Chapter 119 - Permission

J was silent at first, she tried to remember what happened after they got her from her apartment but since the bulky guy grabbed her from behind and put something in her nose. She didn't remember anything.

"I'm not sure. How could I know when I was asleep all this time," she replied humorously but had a different effect on Jacob.

He felt agitated. J heard him groan then suddenly he is in top of her. Looking intently at her face.

J's eyes widened in surprise. "J-Jacob...." she wanted to say something but felt the words stuck on her throat.

It would be a hideous lie if he says that he wasn't aroused by her. They have been sleeping together in the same bed for almost two months and during those nights he was aroused by their closeness. He was aroused by her after shower scent with wet hair. Even the thought of her aroused him. God knows how hard it was for him to endure it. But he has to control it until he got her full trust.

But their current situation is making him out of control. Her wearing his boxer shorts, her bare legs and thighs frequently rubbing on his legs making him crazy. And the thought of another man touching her makes its worst.

"I want you...please?" his tone was imploring, his face filled with emotions. He wanted her badly but didn't want to force her. He was asking for her permission indirectly.

J was out for words. Is he asking her permission? But how is she going to answer him? She was scared but deep inside her, she wants him too. Her heart was beating fast, she opened her mouth yet no words came out of it.

It took her long to process her thoughts. Jacob thought that she is not ready yet so he said, "It's ok if you're...." but he was cut when he saw J nod her head.

Jacob was elated but still wanted to make sure. "Are you sure?"

J looked at him in the eyes. Both her hands were in his chest, they were so close that she could feel his heartbeat erratically. She nods her head again.

Jacob smiled then lowered his head to kiss her on her forehead. "Promise I'll be gentle." he murmured to her. J closed her eyes. She felt Jacob kissed both her close eyes then the tip of her nose. She smiled at his gesture. She felt his respect and sincerity even without words.

His lips covered her lips, it was gentle at first then became deeper. She felt his tongue met hers. She moaned at the sensation. Jacob's hands caress her cheeks then to her neck down to her arms. Then it found its way inside her dress. She gasped when his hands cupped her breast. How and when did he manage to unhooked her bra? She didn't notice. She was so drowned in this new sensation that Jacob is giving her. This is her first time but all the fear that she felt has soon vanished. She trusts Jacob.

When it was over, J was exhausted. Jacob was gentle on her knowing her inexperience.

Jacob looked at J tenderly. He kissed her forehead, then her closed eyelids. He whispered "I love you" before he kissed her lips then buried his face into her shoulder until he fell asleep.