Chapter 957 - BROKEN ANGEL

"It doesn't matter which side I am on, because it's not like you will not understand it either," she said, underestimating her.

Raine squinted her eyes at the witch. She was far too familiar with her methods to know that her words weren't really mean like how they sounded.

Sometimes, Raine felt that Serefina just threw sharp comments and acted like she didn't care or behaved rudely was actually to protect herself from the outsiders, so no one would know her true intentions.

The witch kept other people within her arms' length, emotionally, thus no one would realize what she felt, since she didn't want to feel vulnerable and bare her heart.

However, Raine had passed all of that and she was an observant type, someone who would look through her thick façade and now, she saw the witch doing it again; hiding her feelings by talking rudely.

Why did she keep doing this?

But, it was understandable… sometimes, people would build a high wall, to protect themselves from other people feelings, so no one could hurt them, in Serefina's case, she did everything to build that wall over the last few centuries, and now, no one knew how high or thick the wall that she had built around herself.

Raine then sighed, and changed her question since Serefina wouldn't answer her previous one. "Will this do me any good? I mean for the war that's going to happen."

Serefina stared at Raine for a moment, before shrugging her shoulders. "Depends on how your thick head will comprehend all the things that I told you."

Raine closed her eyes, though she could understand a little bit about her, but to be treated this way, still required a lot of effort to maintain one's patience.

"Tell me what you want to show me then," Raine said, gritting her teeth.

For a moment, the witch didn't answer her question, she just sized her up and down, seemingly weighing her options before trying to find the right thing to do with this guardian angel.

Raine was different from the other two guardian angels. She lived among humans longer than Lilac or Hope.

Since Lilac was under the care of the moon goddess herself and Hope was her responsibility to take care of, the two of them didn't experience many things like what Raine had been through.

She was broken and battered emotionally when Torak found her, not to mention about the influence of the shadow warrior that fixed his eyes on her, it affected her greatly, just like how Torak affected Rainer, causing her to move to the other state in order to stable her strength.

Not only that, Raine had been touched by the devils' creatures since she was very young. The two creatures that had killed her parents, Belphegor, who had laid his hands on her, and even kissed her…

And not to forget about those devilish creatures that were attracted by her scent and were trying to have her.

Actually, from the time she was at least eight year old kid, she had been encountered by many dark creatures that she couldn't even remember about.

If it was not because of Aeon's protection from the shadows, the damage on Raine would be more complicated than this. That was also the reason why Serefina had a hard time to find Raine before Torak did.

The shadow warrior had been protecting her from being noticed and in this case, apparently, they should thank the shadow warrior for this…

This was why Nutdrouk said her soul was tainted and she was not as pure as the other guardian angels.

"Your fear," Serefina finally said. She could see a flash of emotion from behind Raine's dark eyes. The guardian angel felt uneasy when she heard that.

In spite of the fact that she was no longer timid like how she used to be in the past, but it didn't mean she had healed completely, Raine just managed to suppress her own fears, but never faced them. It was totally a different thing.

Lilac faced her fear to be with Jedrek and Hope faced her fear by finding Kace's innerself, but Raine… she had too many fears for her disadvantage.

The devils would use it and the moment they did that, Raine would be doomed.

Therefore, here they were.

"What kind of fear do you mean?" Raine looked at Serefina, uneasiness was palpable in her eyes.

"Any kind of fear that you have been trying to hide." The witch stretched out her hand to touch Raine.

"How?" Raine watched as Serefina's hand touched her shoulder, she was reluctant about her gesture, but as if she was being hypnotized, she couldn't move her body at her will.

"To face them all," Serefina said lightly and then Raine was forced to close her eyes as the blue flowers around her disappeared from her sight.

It was true about the statement that said; you will never heal if you are still pretending that you are not hurt.

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"What actually had happened to her?" Hope asked Nutdrouk when he explained why he told Raine that she was not as pure as she thought.

"I don't know," Nutdrouk said, seemingly not interested in talking about Raine's past. "Many things had happened to her, I guess that those caused the other guardian angel to look sorrowful."

That and the strange weather, which left every heart feeling more depressed. It only added to the dark soul in Raine's heart as if adding salt on a wound.

Therefore, while staying in Reika made others to to feel uneasy because the weather affected them, it drew a much stronger response from Raine.

"So, where is she now?" Lilac asked worriedly.

"She…" Nutdrouk lamented and then looked at the other side of this white place, as if he could see some answer there. "I think she is facing the ghosts from her past now…"

"What if she couldn't handle it?" Lilac asked again.

"Then, she couldn't come back, what is good to have a broken angel?" Nutdrouk said offhandedly.