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At the funeral home, it was probably the most peaceful time for Huangfu Yu, Dongfang Yan and Wang Bo.

The three of them stood there silently. There was no smoke, no war, no jealousy, no rage that soared to the sky. They expressionlessly watched as they sent flowers one after another, but the reason for this was because they did not want to mess up Su Jingya's funeral.

The three of them were the only ones left in the previously crowded cemetery.

Wang Bo walked up first and without holding a flower, he slowly squatted down in front of the tombstone. He took out a handful of toffee from his pants pocket and placed it in front of the tombstone as he gently said: "Xiao Lele, this is your favorite toffee candy. Remember when I first went to America? You don't cry, you don't speak, you only eat sugar all day long. The only time you reveal your emotions is after you finish eating the toffee. You cried and clamored to continue eating the candy, and I went to all the supermarkets in the United States and bought you a big bag of it. You hugged a whole hoard of toffee and smiled brilliantly, that was the first time I saw you smile in the United States.

Actually, I always knew that the reason why you liked taffy was all because … There was once a person who coveted your mouth. "But, you fool, do you know that no matter how much sugar you eat, you can't suppress the pain in your heart, and you can't find the sweet taste of it again …"

Wang Bo didn't know how long he had been speaking to the tombstone in a low voice. When he stood up and left, he felt that the entire world had turned gray, and his chest, seemed to be missing a big piece.

Since she was young, he had always known that Su Jingya would only like one person, and only that one person would be able to make her smile happily, happily.

So... He kept his heart, his emotions, and did his best not to be a stumbling block in her pursuit of happiness. He hid in the corridor and ate the taffy she liked, ate the rest of her apple, and ate everything she liked, but … Because of his indulgence and his refusal, she was finally killed by that person.

Dongfang Yan just sat beside the tombstone without saying a word. He didn't have any expression, didn't send any flowers, and didn't say a word. Because, at that moment, he still could not believe that Su Jingya had already left.

He would never believe it, never believe it, but … Why was it that as long as he couldn't see her, he was scared and his heart ached?

Huangfu Yu was the last one to leave the grave. Before he left, he personally planted one of the nine hundred and ninety-nine rose flower s on the grass in front of the tombstone and combined them together to form the words "Huan Huan."

The thorns on the rose flower's branches scratched his fingers one by one and pierced into his palm, but he didn't feel any pain at all.

Pink Rose was her favorite flower.

's eyes stung painfully. He sat in front of the tombstone and leaned on it, reaching out his hands out to hug it, wanting to take it as Su Jingya's tiny body and hug it tightly in his embrace. However... The tombstone was too wide. No matter how hard he tried to hold it, how hard he tried, he still couldn't hold it.

He suddenly understood one thing: in this life, he would never be able to hug Su Jingya again, never to be able to hug her again.

Huangfu Yu wandered around aimlessly, not knowing where he should go. In front of him was an endless road. He took off his jacket and dragged it on the ground as he walked forward slowly.

He wasn't even sure why he had come to the orphanage.

From the cemetery to the orphanage on foot, it was already late at night.

Huangfu Yu once again walked to every corner in the orphanage that was once filled with their footprints.

He finally stopped in front of the great banyan tree.

His eyes blurred and he seemed to once again see Su Jingya, who was wearing a white dress, sitting on the swing with his back facing him. His long and supple black hair was slanted down like a black waterfall and every single strand of soft hair danced in the wind. Huangfu Yu's heart stirred as he took a step forward, about to touch the figure.

However, just as he took a step forward, the mirage in front of him disappeared.

All that was left was the endless night, as well as the loneliness of the bone eroding pain.

Only now did he understand why he had seen her in the orphanage that day, why he had appeared under the great banyan tree, and why he had sat on the swing.

But why didn't he believe it then? Why didn't he believe it?

Huangfu Yu walked up to the swing and closed his eyes. He thought back to the time when he saw Su Jingya sitting on the swing, when he slowly reached out to grab the iron chain she was holding earlier. He imagined her sitting on the swing again right now, and what he held was not the iron chain but her hand.

