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I held Liu Yue's hand, and looked at Liu Yue's face, which was still young despite all the vicissitudes of life, and my heart was filled with pain.

Liu Yue continued to speak softly, "I am used to wandering and wandering, from the south to the north, from the seaside to the inland, from the Jiangyue Village to the sea, from the sea to the Xiejing, from the Xiejing to the sea, from the Xiejing to the sea … When I left, I was not used to saying goodbye to familiar people. I was afraid of parting from life and death. If I lived in the same place for too long, I would feel that time had slowed down … There are some things that accompany me, running all over the world, such as missing, such as missing...

"Come, come, come. On the day I return, you and Corydalis met me in a room at the carnival. It was a simple handshake, a habitual touch, and there was no more formality in it. If it were not for that night long ago, if it were not for the truth of our persistence, if you and I had not cherished it with our hearts, I would not have merged with your world, and there would not have been any traces of your memories in my world. In fact, I know that beneath my strong exterior, I have the delicate, injurious feelings of a snail's tentacle, and the innate talent to grow with blood.

Liu Yue continued to speak, "A Feng, I don't know if it's my luck or misfortune to know you, but I only know that every phone call, every letter, and every time you send someone out, they would make me cry tears that I couldn't say out loud. I know that after experiencing so much loneliness, I have started to get used to missing you and accepting your longing …

"In fact, the whole of one's life is spent in nostalgia and nostalgia, which makes one hold a memory, a longing, and countless sweetness and sadness. Even if one walks all the way to the ends of the earth and has a care in his heart, he will never be alone. It is precisely because of these various concerns in the world that there are all kinds of entanglement and entanglement, as if the root of life, planted into the soil of love...

"The Buddha said that worry is the source of pain in life. If I can put it aside, then I can escape from this sea of bitterness. However, I know that I live for those worries. On your journey far away, on the days when you came to Xiejing, that beautiful small mountain, that ancient temple, that unforgettable bamboo forest, the thousand steps that we climbed, those heavenly beautiful sounds of laughter that filled the air around us, who were dressed in lovers' clothes, will forever be engraved in our hearts. Our figures, will forever be fixed in our memories … "

I shook Liu Yue's hand warmly: "Sis, to be able to meet you here is the ideal that I desire in my dreams. In my days in the great mountain, I have erected such a mountain countless of times. On top of these rocks, I gazed at the endless mountains, and miss the suffering and suffering you, and I think about your beautiful face, and your sweet feelings of hurt …"

Liu Yue gently pulled back my hand. "A Feng, however, our reunion is only a short while after all. I will still leave.

My eyes began to blur, and I helplessly reached out my hand. "Sis — don't go —"

Liu Yue slowly retreated back. "A Feng, after a short period of time together, I will have to wave goodbye to you, and don't want to say goodbye, but I have to leave now. The moment I leave you, thinking that I might not meet you again in this lifetime, my heart ached a little.

"I don't know how many years I can remember you for, five years? Ten years? Or a lifetime? My life is always wandering. For anything, for anyone, I will not deliberately remember, I will not deliberately forget, I will not deliberately pursue … There were too many things in his life that he didn't care about or didn't want to give up. All he could do was leave things like this … When we parted, there was a faint smile in our eyes, just because this beautiful moment, do not have too much sadness …

"We meet in a hurry and separate, the path of life is slowly extending, I don't know how many turns you have crossed, I don't know how many times you have crossed the beam, I don't know how far away you are from me, I only know that there is a person in my world, there is no need to think about it, your beauty, your innocence, your liveliness, your youth, your vitality, everything, will be blown away by the wind …"

"No — Sis, no —" I began to shout weakly and helplessly, "You're gone, my whole world is empty, don't go —"

Liu Yue gently waved her hand towards me and continued to retreat. Behind him was a sea of clouds: "A Feng, my thoughts, have once again become disfigured by your words, my thoughts, have been disfigured by your words countless of times, and because I have left, your presence here has become my greatest concern …

"Forgive me for leaving, forgive me for not being able to stay together with you. If someone asks for the whereabouts of the setting sun, if someone asks for news of the wind, if time has not degenerated my wings, then no matter how heavy the wind and rain are, they will be unable to stop me. Because the place where you are, is the place where my heart flies …" "I really want to have another chance to pamper you, but …"

Liu Yue's voice became softer and softer and her figure gradually became indistinct. Gradually, she blended into the white clouds behind him and disappeared.

I struggled with all my might, wanting to move my feet, catch up to Liu Yue, and follow him. However, no matter how hard I tried, I was unable to move my feet.

"Sister!" I crazily shouted as tears fell from my eyes. I wanted to chase after Liu Yue, but I couldn't do so even though I was drenched in sweat.

"Sis —" I screamed again, wild and heart-wrenching, and my eyes flew open.

My terrified eyes stared straight ahead. My clothes were soaked with sweat, and my pillow was a mess of sweat and tears. My heart was still crying in my sleep.

I looked at everything in front of me. When I woke up from the dream, it was gone. All the happiness and sadness was gone.

I sat up in a daze, lost and lonely as I thought back to all that had happened in the dream, thinking of the words that seemed to come from beyond the heavens, thinking of them, and my heart ached.

It turned out that what happened just now was just a dream.

Turning my head to look at that blurry face, it seems like time is running at full speed and I won't be left with any more than a second.

So am I looking for a dream or a reality? I really don't know. A fool is like an absolute, a wise man is like an immortal, but I can't do it, I can't understand it.

Life has eight tribulations: life, old, illness, death, love and separation, grievances for a long time, cannot ask for, cannot let go. Once, I only understood the top four, but now I finally understand that the last four's pain far exceeds the suffering of the old and dying!

At that moment, I knew that my dream had awoken. In my dream, it was still a foreign path.

I felt like a stupid snail, walking slowly with the heavy shell on my back, the beautiful dream I couldn't get rid of, the cruel reality filling up the heavy shell one by one, pressing down on me until I couldn't breathe.

I admit that I am still wandering around in a dreamy season, and that in the years when dreams are as numerous as reality, I am obsessed with beautiful dreams and tempting worlds, but have long since lost my desire to blossom and bear fruit.

I think that Liu Yue is more realistic than me. She might have thought that we were unable to escape the life attribute and the worldly brand that reality had forced upon us, and could not resist all kinds of enticements. Thus, she could only choose to give up.

However, she did not know that, for me, regret had become an inner echo in the real pain.