Chapter 121

After I washed their faces and feet and put on their clothes, they came back to their senses and refused to sleep. While I was brushing my teeth, I climbed down from the bed, dressed in red velvet pajamas and barefoot, ran to the bay window, put the tip of my nose on the glass and looked out.

"Look, that, that is like a ribbon..."

"No, it's like a lollipop..."

"It's like jelly..."

"No, it's like colored marshmallows..."

I listened to their little argument and laughed. Do you have anything else in mind for this pair of snacks? It's either jelly or sugar. In their eyes, fireworks are what they like best but can't eat.

Attracted by their conversation, I also sat on the bay window, put the child in my arms, and looked out on the glass.

"Well, there are people over there who have been watching us all the time." The boy stretched out his pink hand and pointed in one direction.

"Who's watching you? Everyone is busy setting off fireworks." I laughed and stroked his hair. Little thing's hair is growing too fast. It's time to cut it again. But tomorrow will be the first month, so we can't cut our hair any more. It's estimated that by February, our hair will be braided.

"I've been watching. I can see it." Tong Tong stubbornly pointed to a direction.

I inadvertently looked in the past and saw a person turning around and walking into the shadow at the street lamp downstairs. Distance is too far, I can't see clearly, touched his head and said: "it's time to go to bed."

"Mom..." as soon as Tong Tong heard this, he immediately leaned back and began to roll in my arms.

"Mom, look a little longer, just ten minutes." Yuan Yuan solemnly put up two index fingers and drew a cross for me.

I was amused by his appearance, gave him a kiss and said, "OK, just ten minutes. No cheating."

After all, the two little things fell asleep in my arms after a little bit of trouble. The sound of firecrackers outside became rare. I carefully put them on the bed and covered the quilt. Then a man quietly came to the small balcony of the kitchen and felt the smoke... Suddenly, his stomach began to feel uncomfortable.

I helplessly put down my cigarette, and my habit of smoking and drinking will be changed in the future.

On the first day of the lunar new year, it was 9:30 when my family woke up. I quickly warmed the milk and baked the bread. After that, I pulled two small things out of bed.

After breakfast, put on new clothes, I took two small things to the hospital to pay New Year's greetings to my father.

Every year on the first day of the new year, our family is in the hospital, in front of my father's bed, talking about what happened in the year, saying over and over again... I just don't know how many words my father can hear.

At noon, the nurse on duty came to the ward round and saw that we were still there. She said, "Mr. Lin is also happy. Although he doesn't know anything, you accompany him every year for the new year."

Happiness? I heard the nurse say the word, a little stunned to look at Dad's calm face... Really do not know the word happiness, how to define. These are the only people in our family.

At noon, I asked the nurse to take care of baby for me. I went out to buy a meal and packed it to eat. As soon as I opened the lunch box, the delicious fried hairtail turned intointolerable taste in my nose, and my stomach began to churn again.

I covered my mouth and ran to the bathroom outside to vomit. After I vomited everything I ate in the morning, I was a little better.

The last time I was pregnant with Yuanyuan and Tongtong, my reaction was not so strong. I don't know what happened this time. Is this the period of decline in physical fitness? Or that those days have been smoking and drinking, has an impact on the baby's physique?

I was looking at myself in the mirror, thinking about what I had and what I didn't, when suddenly a person appeared in the mirror. Liu Tian stood at the door of the bathroom, looking at me in the mirror with a worried face, and asked, "what's the matter with you?"

"Nothing." I covered up with a smile and said, "I'm not feeling well in my stomach."

Seeing that he didn't believe it, I asked, "on the first day of the lunar new year, what are you doing here when you're not at home with your parents?"

"Come and see my brother." Liu Tian said faintly.

It occurred to me that Liu Tian and I had met here, but I didn't think how he would appear here at that time.

"Go and have a check-up. Stomach problems can be big or small." Liu Tian looked at me and said.

"It's OK. Have you eaten? I just bought it. Let's go to our place and have some I didn't take his words, pretending to calmly change the topic, "so is your brother?"

"My cousin, a vegetable, is recovering here because he is protecting me. His head is hit hard and he becomes a vegetable." Liu Tian's expression is light, as if he is talking about things that have nothing to do with him."So is my father." I looked down and said.

