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Catherine thought.

"What is my life?"

Catherine's mother, Count Catherine, advised her.

"What's in your life?" I think I'm lucky enough. We have the opportunity to choose the husband as much as we want for the best 'selling' year.”

How lucky are you?

For a year, you can pick any man and start over. You can start again no matter what happens. That year will be the best golden age in your life. Prepare the year in its most beautiful state, and the next year, concentrate on how to secretly build your fortune and catch the best man.

"I've seen a future where you are surrounded by countless nobles and royalty after you gave birth."

Count Catherine was quite pleased with her husband.

Although he was a man of low birth compared to her daughter, he was afraid of his father-in-law and would not offend his wife. Instead, he always seemed daunted, and in front of his daughter, he often saw his wife's bad name.

Then he gazed at the fair maids, or pretended to be nothing. After the death of his father-in-law, Dae-gong, he did not even try to hide such behaviors, but became more and more explicit. Catherine was ashamed of her father, and disappointed with her mother who chose him. You said you were a descendant of a saint, but you made that choice.

'Then I'll choose a much better man. I hate people like my dad.’

He himself will succeed. There are endless opportunities. Catherine thought so at first. at first

But not many times in my life, I realized how insignificant a force it was.

Catherine approached the country's only crown prince. And soon became his lover. It wasn't that difficult. He had a beauty that he would not lose to anyone. When he called himself out to the garden, Catherine opened her chest with confidence.

He himself is dissatisfied with the count and the Grand Duke. He thought only the man who would rise to the top of the country was right for him. But the moment he opened his mouth, his dream was shattered.

"I love you, but I won't marry you.”

Son of a bitch.

When Catherine heard it, she was crying on the outside and calculating the date inside.

How can I catch someone other than Prince Gwizu? Next time, I'm not going to be seen by Prince Gwiz from the beginning. That's a blank.

When he first died due to a ridiculous mistake and started over, he cheered. But soon he lamented.

Meeting him was before the day he repeated his life. Because of her mother's thought of pregnancy as her life's task, it was only when Catherine started going into society at the age of 15, and Gwiz had been eyeing herself since then. Excited by the prince's affection, Catherine accepted him without fear.

Catherine's life was repeated a day after she agreed to the prince's concubine.

"I love you, but I won't marry you.”

"I'm not getting married."

"No."

I could not go back before that day even if I repeated it a few times.

Katherine shed tears and said, "Yes, I got it. I will accept your request.' The answer was fixed.

I wanted to talk to my mother, but it was a long time since she died.

In the end, Catherine tried several times and tried to settle down as Prince Gwiz's pet. I couldn't break up because I had already accepted it. His life is already over.

"I want to invite you to my secret room."

"We're one now.”

"How's it going?"

Catherine saw many bodies in the room.

At first, he screamed. Prince Gwiz was so disappointed that he cut Catherine's throat. After a few repetitions, I was able to calm down without being surprised.

"You dirty little bastard...What the hell can you do?"

However, the moment he realized that he could not even conceive, Catherine died staring at Prince Gwiz. Then he strangled himself to death.

After barely getting away from Prince Gwiz and giving birth at the Haier mansion, a deep sense of skepticism came into Catherine.

Catherine tried to love the lord of Hayer, but it was difficult for him to feel more than stability and peace because he had been entangled with Crown Prince Gwiz for so long. I didn't want to think I loved him, but there was no one more strongly associated with Catherine than Gwiz.

All my life I thought of was being released from him. I looked forward to being released and having only children.

"That's the end of the story."

I thought that another gender might be born, but what I gave birth to was also a daughter who looked exactly like her. Catherine sighed as she stroked Karen. He lived for decades at the age of 17. There was nothing left of him. He did not get love, nor did he find stability. What should I do?

"Why were you born?”

Catherine looked into her daughter's face.

I'm sure he looks like this. Catherine resembles her mother's face and her mother also resembles her maternal grandmother's face. And most of them didn't live that long.

After escaping from repeated deaths, whether cursed or blessed, people committed suicide because they didn't have much fun, and died by a ridiculous mistake. It was because I was not afraid to die, so I didn't pay attention to it was because I was ingrained in my body.

And a few days after Karen's birth, she realized that she could see nothing in her future.

endless darkness

distant cries

Catherine got up.

It's dark.

"What is this?"

I reach out my hand. I hear my daughter's whining. Catherine breathed in and exhaled slowly. His future is endless darkness. You have to realize what this means.

"There will be a moment when you realize everything as I did and your grandmother did.”

Is this all the shrapnel you've heard from your mother about the future?

And after much thought, he realized that he had seen nothing.

At that moment, hope rose for Catherine.

I didn't see myself. No future is fixed.

It's perhaps the change of fate in Karen's generation, or it's just her own death.

Catherine bet on the former.

Karen will end a million times. But Catherine was filled with sympathy and sadness when she thought of her constant death. It was terrible to think that the child would just want to die at the end of continuous death. Let's think about it, what will buy Karen more?

"…love me, Karen."

Catherine patted her daughter on the head.

May pregnancy and childbirth be under happiness, not obligation. May she have that kind of love, that she failed, that she failed, and get everything perfectly.

Catherine prepared for Karen's success.

And because he didn't want to see Karen fail, he also prepared his own death in advance.

***

"Mom! Stop getting up! How long are you going to sleep?"

Please be quiet. It's still morning.

However, she had no choice but to open her eyes because of her daughter jumping into the bed. She's a daughter who never gets tired. I wanted to be more like my father than myself, but I don't need to be like him this much. What is it that resembles the overflowing power, not the personality of all things?

