Chapter 82 Small And Big

Fortunately, I didn't wait for Indra for hours. She came back after a few minutes. Then she sat down in front of me and coughed into her hand.

Ahem!

I opened my eyes after hearing the loud cough and looked at Indra, who had returned to her usual self with combed blonde hair, washed beautiful face, and an untainted priestess uniform instead of silly pajamas.

"That is a good transformation. Haha… " I commented in a joking way and laughed lightly. It was pretty cringe to act like this but I was okay with it as I couldn't even feel the cringe.

And Indra too was okay with my little joke as she nodded her head with acceptance.

"Sorry for my earlier appearance, I couldn't sleep until it got too late because of the bad news." She said humbly.

"It is nothing, you don't need to worry about it."

After saying this I paused slightly and continued:

"I came here to pick up the extra support that was promised to me by the angel of Ilelia? Do you know who this person is and can you send them to my side?"

I didn't know why but Indra looked at me with a calculating look as if she was reluctant to give this extra support to me.

That is why, I showed her a warm, reassuring smile that I didn't show to anyone in this world.

Aria blinked several times in a row as if she saw something impossible, and Indra beamed a smile at me as if she found relief from my reassuring smile.

"You don't have to worry about anything, every human is as precious as my life and I will do my best to protect them." I said while looking into her eyes.

"I am sorry about my hesitance, my saint. As the person who will go with you is very precious to me." Indra said with an uncomfortable expression and got up from her seat, then made her way to the door.

"I will pick her up, my saint. Please make yourself comfortable while I am away." She said and got out of the room with hurried steps.

After confirming Indra had gone, Aria turned to me.

"Where did you learn how to smile like that, master?" She said with curiosity apparent in her eyes. If she had a tail, she would probably swing like a cat.

"Hmm… Why are you asking? Didn't you already know that I can smile pretty well, my curious kitten?"

"It felt more natural than your normal smiles, master." Aria said with slightly red cheeks.

'So she can still feel embarrassed because of my actions. I thought that Aria got immunity for my teasing after not seeing her embarrassed for a while but it seems that I was wrong.' I thought after seeing Aria's reddened cheeks and after that began to think about Aria's words.

'Did I really smile naturally instead of acting before I noticed it? Or Aria mistook my acting as a natural smile?' I thought and showed a smile to Aria.

"So, does this feel natural too? Or is it obvious to you, who has gotten used to my acting?" I asked Aria.

Aria shook her head for a response and said:

"It doesn't feel natural like the last one, master."

I put my hand on my jaw, rubbed my chin with my finger, and began to think about this more.

It was strange for me to smile genuinely but according to Aria, my smile was natural. And I didn't know what to think about this.

Did Aria really lie to me? Or do my emotions come back? Did my curse weaken further? Or was that just a momentary expression of my emotions that have been suppressed by the curse for many years?

All I knew was that I should be more careful about this. Because if my emotions were really coming back, then that meant that I had a good chance of going mad from my normal emotions. Such as guilt, pain, disgust, shame, and many more different feelings.

I disregard my previous world's standards because I thought that I could live without them while I didn't have my emotions.

But after having killed a dozen humans via experiments, hearing their agony-filled screams, and to make the matters worse I manipulated a 10-year-old girl to depend on me from the start, making her a yandere without noticing for a long time.

This was enough to make my previous self crazy or lose his mind as it was unacceptable for a modern person.

I was sure that I wouldn't be sane like this if I got my emotions back without any precautions but I didn't know what I would be.

All I knew was that I needed to take some precautions in case my emotions came back abruptly.

That is why I decided to give some commands to my precious kitten.

"Aria, if you see a genuine expression from me, tell me immediately and if you see that I began to act strange like a maniac, put me to sleep and find a cursemage to renew my curse. It shouldn't be too hard for them to recast a curse that was still on a person." I said with a completely serious tone and expression.

Aria looked at me with confused eyes and said:

"Didn't the master himself want to lift the curse? Why do you want to recast the curse if something happens to you, master?"

"Although I don't mind your questions. This isn't the time and place to speak more about this. Ask this later if you are still curious about it." I said and turned to the door, which was opening with creaking sounds.

There I saw 2 blonde haired women with deep blue eyes. They were like that of a twin, except one of the 2 blonde's breasts was smaller and had an aura of inexperience around her. While the big-breasted blonde had a mature aura around her in contrast to her less developed copy.

The big breasted blonde was Indra, bishop of Ilelia.

But I didn't know the smaller breasted version of Indra. Though for some reason she knew me as her eyes got wider when she saw me and ran towards me.