He could still feel the warmth of her hands on the iron chains.

The corner of Huangfu Yu's mouth curled up slightly, but when he opened his eyes, other than the icy cold template and the dark night, there was nothing else.

Huangfu Yu walked in front of the great banyan tree, wrapping it around and around. His memories were noisy, and he couldn't calm down either. He thought back to seventeen years ago, when the rose flower was in bloom, to the time when the little girl, who only loved to be beautiful to the point of being stinky in front of him, stuck the rose flower behind his ears. He raised his little face that was filled with anticipation and asked: "Huan Huan, do you think Le Le is beautiful?"

He still remembered how he had replied disdainfully, "Flowers are so much prettier than you!"

In the end, when she heard it, his little mouth pouted and started to wail loudly: "Stupid Huan Huan, dead Huan Huan, Le Le is obviously the prettiest, and Le Le is obviously prettier than flowers! Woo woo … * I've decided to punish you, and ignore you for three days! "

He remembered even more clearly that she had pestered him to play cat and cat under this great banyan tree. If he didn't agree, she would grab his clothes and drag him down with all her might, to the point that she couldn't even get up. He had no other choice but to agree to play cat and cat with her.

Su Jingya's stupidity was not only formed in a day or two, but was deeply rooted in every cell and every nerve.

At that time, every time he used the stone scissors, he would throw a stone. After using the stone scissors ten times, she would be able to easily destroy her stone. With his face red from holding in his emotions, he screamed, "Huan Huan, why do you always win every time I use the stone scissors? Why am I always the cat? "Why do you always hide? I can't find you no matter where I look!"

However, she would never know …

Huangfu Yu raised his head and looked at the huge, flourishing banyan tree. Actually, it wasn't that he was concealing himself, but that idiot. Every time, he would just circle around the banyan tree and never raise his head to look.

In fact, he hid himself in the tree every time.

He clearly remembered one time when he had been sitting leisurely on a banyan tree, when she had accidentally fallen asleep. It was unknown how much time had passed before she was awoken by the sound of weeping coming from the tree. When he looked down, she saw Le Le sitting on the ground with a handkerchief still tied around his neck.

He jumped down from the other side and ran to her side asking: "Le Le, what's wrong?"

When Le Le saw him, she rushed towards him while crying and hugged him. Her snot and tears were all on his clothes, as she said in an aggrieved manner, "Huan Huan, where did you go? I've been looking for you for two hours, but I still can't find you. "I thought you were like my parents, suddenly you disappeared …"

Leaning against the great banyan tree, Huangfu Yu slowly slid down the ground. With a hoarse voice, he said softly, "Le Le, I can always find you, but … This time, why couldn't we find it! "

Huangfu Yu thought that he had forgotten a lot of things from the past. But it was only now that he found out, not that he forgot, but that he remembered them deeply in his heart.

Just like that, he sat under the tree and slowly recalled every single detail of his childhood. After that, it was the first time they had met after growing up, and later on …

The memories of his childhood were truly very warm and sweet, yet they were filled with a sharp, subtle pain.

The memories of growing up, although from the beginning it had been indescribably conflicted and helpless, but … As long as he thought of her by his side, he still felt very happy.

In these seventeen years, ever since they met by chance, they had been constantly searching for each other, thinking about each other, remembering each other, protecting each other, loving each other, but … The search and counter-search they had made along the way, who had lost who?

Only now did he realize that it was not her that was stupid, but him. He was a conceited childhood sweetheart, a childhood sweetheart who was always on the lookout for him, a childhood sweetheart who was willing to hurt her at all costs. So it turned out that she was an impostor, and he was so stupid that he started to fulfill his promise he made to her before he even figured out who he was.

The memories were very beautiful, but at the same time, it also made him feel pain that was worse than death.

Huangfu Yu held onto the churning pain in his chest and deeply felt the pain of his memories that a person had to endure for such a long time.

Pain, it really was pain. It was so painful that he almost couldn't bear it anymore.

He really didn't know how Su Jingya had endured to this point.

