"Kris, you have no idea of how scared I am?" Zhou Liying sighed and let her strong persona crumble in front of him. "I am hell scared of the idea of falling in love. Hell scared."
Kris wanted to comment that he had the idea of her feelings, no one knew better than him, but he kept mum. He let Zhou Liying pour out all her feelings.
"My past scares me. I am scared that what if he too leaves me like the man who left me in the past? I do not know if he is my imagination but my heart, inside of me always yells at me that someone has left me, abandoned me."
"If he had not abandoned me, then maybe...." Her voice broke down and a sob escaped her lips. For so long, she wanted to rely on someone, to tell someone how she was feeling right now.
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So many times she felt suffocated. She wanted to run away. She wanted to leave this world. This unknown feeling was binding her heart. It was not easy for her to reject the love of Mu Yuehan again and again.
"Maybe, he could have saved me at the time when I was kidnapped. I don't even know if he too was behind my kidnapping. I always feel betrayed by him. I don't want to suffer from that feeling again."
"I don't think that God has written the love word in my life. First my mother left me, then grandma, my friends, everyone leaves me and it scares the hell out of me. What if Mu Yuehan too leaves me? It scares me. You have no idea what I am feeling right now."
"Do you think I have no idea?" He scoffed.
"Lili," he said softly and took a seat beside her. He gently cupped her face. "You have no idea of how happy BingBing is that you have finally found the love of your life? She has met with Mu Yuehan and she can bet on her life that he is the one for you. He loves you more than anything. He can die for you without a blink."
"And we both know how correct she always is with her love prediction."
"But what if I end up like my mother? What if?" she finally yelled her true fear. "I am not strong like her to spend the rest of my life in the memories of my lover. I am not strong enough."
Kris sighed. "Lili, we both know that your mother was happy with the few memories which she had made with your father. You yourself have told me that. Do you want to run away from happiness falling in your lap only because of this little fear of yours?"
"He may laugh and spend time with us but we all know that he is all alone. He needs someone in his life and the same is your case. You need someone and that someone is Mu Yuehan."
"Don't immediately fall for him. Give him some time. Try to understand him and his feelings. Check if he is for you or not. You can progress slowly but please don't block him out."
Zhou Liying sighed and removed her tears.
"Why are you so good to me? What was I to do without you? Thank you for helping me out Kris, thank you." She hugged him.
Kris smiled and patted her back. "Now be a good girl and give me good news fast. I can't wait to see my sister happy."
Zhou Liying stood up from her seat and made her way toward the washroom. She threw water on her face and looked at herself in the mirror. She looked into her eyes which were crystal clear.
Kris was right, why live in regret, why destroy her happiness when it was right in front of her?
She would accept this happiness. She had made up her mind.
She walked out from the fresh room and they both made their way toward the dance floor.
They were on their way when Zhou Liying heard a familiar voice coming from a private room. Curious, she paused in her steps and eavesdrops on what was going on inside that room.
"Ah, having fun without me."
A smirk appeared on her lips with a plan forming in her mind. The party inside was now going to face Zhou Liying.