"Rebekah, you can't disturb her. Come out right now."

"My mom doesn't work out in the morning, so she sleeps that much. Why don't you build up your physical strength?"

This is enough. What am I supposed to do with different physical strength?

But Rebecca lies next to the bed and rolls the bed with her legs. I can't sleep at all because my whole body is shaking.

"What a fuss from the morning, Rebecca. And wouldn't it get messy if you lay down in a riding suit on your bed?”

"Oh, you wash it every day anyway."

"But it's not the same as just washing your shoes and the blankets you're wearing. I'm up, so go down."

Rebecca jumped off the bed. "Lady! Bed!" I heard Donna screaming, but Rebecca giggled and ran away.

"I'm sorry, Karen."

"Why is he running like a colt in the morning again?"

"I can't handle the power that I'm overwhelmed...You said you wanted to join the army earlier, so I had a fight with you."

What are you talking about? Karen sprang to her feet.

"Why does he join the army?”

"I mean."

"Didn't you have a strange yearning for showing off your medal before?"

"Strange yearning. I just showed them."

Raymond countered with an unfair voice.

Karen shook her head. These days, Rebecca is having a big argument with her parents about her seventeenth birthday. This dress is stuffy, that dress is weird. I thought he was just complaining about his clothes, but he was thinking about joining the military instead of making a social debut. What are you going to do on the battlefield all year?

"Crazy, crazy...I'll get ready right away, so hold on to it. If you try to nag a little bit, you try to run away."

"Okay."

Raymond also sighed.

Karen got up and sat in front of the mirror. When I closed my eyes, three or four pretty maidens came to wash their faces and put their heads back to close. After that, put powder on your face and apply rouge.

"Mom, don't just put it on and come out. What are you doing in the house?”

"…get Rebecca and groom her."

"Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!"

Rebecca, who was peeking at Karen with her head, quickly went out again. A long time later the maid panted back.

"Did you succeed?"

"Yes."

"Who does she look like?.”

Karen sighed.

She is a daughter who doesn't resemble herself at all. I told him to be careful because he might die again when he's 17. Rebecca never listens. I've heard. I just laughed and giggled.

"Then if I go to war, I'll live again and again and become a hero!"

"Are you crazy? There's no war going on right now!”

"Carran, that's not the problem...Anyway, Rebecca, we don't accept female soldiers in this country."

"Then I'll go ask your Majesty to put you in the guard."

When she was young, she would definitely let her read romance novels like her, but Rebecca read articles and literature to read romance novels. The problem was there, not the coalition, but the adventures of the knights.

"So the knight saved the princess and got married."

"…cool…."

"You have to behave properly and be a wise and beautiful lady to meet such a knight.”

"Yes, I'll have to start training from tomorrow."

"What?"

"Starting with physical training and overcoming fear!"

Then, Karen dropped her words to prepare for her social debut and went out to the hunting ground with a gun.

"I'm going to go beyond my father's name.”

Rebecca said so after catching a black bear at the age of 15.

Raymond responded to Rebecca that he had caught a bear since he was ten years old, and Karen fainted when she heard that.

"What the hell is wrong?”

I'm sure I didn't raise him like that.

Karen got up after dressing up. Even if you sigh, the reality does not change. I didn't know how to persuade him to work hard to find a good husband, not to have a dangerous job.

Raymond and Rebecca were in the middle of a battle as they sighed and went down to the greenhouse. It's a horse race, but Raymond was unilaterally hitting Rebecca. It never left a mark and was not fatal, but it only picked out the sting. Rebecca fell out after a while.

"There's no choice until you beat me."

"Oh, Dad, does that make sense?”

"You can."

Rebecca took off her fencing mask that was covering her face. A young face soaked in sweat popped out from inside. Rebecca bawled at Karen, who came down.

"Mom! Please persuade Dad."

"I said I didn't agree, Rebecca."

"Eing."

"Don't be such a baby. I got married at your age. You should grow up now."

Rebecca walks to Karen grumbling.

A daughter who was more talkative than a flower was only 17 years old and had a bigger head. He had a slim but solid frame and looked like a boy who smiled coolly.

"But will you buy me a new revolver for my birthday? I just trust you."

***

"It's too early for a revolver.”

"…carren?"

"If you take my revolver, I'll kill you. Got it?"

"Carran, when did you buy the revolver again?"

"What?"

"Carran, wake up."

He shook his shoulders. Karen opened her eyes.

I felt dizzy. What time is it now? I was definitely in the greenhouse a while ago.

"Where is Rebecca?"

"The new nanny is breastfeeding Rebecca."

"…what do you mean milk?"

How old is he? But Karen sprang up with a strange sensation.

"…Ah…."

"I still have to rest a little longer. I'm lying down."

I had a pain all over my body from my waist. She must have just given birth.

But it had to happen. Karen quickly remembered her dream of disappearing quickly. A dream must be awakened, but you must not forget it. What you've seen.

It was the future.

"Please bring Rebecca...."

"…are you all right?"

"Right now..."

"Yes, I understand."

Raymond went out and carried a little baby in his arms.

Time has already passed, and the baby looked like a human, not a blood clot. The cheeks were reddish and opened their eyes and waved their hands. The eyes were vivid purple.

"…Ah."

Karen stripped the baby of her fur hat covering her head.

Inside, there was a bright blonde hair.

It was the same hair color as Rebecca in the dream.

"…Ah."

Karen realized that at that moment the weary death ring that had come down to her veins had been completely cut off. A million deaths ended in his own lifetime. The repetition is over.

Karen hugged Rebecca. Her daughter, who was tall, cheerful, not like her, and would wield a sword in a riding suit.