He should die just like Dongfang Yan had said.

Between him and Su Jingya, the one who deserved to die was him, not her!

Huangfu Yu chuckled. He didn't complain about it, he didn't complain about it, he just hated himself for being stupid. He had hinted at him so many times, and he had realized it even back then. Why was he so easily deceived by Sun Qingkong, why didn't he believe him?

Huangfu Yu felt that there was some kind of boiling hot liquid in his eyes that was about to spill out. He quickly raised his head and forced the liquid back. As he was leaving, he caught a glimpse of the ground not far away. The soil was softer than the rest. There were no pine trees or even any vegetation. With a single glance, one could tell that someone had already dug it up.

Just like that, Huangfu Yu walked over and used his hands to dig apart the ball. He did not know why he was digging. It was as if there was a mysterious force deep inside his soul that was pulling him. He could not help but lose control of it.

Huangfu Yu dug hard for a long time, but when he found an iron box on the tip of his finger that had been grinded by a stone, his entire body stiffened up, and he was stunned for three seconds.

When a huge metal box appeared in front of him, Huangfu Yu felt his chest heaving up and down, as if his heart was about to jump out of his chest.

He did not know why there was a metal box buried here, much less who buried it, much less under what circumstances it was buried in.

After staring at the metal box for a long time, Huangfu Yu held his breath and slowly opened the box.

The iron box was opened. Borrowing the light from the dim street lamp, he saw with a glance the little bear whose neck Su Jingya had cut off that year. In almost an instant, Huangfu Yu suffocated as all the hairs on his body stood erect.

This is... Le Le buried it?

When was it buried?

Huangfu Yu was stunned for a moment, then quickly reached out to flip through the iron box. Looking at the items stored within the box, Huangfu Yu felt that he was about to go crazy.

He picked up the candy wrapper that Su Jingya had tied together, and thought back to when she was young and would chase after him every three days. She asked him with an innocent face and a face full of idiotic questions, "Big Brother Huan Huan, tell me … Does that TangTang taste good? I've never tasted the taste in your hand before. Do you think it will taste good? "

Huangfu Yu rummaged through the metal box and found a lot of things. He did not know why Su Jingya wanted to collect all these things, but he knew that everything inside had something to do with him.

He took out the strawberry hairpin he had stolen for her and the necklace he had picked up for her when she was in the hospital, the chain he had thrown away.

Huangfu Yu held tightly onto the chains, pulling the items within the metal box, one after another, as he cried out towards the sky with extreme heartache and sadness: "AHH!"

It was only now that he realized how much she loved him and how much he had failed her.

Huangfu Yu's eyes were bloodshot, the things inside the metal box showed that she was deeply moved, but at the same time, it also recorded his feelings.

At the bottom of the box, Huangfu Yu saw a broken pen and a beautiful piece of paper.

When he picked up the pen and looked at it carefully, he realized it was his usual pen and once when Su Jingya came to find him at his office, he just happened to be in a bad temper and broke a pen. He clearly threw the pen and pen into the trash can, why would she …

Huangfu Yu pressed the pen to his chest, with trembling hands, he picked up the letter and projected it towards the street light, he could clearly see the words written on it.

Seeing the title at the top of the letter, Huangfu Yu gasped.

It was a letter she had written to him.

"Huan Huan:

Today's me, really sad, sad feel this world, there is no point worth my nostalgia. To me, the entire world has lost all its splendor.

I'm lying under the banyan tree that belongs to us, writing you a letter. I'm kneeling on the ground, begging the old banyan tree to give me one more chance, to give me one more chance to stay by your side, but … Not only you, even the old banyan tree that knows me and won't make a mistake won't give me another chance.

I don't know what I did wrong. I don't know why you don't like me, why … Why do you have to maintain and keep the clear sky in front of me over and over again?

Although I clearly knew that the reason why you treated Qingkong well was because you thought that she was Le Le, and I repeatedly told myself in my heart that to actually treat her well was to treat me well, but … After persisting for a few years, I could no longer deceive myself.

