Chapter 550 - What are you thinking about? (4)

1 June, Matthew's Villa, City K

Having put on a dressing gown, Matthew returned to the bedroom with a towel and used it to clean Lexi up before throwing it onto the floor before sitting on the side of the bed looking at her.

Seeing the disappointment in her eyes Matthew quietly said "That was frustrating, but we need to finish our conversation. When I woke up, something told me that you were worried about something. What were you thinking about?"

Smiling Lexi said "Just thinking about the last few months…"

"Happy thoughts?"

Lexi gently shook her head "Not everything. I thought about the moving of my business here, becoming Dominic's full-time parent, and our marriage. Happy thoughts mixed with sadness, fear and frustration."

Lexi looked at Matthew and noticed that he was looking directly at her, before saying "Do tell."

"You know my thoughts are all over the place…"

"With what has happened in the last few months, I do not blame you, Lexi. I have had to focus on the one truth that I know since we returned regarding me personal life. I have you and Dominic and the family we started to build became the most important things to me. Yes, I have my career, but if I had to choose between the two of you and my career, you will win hands down. And before you ask, that was before I knew the truth about Dominic. It did not matter to me that I thought Richard was his father, as he was your son and that is what counted."

Lexi smiled at Matthew's words. "Are you telling me the truth?" came he hesitant question.

Turing her head gently towards him Matthew looked her directly in the eyes and said "Absolutely. I just reacted badly when I heard about Dominic because I though we were so happy that you could tell me the truth about anything."

A tear escaped Lexi's and somewhat sobbing she said, "You blame me…?"

"No, just worried that you do not trust me?"

"I do," came the sobbing response from Lexi. "I am happy that I am back here, with my business that continues to grow despite relocating from Europe to home and being here all the time for Dominic, who is as important in my life as you are. He reminds me of how happy we were when he was conceived, and how I hope we can be. But it is tinged with sadness. I must live with the memories of what Richard did to me and that is constantly difficult to deal with as there are constant reminders. My business' genesis is in how I had to survive married to him including clothing myself and getting ready for Dominic's birth. But at the same time, I look at Dominic and know without him we would not have him."

Seeing Matthew about to say something, Lexi shook her head and said "I need to say this. I do not think that we are going to be able to move forward without me getting this out of my mind. What Richard put me through, drove me from Dominic, because it messed my up so much. You know How I feel about you, but at the same time I worry that the past will happen again. Richard meant what he did, and while you will not mean it, it is a fear that I live with. I worry that I will be driven from Dominic again."

Matthew touched her lip, and said "Lexi, never…"

"Logically, I know you are right, but I still feel insecure, and I do not want to feel insecure, let alone trapped…"

"Hence you fighting at the time of our marriage."

Nodding, Lexi added "Correct. In some respect I feel cheated that we did not have a marriage, but my past plays on how I feel."

About to burst into tears, Lexi took a couple of steadying breaths before continuing. "With Dominic, everything is messed up. I know that I could not have parented him at the time of Richard's death, because of those fears. Logically I made the right decision leaving him with Chester, and while I was here for some first, like his first birthday, first haircut, first day of kindergarten and school, and by change when he first stood up. I missed several firsts including those first steps and words. Then there the constant guilt I feel about his kidnapping and the trauma that has put him through. Added to that is what happened and my fears that the man behind our abduction will strike us again, traumatising Dominic, who has enough to deal with. His cancer diagnosis, the changes in his life, and finding out about Richard and you. We failed him, and how do we…"

"Lexi, we have not failed Dominic…"

"But he does not understand what my parents did, and how they caused everything…"

Matthew took a breath before saying "We both know what your parents were like. Old fashioned to say the least."

"I cannot stand where we are at with Dominic. He told me, when I went into see him last night, he hates us. I just cannot cope with this…" Lexi trailed off bursting into tears before Matthew moved and gathered her into his arms.

Matthew rubbed his hands on her back and said "I know. We can deal with it…"

Pulling back slightly Lexi said "How?"

Kissing the top of her head Matthew said "I have been tossing this around for a few days. We need to gather all our friends who knew your parents and their attitude and have them talk to Dominic. Maybe, one will get through to him as to what they were like and it may put the first chip in the wall that he has built up against us."

Silence ensued for a little while before Lexi finally broke the silence and said "If you think it will work. But I do not want Joan here, because we cannot invite her without her fiancée, as there is something about him that reminds me of the man responsible for our abduction and he make me feel uncomfortable. Dominic, the other day was here when the two of them came for a visit, and I saw him tense up, and afterwards he told me that his eyes reminded him of the man who hurt him when he was kidnapped."

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