slowly turns warm as I feel the pain slowly fading as the voices grow louder. And I cant help but notice just how comfortable that warmth is. Not to mention the voices.

Leave the restoration of honor to me. Let us restore your Pride! The Pride is all that matters.

If I could just leave everything to someone else and sleep

Also wouldnt explain why Id hear everyone I care about from Earth alongside Gramps and Leonidas. Pretty sure theyd be at each others throats in seconds if they saw each other.

Or rather, Gramps would have them imprisoned forever since theres no way theyd even be able to reach his throat.

Just what happened?

The voices continue beating at my mind, none of whom sound happy. Some of them even sound like theyre trying to tempt me into letting the Sin take over. Or rather, most seem to be doing that.

Yeah, no thank you. If theres one thing I hate more than most other things, its losing control.

Well, that and betrayal. I hate betrayal too.

Oh, wait, I just remembered. What were those notifications I heard before everything went dark?

I try to let them play, but nothing happens. No notifications greet me.

Maybe I cant access the System while in this void?

Thats rather annoying.

I try to frown, only to remember that it hurts rather badly to move and instead go still again. Then I remember what happened right before I went unconscious and I do the same thing I did then. I search inside of myself using whatever power I got then, finding that I can still do that unlike my skills.

And what I find gives me pause.

This is not what my blood and DNA looked like the last time I saw. Now they just look cracked? Fractured?

Most of my DNA isnt even connected to each other anymore, with the remaining bits only a little connected but with fractures running through the connecting points.

And even the ones that arent connected look like theyre wrong somehow. But I cant figure out whats wrong.

I try very hard to hold myself back from frowning.

Just whats going on anyways? Did I screw something up before? When I did whatever it was that I tried doing?

SLEEEEEP!!!!

And I wish those voices would shut up.