I know that you have fallen in love with her, and it has nothing to do with whether or not she is Le Le. Even if one day my identity can be exposed, you won't love me even a little.

The moment I understood this, I ran to the desolate plains and shouted out your name again and again. I asked again and again why, why you didn't love me, why I tried so hard to return to your side, how persistent and paranoid I was in love with you, but … No one answered me.

This feeling was very subtle, very bad. It was like saying "I can't respond every day, I'm crying my head off". I was scared, really scared, scared that no one in this world would ever treat me well, afraid that I would be left alone in this world again.

I really miss our time together in the orphanage. It was so good!

I can look at you, hold you, hold you, stay by your side, and you belong to me alone. However, reality is too cruel. The more I look forward to it, the more I desire it, the more I desire it to be beautiful, but in the end, I was beaten to the point that I didn't even have the strength to stand up.

Ever since I was young, I have only had one dream, and that dream is very lowly, but unattainable. "

"I want to marry you, want to stay by your side, love you, protect you, and accompany you for your entire life. I also want you to accompany me for the rest of my life.

When I saw you hugging the clear sky and kissing her, I knew that my dreams had been shattered and shattered by you. No matter how I picked them up or how I repaired them, they would only be fragmented dreams.

I admit, I'm very shameless, I'm very willing. Shame, I am too low in status. In order to stay by your side, I am willing to do anything. In front of you, I am even wagging my tail like a dog.

However, as it turns out, no matter how humble I am, I can't change your gaze in the slightest.

When I was on the verge of giving up in my most desperate moment, I didn't expect that I would be able to marry you. Do you know how I feel when I put on my pretty wedding dress and stand in the empty house in the mirror and look at myself alone in the mirror? He was happy, but he was also injured. At that moment, how I wish that you could stand by my side. Even if it was just for a second, I would blissfully faint.

The wedding banquet was grand, but my heart was being mocked by them. A person's wedding, so desolate, like I'm alone in America, rocking in a wheelchair in the snow, it makes me shiver all over. The wedding march, not full of joy and joy, every note is so harsh, so let me cry.

I want to have a baby for you. Even if I can't stay by your side, at least I have a baby for you. But … The baby was gone.

The period of injury was the happiest for me since we separated. Even though you're still as cold as ever, pointing fingers and pointing fingers at me, but … I know that our relationship has eased up a bit. Every day, I would lie down on my bed, say good night to the door of your room, say that Huan Huan loves you, and then pray for the arrival of the next day. I was wrong again!

I shouldn't have hoped for too much. As long as I don't have too much hope, then … I wouldn't be in pain, I wouldn't be sad, I wouldn't cry. "

"Huan Huan, do you know how much I love you?

I once, facing the wind, facing the clouds, facing the sky, facing the earth, facing me, facing you, saying that I love you, and the wind knows, the clouds know, god knows, knows, I know, only this fool doesn't know, I love you, I have already loved you to the point of madness, all the shame, all the dignity, all the dignity, I don't want anything, all I want is you.

I've done a lot of stupid things for you before. For three days and three nights, I've never said a single word other than your name.

Huan Huan, I feel that it must be because I'm not good enough, so bad that I'm not worthy of you, so bad that I don't have the slightest qualification to stay by your side, so bad that you won't even look at me …

I know better. In a little while, I will go to your house and say I love you a thousand times before I can tell you … Precious, goodbye!

Huan Huan, I don't know why I like you so much, why I love you so much, I'm too stupid, I've endured for seventeen years, I suddenly feel very tired.

Huan Huan, today... We're divorced.

I knew it was time for me to let go.

So... I'm going to bury them, bury my own heart, henceforth... I will learn to forget you, learn not to love you, learn to love myself.

But, why … I... I still want to love you forever...

In the end, can I stop you, Huan Huan …

• 6th of September, Le Le, Su Jingya. "

After Huangfu Yu finished reading this letter, he was unable to restrain the pain in his voice and he cried out in a hoarse voice, "What do we do, Le Le, I want to love you for life even more, no … I'd love to love you for several lifetimes... "