Chapter 466

Nan Yue stared at him quietly, "do you want to say?"

Si Jue smiled and looked down at her. "Si Tianjin didn't want me and forced my mother to kill me, but the medicine wasn't strong enough. I still survived!"

Mother?!

Nan Yue frowned gently.

The woman he called his mother had never been mentioned in the five years she lived in animal valley.

"Because of that bowl of abortion medicine, I was ill when I was born, and my mother died because she gave birth to me!" Si Jue's voice became colder and colder.

The white face was completely invisible at this time.

Nan Yue was so sad that he got up, hugged his head, leaned against her stomach and stroked the hair on the back of his head.

Si Jue leaned against him like a child, "I shouldn't live."

Nan Yue's throat itched and his eyes were red.

Suddenly I realized why he didn't want to take medicine.

After taking a breath, Nan Yue said in a soft voice, "don't talk nonsense. Everyone has the right to live. No matter how hard it is and what we have experienced, as long as we treat ourselves well, life will be better."

Blinked, she released her hand, squatted down in front of him, looked up at him and said, "in fact, there is one thing that has been pressing in my heart. Today, I want to say it!"

Si Jue looked at her long eyelashes stained with tears, smiled and held her hand with his back hand, "Xiao Yue, don't force. There are some things you don't have to say. If it makes you painful!"

"Are you in pain now?" Nan Yue asked.

Si Jue was stunned, smiled bitterly and shook his head, "it's easy!"

"That's enough!" Nan Yue smiled with relief. "In fact, this matter has been pressing on my heart for many years. I can't put it down or put it down. I often dream in recent years. There are the same scenes in my dreams. I repeat the same scene over and over again. Every time, every time I wake up crying."

She inhaled and smiled at him.

Si Jue frowned.

Nan Yue shrugged his shoulders deeply, but his lips turned white before he spoke, and slowly opened his mouth, "My ex husband is Tuoba Rui you met before. A very unpleasant thing happened between us five years ago. He had a concubine of Qingmen bamboo horse. At that time, I was pregnant with his concubine at the same time, but for some reasons, my child was killed by her concubine, and I can't get pregnant anymore."

Her voice began to tremble, and his hand was cold. Si Jue coagulated her. Just hearing this, he didn't want to listen to her anymore.

"Xiao Yue, stop talking."

Nan Yue shook his head and smiled bitterly. "Let me say, I've really held it for too long." he closed his eyes and continued, "At that time, I was discouraged. I hoped Tuoba Rui would divorce me, but he didn't agree. At that time, after I knew that my child was killed by his concubine, I really wanted to tear her up by myself. But I didn't. because she still had Tuoba Rui's child in her stomach. But I was also unwilling. My child was gone. Why should her child still be alive.

So, after she gave birth, I grabbed her child. But I just wanted to grab the child, but I wasn't ready to face the child at all. I threw him to the nursing mother and didn't ask. My purpose was just to revenge the woman who killed my child.

So why should I treat her child and a tool well? I even want to kill him occasionally. No, it's only occasionally at first, but when he appears at the bottom of my eyes more and more, and his cries, laughter and babbling sound keep ringing in my ears, my idea of killing him becomes stronger and stronger... And once, I did I did that! "

Her hands were shaking slightly, and she began to tangle her fingers, her eyes messy.

Si Jue held her hand tightly and listened silently. He knew that the next story was the secret she had kept in her heart for many years.

Nan Yue lowered his eyelashes, and his black, fan like eyelashes gently fanned, like a fleeing butterfly. "That morning, the nanny had not entered the house, and the child's cry made me unable to sleep and flustered. I hate that sound, poor and distressing. He reminds me of my unborn child. I think it would be better if he were still alive.

So I hate, I want to strangle him, but really, my hand has touched his delicate neck and is tightening up bit by bit. As long as you give me a little more time, he will die in my hand. But when the nurse came, she was shocked when she saw me strangling him.

I can see that she is very scared. There are fears, panic and accusations in my eyes. Just like I am a vicious woman, she looks at me. I don't care. I'm not in the mood to care about other people's thoughts. I know that if she doesn't show up in time, I think I'll really strangle him without mercy. In fact, there's nothing wrong with her looking at me like that, Isn't it? "

Her face turned white, and a faint smile hung from the corners of her mouth. She looked at him as if she wanted to get his approval.

Si Jue felt that she was very poor. He hoped that she would be heartless and heartless as before. At least, she behaved like this in front of them.

He smiled at her, "even if the nurse didn't come, you wouldn't kill him!"

Nan Yue's eyes shrunk and his tears fell down. He frowned and smiled. It made people feel very uncomfortable. "You don't believe it, but he believed that if the nurse didn't appear, his son would eventually die in my hands. He said I was a vicious woman."

Si Jue frowned, "that's his business. It has nothing to do with you."

Nan Yue shook his head and leaned his head on his knee. He sat on the ground as if he had suddenly lost all his strength. "The child's legs are useless. The doctor said he can't stand up all his life."

Si Jue was stunned and looked down at her. It took him a while to find his voice and said, "his legs are useless. Does it have anything to do with you?"

Nan Yue didn't speak and leaned on him as if he were asleep.

Si Jue moved his lips and refrained from further questioning.

After a while, her quiet voice came from the air. "I said it had nothing to do with me, but do you believe it?"

"I believe it!" replied Sir Si, hardly hesitating.

Nan Yue was speechless again, but his breathing was obviously thick. Something fell on his clothes and made his white robe moist.

She cried!

Si Jue was depressed. This was the first time he saw her cry after he knew her in five years.

"You believe me, why do you believe me?! I'm a bad woman, I'm vicious, I'm selfish, and I have no tolerance for others. I deliberately turn a blind eye to the child's illness, and I deliberately don't let the nursing mother go to the doctor. The child's high fever and long illness lead to his leg disability.

I don't know how a high fever can waste my legs. I have no time to investigate and find out. Everything is a foregone conclusion. Everyone says I did it on purpose. "

Perhaps he was too wronged in his heart. For the first time, Nan Yue put down his reserve and cried in front of a 14-year-old child, "but I really don't know, I don't have, I don't know anything."