He suddenly said with a smile: "they actually want us to live happily. Let's go. Go to your place for lunch. " His open-minded let us quickly end this unpleasant topic.

Come to my father's ward, two little guys see is Liu Tian, also rushed to say hello warmly, mouth also said new year's auspicious words.

Liu Tian took out two red envelopes from his pocket and said, "I wanted to wait to see you. I didn't expect that it was a coincidence to meet you here."

"Thank you, uncle Liu." Two little things pay a new year's tribute to Liu Tian, receive a red envelope, and then run to one side to play.

I took out the food and set it up. I asked Liu Tian to sit down and eat together. Yuan Yuan and Tong Tong eat too many snacks these two days, and they are not hungry at all. After only two or three mouthfuls, they put down their chopsticks and run to the French window to play with the car model on the floor.

I filled a bowl of fish soup, and then handed it to Liu Tian. When I smelled the smell of fish soup in my nose, the feeling of nausea came up again.

I turned to go out and ran to the bathroom. He followed me and looked at me through the mirror behind me. My eyes were full of dark wounds. I didn't dare to look directly at him. I hung my head and wanted to go back around him.

He stretched out his hand to hold me, and the anger in his eyes burned: "whose?"

I shook my head to get rid of his hand and go back. For the first time, he pushed me into the bathroom and locked the door with his backhand.

"Leyi, whose is it? Whose child is it? " He asked, word by word, inexplicable sense of oppression, let me lift my head.

I can only shake my head, I don't know what to say. Liu Tian's mind I know, in my case and he Liancheng have broken, I am pregnant, how can he not be angry. But what am I going to say?

"Is that what I look like to you? Why do you never give me a chance? " He asked in a low voice with red eyes.

The man's unique low voice and hard to suppress, let me hear his voice, there is a kind of unspeakable sadness from my heart.

"I don't know who it is, I really don't know..." I cried out silently, my voice was as thin as gossamer.

He suddenly took a deep breath, calmed down, reached out and held me in his arms, asked: "you tell me what happened, I can help you!"

His tone calmed down, showing a kind of helpless hate iron does not become steel.

He hugged me tightly, and his strong heart beat came across the clothes. I slowly calmed down and told the story of that night.

After hearing this, he thumped the door with his hand, and then blood came down from his fist.

"Mean!" He scolded, turned his head, looked at me with deep eyes and asked, "what are you going to do?"

I didn't say anything. How can I make him understand a mother's feelings for her little life. I know that if I say that I want this child, he will be more angry.

"After the fifth day of junior high school, I'll help you find a reliable doctor, and I'll accompany you. Let the company go ahead of time and rest at home for a month before going to work. " He made the decision for me.

"No." I'll retort right away.

"Why?" He didn't understand, "do you want to have a child of unknown origin? Have you ever thought about what he faced after he was born? Without a father's home, as an illegitimate child, you may never know whose child you are... "

"No, he (she) is my child." In Liu Tian's questions one by one, the cowardice I didn't dare to admit in my heart was driven away. This sentence burst out without my brain.

Liu Tian waved his hand and smashed it heavily on the wooden door beside my head. The huge sound made me feel confused.

"Good... Good..." he pressed up, raised my face with his bloody hand and said, "if I force you, you will also give birth to my child, ah?"

"I try to control my feelings. I want to touch you one day and be with you openly, but every step is too late. Now you can give birth to a boy with a reputation of being unmarried and having children first? "

The neck was held down by his hand, I had difficulty breathing, and I didn't even have the strength to struggle. The blood on his hand was still flowing, and the hot blood flowed down his collar into his clothes.

He is like a trapped animal, biting the prey that just came to his mouth. He really wants to kill me. My eyes are confused, only his blood red eyes are shaking... His throat makes a vague voice and is dying.

He suddenly released his hand on my neck and yanked open my coat.

"Liu Tian... You are crazy!" I tried my best to push him, and I took a bite on his tongue.He frowned in pain, but he did not retreat

"Liu Tian... Stop..." I finally couldn't restrain my tears. At the same time, tears poured out and ran down my face, almost all of them on his face