Chapter 59

Lin Lishan was unconscious. She sat down with her mother Zhang. Looking at her daughter in front of her, she moved to Zhou Jiao's side. After looking at her face, she saw that her daughter was not worried. She moved again. Zhang's mother watched her move forward without speaking. She looked at her son, Zhang Guoqing.

Zhang Guoqing saw his mother's eagerness for him and shook his head slightly. He is not good to show up, he also wants to see how Zhou Jiao thinks, some things are not based on a few letters, a few words of analysis to come to a conclusion, a lot of love depends on fate, but also can not be forced. He respects his lover's attitude and loves her hard. Zhou Jiao of the two generations had suffered a lot and suffered injustice in her childhood. The love of her parents was a luxury for her. At the beginning of her previous life, she had not yet lost heart to her parents, and it was only later that she was disheartened. Father's love and mother's love are too difficult for her to get. She often says that she belongs to her parents and has no family to depend on.

Lin Lishan plucked up her courage, stretched out her trembling hands and gently stroked her daughter's skinny palm. Drops of tears were dripping on it. She took a hard breath and looked up at her. She looked at her daughter's sallow complexion. She endured heartache. She held back tears and asked her in a low voice: "Jiaojiao, Ma Jiaojiao, you are so big. Your mother didn't come to see you, so you suffered a lot. Mom is sorry for you Mother is not good, mother should not give birth to you, let you have a mother with no mother, mother should not ah, if your father see you like this, how much pain, I have no face to see your father? Jiaojiao, you must hate mom in your heart, right?

Mother is not good, did not take care of you, let you suffer so much at a young age, how can they do this to my daughter? They say you're good. Is that good? How can they treat you like this? All blame mother silly, blame mother didn't come to see you, if mother came to see you, they dare not. My Jiaojiao, my mother sorry you, should not listen to your grandfather, their old Zhou family are not people, are not people. Even if you hate your mother, your mother doesn't blame you. It's all my mother's fault. It's all my fault. Why do you want to go to your father? Why do you want him? You can't even have the only daughter. Why don't I think of a way to see you, even if it's better than seeing it with my own eyes. It won't make you suffer so much. " With that, Lin Lishan bowed her head and howled.

Zhou Jiao sighed. Did she dare to hate? The tears almost flooded the room. I don't know how she managed to survive the news that her father died. No wonder she couldn't raise her. This cautious and expectant AI thought she was a daughter.

Zhou Jiao patted Lin Lishan gently, took the handkerchief from Zhang Guoqing, wiped her face for her, looked down at her head, and was still in tears, sighed. Her mother was too straightforward, emotional and full of tears. I'm afraid that she would be sad and sentimental, and the difference would be different. Now, I don't want to hear her cry before. In addition to not coming to see me, do you want me to eat or wear? You gave birth to me, raised me, I will hate you, then who am I? You are not responsible for the hardships I have suffered and the crimes I have suffered. Maybe you would say that it would have been better not to let Zhou family support me at the beginning. But things have been like this, I am married, even have children, we want to better places.

Speaking of complaining about you, when I was a child, before I was ten years old, I was complaining about you. In the Zhou family, they all said that you didn't want me, because I killed my father. Even my grandparents didn't refute me. I blame you. In the days without mother, I don't care about what to eat and wear. I can see that other people are protected by their mothers and indulge in coquetry. I blame you. At that time, I really miss you, even if I don't eat or wear clothes around you. Even if you hate me for killing my father, I will be obedient. Even if you hit me, I will obey you obediently and don't make you angry, because I have no relatives. You are the only one in the world who is my closest. If I don't have dad, there will be only mother. I want to wait for me to grow up, bigger, learn more skills, I can go to you, tell you I can support myself, do not need you to send money to support me, I just want to with you, because I really have no family, only you.

Hard to grow to 10 years old, Zhou family for me, has been unable to bear, in addition to miss you, more see through their mouth. I've learned a lot of skills myself. I've learned to see a doctor and embroider secretly. These are all skills to make money. I think I can find you. I put down my face and ponder how to get my grandfather to promise me to call you every day. When the call is finally connected, I will be very excited. I think I'm really strong. I can see you soon. But you refused on the phone. You said you couldn't take care of me. Let me wait. You will come back to pick me up. Listen to your cold voice, refuse me to go to you, at that time the heart chilly, the whole body numb, I bite the finger, understand a truth, I can only protect myself, I really have no family.

I haven't even opened your letter for six years. They wear new clothes and new pants. I know all these are your money, but I don't care. I just want to learn something quickly, grow up quickly, and leave the Zhou family soon. After two years, if you read more books and get in touch with the society and know more, you will calculate the date. If I was born 40 years ago, it will be the darkness before dawn. It is justifiable to leave me in my hometown. But when I am 10 years old, I will just be liberated. Will you refuse me to go back? Do you give up me or do you have difficulties? But if it was me, I would try my best to see my own children, even if the world had a knife. But I didn't get the results.Hate it? Don't hate, I don't like to complain, to hate others, it will make yourself too tired. I told myself, a person is also very good, don't need to grieve for others, don't worry about others, when you are an adult, you can live as you want, no one cares about me, I love myself, no one cares about me, I cherish myself. So after a few years, married, married, you did not appear, I have no expectations, I just want to live well, live a good life.

When I heard the voice of the fifth brother in the delivery room, I thought of my father and you. What kind of mood did you have at that time? Why don't you care about your only daughter after you have a baby? Even if you meet and have a look, it's better than sending things.

Thinking of the money sent each month every year, I heard that you didn't remarry on my only child. But why don't you come and see me? Even if I've met once, even my grandmother Lin's family hasn't been seen. Then my father always has one or two friends, and I haven't seen one. These usually do not pay attention to, but careful thinking is very abnormal. Later, I opened the well preserved letters, which I haven't opened for six or seven years. Maybe I can't understand many things when I was ten years old. But now I can see that you have been looking for my father, looking at each different mailing address, and then looking at the date, I think I can't follow you around after I went to you. I feel better. For me, even if you never put me at ease, but you love my dad, that's enough. If you really remarry, no matter how big the reason, betrayal is betrayal. I feel so much better if you can keep my father.

My first son, Xiao Wu, went to report his good news to his grandparents. He found that there was something wrong with him. He forced him to return the addresses of several Lin family members. He planned to send back some special products as a thank you gift. By the way, he told them not to send anything in the future. During this period, some unpleasant things happened. I took back some empty envelopes from the Lin family. As soon as he came back, he said, we were analyzing and pondering. It was clear that my grandfather and others had been telling me that you abandoned me more or less. After knowing some truth, I have been feeling angry in my heart for the past two days. I also sent it out today, and I am not angry.

Don't cry, I really didn't hate you. You not only gave birth to me, but also lived on the money you sent each month. You didn't come to me, didn't you always look for my father? So don't be sad. I don't blame you. I can understand that my father is too important to you. Finding him has become your only obsession. "

Without waiting for her to finish, she hugged her tightly, sobbing silently and touching her daughter's hair. For a while, I don't know how to tell my heartache.

The tears fell on Zhou Jiao's neck, which made her feel hurt. Her heart was still looking forward to her mother's love. Otherwise, where did her sadness and joy come from. Whether she, or the original Zhou Jiao, should choose to forgive. She hopes her father will come back and have a home waiting for him. She believes in her own intuition, and her mother also has her in her heart.

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