Chapter 31 - Determination

Ruhan spat out one venomous sentence after another with a gentle smile on his face while Samia just stood there like a wood...lifeless...hopeless...

Ruhan saw her standing like a corpse and became dissatisfied. If she hadn't been too beautiful, he wouldn't have wasted his breath on her. Everytime he walked around with her guys looked at him with jealousy which really satisfied his pride. Otherwise he didn't spend this much time with a single girl. But this girl was getting on his nerves.

"What are you thinking about?" he pinched her cheek as his voice became sharper, "Don't ignore me when I am talking."

Samia looked at him as if she was looking at a stranger.

"I am thinking about how blind I was to trust a bastard like you." she gave a wry smile.

Hearing her remark, Ruhan's face darkened. He wad really furious. He tightened his hand around her jaw and gritted his teeth, "Bastard like me? Dare you say that you didn't know about my character at all? Didn't any of your classmate warn you about me? Dare you say that you didn't even have a clue that what you were doing was wrong? Did I ever say that I would marry you?"

Hearing these questions, Samia turned pale.

Although she knew that she was also at fault for trusting Ruhan..still his words poked her sore spot.

"I...I trusted you...I loved you..against my better judgement. I thought you would change.. " she could no longer control her tears.

Ruhan smiled cruelly. He became closer to her and whispered in her ears,

"You didn't trust me. You trusted yourself. You were too proud of yourself. You thought that you are so perfect that I can not resist your charm and become your loyal dog." his warm breath caused itching in Samia's neck and she shivered. This posture...Ruhan used this same posture to declare his fondness for her..he would come close to her and whisper in her ears that she was the most beautiful woman he had seen, she was perfect. Any person would be lucky to have her.

Now Ruhan was using the same posture but his tone didn't express any fondness..rather it showed how much he detested her...how much he looked down on her.

Ruhan looked deep into her eyes and asked her, "Tell me that it didn't satisfy your vanity when the campus playboy who doesn't care for anyone began to care for your needs and pamper you. Tell me you didn't feel proud and didn't look down on the other girls whom I dumped previously."

"Stop it...please stop..." Samia no longer had the courage to listen anything. Because everything he said was true. She did feel proud. She did look down on them. Whenever her friends warned her against him..she thought that they were jealous that the handsome rich and untameable Ruhan was tamed by her and was her boyfriend.

Sometimes..the truth hurts people the most.

She squatted on the floor and was on the verge of having a nervous breakdown.

"Please stop it...please...don't say anything... Please stop.."

Ruhan gave her a condescending look and scoffed. He had seen dozens of girls like this who thought too highly of themselves. They always thought that they had the power to turn a playboy into a loyal dog. With this belief they stupidly go into relationship with bad boys just to satisfy their vanity. As a result..they get played by those boys and start their blamegame.

Can they be more illogical?

The playboys are are called 'playboys' for a reason ok? Of course they would play with you! If you don't have the courage to be played by them then don't get closer to them in the first place!!

Ruhan rarely hid his true nature from anyone. Moat of the girls knew exactly what type of boy he was. Still they chose to be with him wither due to their greed or foolishness.

One should not court death if they didn't want to die. Ok?

Ruhan didn't want to waste any time on her. He left the room and joined his friends. The reunion had already ended. But they would spend the night having fun. They had not gathered for a long time after graduating from college.

When he returned his friends immediately surrounded him for juicy gossips.

"You brat!!! You ultimately conquered the proud Samia!!! Tell me the details how you did it!"

"Yes I want to know too. Was she good? Is she looking for another boyfriend? "

"Shut up..you just had a break up. Go and mourn you bastard. Leave the beauty to me."

"Looks like obtaining her is not as difficult as it seemed. Shit! I should have made my move long ago! "

"Hey...what if she complains to her family? Her family is powerful you know."

"So what? It's not like our Ruhan forced her. She did what she did willingly ok?"

"Don't worry...even if they know, they would rather sacrifice Samia than losing their family dignity. It's the Shikdar family we are talking about!!! Don't you remember what happened to her cousin?"

"Speaking of cousin...what happened to her?"

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The endless bickering lightened Ruhan's mood. He hated this crying and blaming part after every break up. Seeing the girls crying for him satisfies his pride and at the same time causes headache.

None of them seemed to remember that the girl whose world had just crushed today by their own friend was still in the next room crying her heart out.

None of them pitied her..none of them had gone to comfort her.

In that room..she could still hear their gossip, their laughter as they mocked the girls they dumped recently.

The ugliness of their hearts were sharp contrast to their gentle behaviour and outer appearance.

When a person is hurt too much..they become numb.

This is one sort of defense mechanism.

Same thing now happened to Samia. Few moments ago she was hurting. Her heart was in pain and her brain was filled with anxiety about her family..her future.

Now, her heart had returned to tranquil. Her face was emotionless. She looked like a lifeless robot.

No one noticed the lonely figure who was approaching nearby bridge slowly. Even if they noticed, they would think that she was going there to admire the scenery.

However, if they looked into Samia's eyes, they would see that her eyes could no longer see the beauty of this world. Rather it was filled with determination...to end her pain and sufferings...along with her life.