CH 43

I was dizzy when I heard a voice full of excitement.

“I won’t do it! Never!”

“That’s too bad.”

He meant it. That Dillian brat, really meant it.

He was really disappointed.

No, it wasn’t like this until yesterday.

Of course, he was always a sly person, but has he suddenly become this forward?

Looking at me in amazement, he smiled.

“I feel like I’m going to die in happiness normally.”

No, it’s not normal.

Having been exhausted by the short conversation, I let my shoulders down.

Usually, it’s not this much, but it was too much for today.

“If you like it that much, why don’t you do it to your lover later?”

“Yes, I am.”

Dillian eyes widened.

“To you, wife.”

“Ah, yes…”

I answered blankly.

This human, is his head really fine? Why do I feel like he’s gotten more sly after the night?

“Yes, yes, you can do that to someone else, but it’s too much. What if she runs away later?”

Why would the female lead run away from the handsome male lead? It’s all because he’s too obsessed.

“… Do you want to run away?”

“No, I’m not saying it because I will do it. Everyone else might think so.”

“I don’t care about anyone else.”

Then is it just me you care about? No matter how much he lost his memories, this behavior isn’t normal.

‘Is it because of divine power or because he believes that we are a married couple?’

There were more than one factors to be mistaken.

“Sir Dillian, what are you going to do if we really are strangers?”

“It doesn’t matter.”

“I think it matters.”

“It’s not.”

“It is.”

“Nope.”

“There is.”

“I said not.”

…Now that he’s angry, is he speaking informally?

When we were fighting over ‘it is or not’ with a burned face, a voice cracked in the corner.

“… It’s noisy.”

Nathan, who woke from its nap, staggered.

“Nathan, are you up? Sorry.”

I quickly took Nathan into my arms.

“We’re going home now, is it okay?”

Morning comes before I know it. It’s still early, but we can go down the mountain just fine.

“… Okay.”

I think it’s still half asleep. Looks like it’s gonna take a while for it to get itself together.

‘I have to go while holding him.’

When I turned around holding Nathan in my arms, Dillian was blocking me.

“If we were strangers, would the time we spent together for a month disappear? It’s not, right?”

It was an extension of the conversation earlier.

“It wouldn’t disappear. Bur sir Dilian believes that we are married, because of that, I am your wife, so you think we should stay together forever.”

I looked into his eyes and said it clearly.

“But what if it is wrong from the start? What if it was a relationship that was created by mistake and misunderstanding?”

It’s really time for him to know.

I spoke without a smile with an infinitely serious voice.

“Then what are you going to do?”

To be honest, I thought Dillian would continue to talk rubbish about us being a couple. But if it’s not, he’d be angry then.

However he laughed.

“Mistakes and misunderstandings, I’m not sure. I only believe in how I feel.”

He came closer and touched my long hair.

“I do things depending on how I feel.”

The hand that followed my hair, came down to my neck then gently touched my shoulder.

“So even if it’s you, you have no authority to argue about my feelings.”

His lips that curved up, looked soft yet fierce.

As if he won’t accept a rebuttal.

“… Yeah. That’s right.”

There was nothing to refute because it was all true.

For that reason, I have no authority. 

“… Do as you like.”

Right. Do whatever you want, but it’ll be better if your memories came back and you didn’t rush up to kill me. 

I walked past Dillian and opened the door.

When I nodded as a sign to go, he followed me.

“Miss Ria, don’t you feel anything from me?”

“I do.”

I feel it every day. When I answered like that, Dillian’s face came up with a faint expectation.

“It’s cheesiness.”

I don’t know what you expected, but you’re especially cheesy today.

***

“Miss Ria, look properly into your feet. It’s dangerous if you fall in.”

“Yes, I am.”

As Dillian worried about me, he was busy taking care of my herbal bag and also me.

I scratched my cheek at the sight of a bulky bag of herbs.

I think I owe him so much.

‘What is this? Uwah, the breath of snowflakes*?’

*A flower’s name.

‘The Spirit gave it to me in return.’

I didn’t expect to be rewarded by the Spirit.

‘It’s a relief, I successfully cleared the request.’

I looked around carefully. My house’s roof can be seen from afar.

Thankfully. The cottage we stayed in isn’t far from my home.

“Everyone must be waiting. Let’s go.”

I had no idea what Dillian’s fanatics would do.

‘I hope they don’t pick on my house.’

A sudden attack of anxiety rushed my feet.

The white breath broke in the air.

“Miss Ria, are you going to stay here?”

I shook my head at Dillian’s question.

“No, I’m going to move to another place.”

Now that our location has been found out, it’ll be better to leave.

‘Nathan also seems to want to leave.’

