Chapter 43: The Girl’s View
—–Empress Lora’s Pov—–
Lora was currently walking through the corridors of the palace, as she was walking her mind was occupied with the thought of a certain silver haired boy, if one was too view into her brain one would doubt how she could put such a cold face outside
<is Austin eating fine?>
<when will i meet him again?>
<last time it took 156 days, 48 hours and 12 minutes before i last saw him>
<when i can i leave this place and give my self to him>
Lora sighed and thought back to her past
she was the daughter of the powerful ducal family the Greedious family, born with both beauty and power she had a smooth sailing in life
ever since she had awakened her bloodline, she had become a fierce ice mage too but along with it began her difficulties, even before awakening her bloodline she always felt that there was something missing in her life, as if a part was missing
this had only worsened after she awakened her bloodline, she was also the fiancée of the future Emperor at that time too but even during that time the current Emperor Claus only had eyes on one women Mira
to say she was not jealous and envious would be false, even then she never really loved the Emperor, her family had raised her and provided for her so she had taken it up on herself to repay them
‘maybe we will fall in love after we are married?’
with such thoughts Lora had bottled up her emotions always going at her families wimps, but she never felt happiness after her marriage
sure the Emperor was kind and caring but she always keenly knew that his heart was never with her, she was an Empress one of the most powerful individual of the Empire, she should be happy and contented, yet she never felt true happiness
even after her marriage her parent’s wanted to support the Emperor, always be a good girl, always move for the profit of the family, even during all this time she had that nagging feeling of something missing, her whole life she could never make her own decisions
Clara was currently wearing a training suit, surrounding her was darkness, utter darkness which she was trying to control, ever since the day she had found out about what had happened to Austin she had increased her training, trying to get better at controlling her healing
whenever she got tiered she would think of Austin, her light, her path and the reason for her existence, thinking of him her past quickly flashed through her mind
her life wasn’t all that great,she had came from a normal commoner family, a father who was a drunkard, a mother who only cared about her looks and herself
she was born to them, but she didn’t complain, Clara herself had normal looks, nothing that stood out, even though she had difficulties, she tried to survive it
she thought that if she showed love she would receive it but she got nothing, her life at her slum like house, an uncaring parents, their constant abuse led her to have a huge inferiority complex, she would never be anything
but she still lived on, until her fathers debt grew so big that her parents sold her to the other side for money, back then her whole life fell apart, the small hope within her shattered
even to the slave trader’s she wasn’t of value, nothing she could be used for, back then Clara hated the world, she hated herself for being nobody, she was nothing...
it was during this life of hers that she was living helplessly through when an ugly fat person took liking to her and wanted to use her, even if she wanted to be valued, she felt disgusted at such a situation and planned to bite her tounge to kill herself
but it’s at that time, that i meet him, like a knight in shinning armor he arrived, he had saved her from my despair, even when he had looked at her there was no disdain nor dislike, just kindness
he talked to me as an equal and treated me with care, it’s later that i discovered his identity, i felt fear then, thinking that i was not worthy to stand with him
but he took care of me gently, he asked about my situation and even made me his personal maid!!
i knew that he didn’t have any intention on my body or other motives, he took me an unworthy person in his life and gave me warmth, he made me confident
at first i was afraid that i was unworthy of him but after awakening my bloodline, i gained some confidence, i worked hard to be by his side, as long as he was happy i would be satisfied
after my workout i was slowly heading to my room, due to my status as Austin’s personal maid i had my own room, opening my door i entered my room, entering inside the sight that greeted me made me smile
if Lora’s room was something that would bring goosebumps to Austin, then this was one that would cause his blood to freeze
in this room too there was images of Austin, some on the wall, others on the roof but that was not all, on the table sat some hair of Austin that Clara had taken, his old dresses that should have been thrown away
the blanket Clara used was stitched from the old ones Austin used, smiling i jumped into my bed, took the pillow that contained an image of Austin and hugged it tight and covered myself with the pillow Austin used
“i will do anything for you, love~~”