Chapter 367 - 367: Am I Not Good Enough?

As Elle reminisced what happened in the past, her tears continued to flow down her face. She got separated with Erick two years ago. Now, she came back but still she couldn't be with him. She couldn't involve him in this war since she knew Erick wouldn't allow her to do things that were against the law. The two of them were different. She was the darkness while Erick was the light. She's the bad one and he's the good one. She joined forces with the Skull Gang in order to defeat the Dark Knight Organization. James promised to help her and support her in exchange, she just needed to stay with him. He let her use the power of the Skull Gang and its influence. She somehow suspected that the Dark Knight Organization might be responsible for killing her family 18 years ago. The reason for thinking that was the fact Dark Knight was backing and protecting Alfonso Ramirez. In order to go against that powerful organization, she made a deal with the Supremo. Because of that, all of these conflicts and misunderstanding between Erick and her were happening. There were times she wanted to let go of the past and just forget her revenge. If she could do that now then she didn't have to lie with Erick anymore nor be afraid for his safety. However, whenever she would remember her parents, her family and every single person who died that day, her hatred and raging fury ignited deep down her heart. In the end, she couldn't turn her back on them. 'Will Erick understand me? By the time I can tell him the truth, will he still accept me? Will he forgive me? Will he still love me?' Elle felt like she was suffocating. She's afraid that Erick would be taken away from her by others. Then the beautiful face of Diana as well as Selena crossed her mind. She knew that the two women were interested with Erick. Elle suddenly felt the jealousy and insecurities deep down her heart.  Selena was a good person. She's innocent and she's not involved in any underground activities. She had no idea about Skull Gang's operation. She would be the best candidate to be a good wife. What if Erick would fall in love with her? The same with Diana, she had similarities with Elle. She's a strong-willed independent woman. She also came from a good family. Her father was a good and honest politician in the country. Any man would dream to have those two as his own wife. She was thinking that Erick was no exception. He could fall with either of the two. And that's what she's afraid of. Someone would replace her in Erick's heart. Furthermore, James's action was not helping her. He was trying to create more misunderstandings between the two of them.  Elle's clasp on James's shoulder tightened more to the extent that he could already feel her nails digging through the fabric of his suit. Little did she know that her current position right now was causing Erick to misinterpret again. In Erick's eyes, Elle looked like she was very comfortable with James.  She was clinging onto James too tightly while her face was buried into his chest. Their bodies were too close to each other. James's arms were holding her waist. Erick had the urge to charge to their direction and separate them. He wanted to yank Elle away from James. He was still wondering how the two of them ended up together. [email protected]! Just thinking about it, he felt like he was about to go mad. 'Did Elle betray me? Did she fake her death so that she could be with James?' 'Was that the reason she didn't come back to me for the past two years? She was happily living abroad with James, having a luxurious life?' 'After all, James is a wealthy man. I couldn't give her the fancy things which James could provide her.' These were the thoughts clouding his mind right now. Oh, God, he just wanted to disappear at this moment and just end all his pain. "Ouch!" Diana winced as Erick stepped on her foot because he was very distracted. Her voice pulled him out of those negative thoughts. "I'm sorry, Miss Diana. Did I hurt you that much?" Erick quickly asked her with his concerned and apologetic voice. "Oh, Don't worry. I'm alright." Diana gave him a faint smile. She was glad that Erick seemed to be very concerned about her. Erick simply nodded at her.  After a while, Erick spoke up again, "Miss Diana, I am afraid but I think I can't continue this dance anymore. I am sorry." 'The longer I stay here the longer I will suffer.' Erick thought to himself. Diana just let out a soft giggle and said, "No need to apologize, Chief Lee. It's already a great pleasure that you accepted my invitation and I became the first lady whom you brought in this dance floor tonight." Erick's lip stretched into a forced smile. Soon, he led Diana back to their table. After reaching their table, he approached Allen and Carl who were enjoying their drinks. Bryan, April, Rose and June were still in the dance floor. "Allen, Carl, please send my goodbye to Miss Selena and the others. I have to go now. Let's just see each other on Monday." Erick said to them. "You're going home now, Chief?" Carl asked, wanted to confirm it once again. Erick just merely bobbed his head. "Okay Chief. Noted. Take care on your way home," Allen said. With that, Erick walked out of the banquet hall in a hurry. He couldn't stand it any longer. Once, he was already outside, the tears he tried hard to hold within for a long time just poured down from the corners of his eyes. 'F*ck! I hate this feeling! I hate it… I hate myself… Am I not good enough for her?' He didn't ride the elevator, instead, he used the stairs to avoid seeing people. He went down from the 18th floor going to the lobby of the hotel using the emergency exit.  Erick ran and ran with his tears blurring his visions. His sweats and tears had already mixed together. But hell… he didn't care anymore. He just wanted to let it loose… to let it all out.