Chapter 48 - Wavering Heart

Then he slowly pulled her close to him. He put his other arm around J's waist. He felt the warmth of J's body, her breath in his chest. He had touched and held a woman's body before but he never felt this way. It's no lust, more like the feeling of contentment.

He stayed in that position, the next thing he knows he is now kissing J's forehead. He inhaled the scent of J's hair. He didn't know how but he fell asleep.

J felt a warm body close to her but she didn't fret instead she moved closer to feel more of that warmth. She didn't know why but she liked that feeling, that warmth, and smell.

As she was gaining consciousness, she realized that she is lying in someone's arms and that someone is hugging her. She slowly opened her eyes and saw Jacob asleep while cuddling her.

She wondered how did they get in that position. She tried to remember what happened.

At last, she remembered that his parents came then followed by Jacob. Jacob sent her to bed then she didn't know what happened next because she was so tired and fell asleep.

She looked again at Jacob's face. He is breathtakingly handsome. She loved to stare at him while he is asleep. As much as she wanted to be happy that this guy is her husband, she can't. If only she was a different person. If only, the situation is not as complicated as it was. If only, she is not Jenny Do.

Jacob woke up to see J staring at him. Did he saw regret in her face? He furrowed his brows then J suddenly changed her emotions.

J and Jacob didn't move or changed their position. They were silent. J being close to Jacob's chest can even hear his heartbeat.

They stared at each other for a couple of minutes until Jacob finally speak, "You're awake."

"Mmm..." J replied then nod her head. She moved to get up from bed but Jacob didn't let her go. She frowned at him, but Jacob closed his eyes and said, "Just a couple of minutes more."

To her surprise, she didn't protest. She just closed her eyes and let Jacob hold her in his arms. Since she met Jacob, she sometimes didn't understand herself.

"I'm sorry about my mom...what she said this morning," Jacob speaks again with his eyes still closed.

J didn't open her eyes instead she said, "It's fine. I don't mind."

"She was just furious, she knows that I'm already married and thought I was playing with you. They know about you but didn't know it was you. I didn't tell them yet that I found you already." Jacob continued explaining this time he opened his eyes and met J's.

J didn't say anything instead she stood up, this time Jacob let her go. She looked at the clock at the bedside table. It was already past six in the evening. She went to the kitchen to prepare dinner. Jacob went to check on the golden retrievers.

J was torn. Her heart is betraying her. She wanted this to last but she knows she can't. She can't let Jacob into her life. She is not sure if he can accept her if he found out the truth about her. The truth that she cannot tell him.

They had dinner together then J prepared to go to the hospital for her duty. Jacob was left in the apartment. He cannot sleep probably because he fell asleep this morning. And this past few days without J beside him, he had a hard time falling asleep. It's as if they have been together for a long time that he got used to sleeping and wake up with J beside him.