I shivered in the cold winter wind.

“Where are you going then?”

“I think a warm place would be good.”

At that time, I settled here without thinking, but I never thought it would be this cold.

“Then?”

“Hmm, I want the security to be tight.”

“Yeah, security is important.”

“And I hope there are many public facilities around. Something to have fun with.”

Dillian quietly listened to me. With enough response.

“What are you talking about, specifically?”

The happy me, said to Dillian.

A well-decorated park, a hair salon, or a play to please my eyes.

It was something I always imagined.

“And also a bakery. I want to eat macarons.”

“How about a cafe?”

Woah, a cafe? I’m covering my mouth.

‘It’s perfect!’

On my day off, I sit on one terrace, drink coffee, and watch the streets.

“Just imagining it makes me happy.”

I’m sure the next place for me to settle is a remote place to hide, but it’s free to imagine, right?

“Then come with me.”

“What?”

Why did it become like this?

I opened my mouth to such nonsense.

Dillian didn’t stop talking even though he saw my surprised face.

“I’ll buy them all as soon as I get home. Miss Ria can go wherever you want.”

“Whaat…?”

“No. Let’s just make a cafe in the mansion.”

It’s tempting, but it’s a no-no.

‘Maybe because he doesn’t have his memories, his sense of money is paralyzed.’

Dillian didn’t care about my shocked face.

“So come with me to the Sinaize Dukedom.”

“I will reject it. I’m leaving in a hurry.”

I refused as soon as Dillian’s words were finished.

“You said you were leaving soon.”

“I said I would leave, but I still have something to clean up, so I can’t leave right away.”

The situation is that I should leave as soon as possible, but it’s a house where I lived for a year. I have so many things to organize.

And I didn’t want to go to the capital, I didn’t want to run into Aina, even more Aina’s fish*.

*Female lead’s love interest.

I accidentally got involved with Dillian, but that’s it.

If there is one thing that bothers me, it is the word that divine power doesn’t work on Dillian.

‘What does it mean that divine power doesn’t work on him? Mine works well though. As expected, I need to meet Harris then talk about…’

I stopped walking at a strangely quiet place.

Dillian was out of sight, so I turned around and saw him stopping while looking at me.

“What’s with that expression?”

“What’s wrong with my expression?”

Why? You looked like a kid who’s candy was stolen.

“It’s no use pretending to be sulk like a child.”

“I’m not sulking.”

What do you mean not sulk? Your voice says that you’re sulking.

“Yes, yes, come here quickly. I will leave you there then.”

I looked at the mountain behind Dillian.

“…”

The desolate forest slowly began to come alive.

It’s a cold winter, so the fresh life couldn’t be felt, however you can feel the liveliness that you haven’t ever felt before.

Likewise, Dillian, who followed my gaze and looked at the changing landscape, opened his mouth.

“Miss Ria is the one that made it happen.”

“It still feels like a dream.”

“But it’s real.”

Dillian picked up a piece of wood.

“It’s getting new flesh.”

The tree, which had rotted until yesterday, had a completely different appearance.

The living forest and the herbal bag that was filled with herbs told us that it was real.

The wind blows. It’s not a wind that makes you freeze into the core, it’s a sweet and gentle wind instead.

There was a little whisper in between.

‘Ria, you’re up.’

Who is it? I was surprised by the sudden voice and turned around, but there was no one there.

“Miss Ria?”

Dillian asked with a questioning face, it seemed I was the only one who could hear the voice.

“That’s…”

As I clapped my lips, I shook my head at once.

I think I know who the owner of the voice was.

‘Teevee.’

The owner of the voice was Teevee.

‘Yup! Ria. Are you leaving already?’

‘Yup, I have to go now.’

‘Well, can you see me before your life is over?’

‘Okay. I’ll come.’

‘You promised.’

‘Yup.’

I couldn’t help laughing too at the tickling laughter.

***

We’re here! After wiping off the sweat from my forehead, I opened the gate with light steps.

But what awaited me was a house that had been demolished.

“This, this is what’s going on?”

My home…! My sweet home disappeared overnight.

It becomes a sea of flames.

Flames soared from the collapsed roof and holes were drilled throughout the house, causing the wind to grow the fire.

My most cherished blanket fluttered by the window.

‘Did it get hit by the bomb?’

Otherwise, the house wouldn’t collapse overnight.

“Miss Ria, I think you should come with me.”

Dillian’s happy voice roared in my ear.

Are you happy? I want to cry though.

“Come with me, wife. I will do my best.”

I closed my eyes to the delightful voice of Dillian.

Life is a C (choice) between B (birth) and D (death).

No, it’s wrong.

Life is a Chit* between B (birth) and D (death).

*Shit