CH 15

For Sakuna, her family is her everything.

Arisa was born as the older twin sister, and Aina as the younger twin sister, they are truly adorable daughters for her. She was more than happy to watch them grow up beautifully and splendidly as they progress through elementary school, junior high school, and high school.

It was natural for Sakuna to think so, as her late husband also loved them both dearly.

After her husband died in an unfortunate accident, it was her daughters that then supported her when she was in despair.

“That’s right… I can’t let this break me. I have these kids with me. To make him not worry about us, I’ll raise these two well—”

Sakuna raised them with the thought that she would protect them for her husband.

Arisa and Aina seem to have grown up gently in response to Sakuna’s feelings. They took good care of their mother, Sakuna, and had never forgotten to pay their respects at the grave of their deceased father.

It was an immense sorrow to lose not just a family member, but the half of herself that she loved so much. But Sakuna’s beloved daughters are by her side, so she wasn’t that lonely.

But… one day, a man tried to trample over such a bit of happiness she had.

“Hehehe, what a nice body you have. Is your husband still out of town?”

His vile voice still rings in her ears.

The man’s hands were playing with her body, which was unable to move due to fear of being held at knife-point. The man’s hands were rubbing her large, firm b*****s, and he even tried to reach her lower body. And even though she wanted to run away due to disgust, she couldn’t really move her body.

“Oh! What a jackpot? Your daughters are very pretty, too.”

And when that man jeered at her daughters, a deep sorrow struck her heart.

‘Stop it, don’t touch my daughters, take me inst…’ even though she thought she would do it, she wanted to curse herself for not voicing her fear…

“… Save us… Dear”

No matter how much she begged for help, her husband wasn’t alive to save them.

They wouldn’t be saved anyway, and they would just be left to be used by that vile man, and they might even be killed in the end… but In the midst of such forswear, Sakuna’s wish was suddenly heard.(E/N: For those who don’t know much fo deeper english vocabulary, forswear is akin to the word relenting.)

“… Ah”

A man wearing a pumpkin helm appeared.

His gaze was sharp as he looked at the man, and the way he protected Sakuna and her daughters with his back to them was truly heroic. Sakuna felt truly relieved to see his wide back that looked like her late husband’s.

The man left after the incident and she never got to know his name or face, but Sakuna was finally able to meet him, he was— Hayato.

“… Fufu, you look so cute in your sleep.”

He had fallen asleep after drinking some tea, it was a little inconvenient that she had to reposition her head a little to see his expression due to her large b*****s, but she caught a glimpse of his sleeping face anyway and she found it cute and childlike.

“……”

Remembering the dependable back he showed her that time, in addition to his mesmerizing young charm and the beauty in his fierce eyes which she couldn’t see before because of the pumpkin helm… Sakuna felt her heart skip a beat. And no, it wasn’t a dream, her heart really did beat for him.

Arisa and Aina’s heart also beated for him, and that was enough to know that Hayato was a man of integrity even before they met.

And to top it all off, Sakuna’s heart acknowledged that this man was a man she could trust when she had her first conversation with him.(E/N: YES!!! Sakuna best waifu, Mama sachan best waifu. Ahem! enjoy!.)

“… You’re such a fascinating man.” [1]

The words that came out from her mouth were “fascinating man,” and not “fascinating child.”

When Hayato put his hand on Sakuna’s shoulder and spoke to her in that way, she thought that her husband might’ve really returned. The kindness in his eyes and the way he made her feel at ease were all the same as her late husband’s.

After Hayato woke up, she had a conversation with him.

And when he told her that she was more like an older sister instead of a mother, it made her heart beat faster.

With other men, she would never think of anything of such a comment, but with Hayato, a part of her that she had forgotten about as a woman began to resurface.

“……”

She remembered how comforting her body became thinking of those fierce eyes and muscular back. She recalled how shallowly she sought love in a dimly lit room in a pitiful voice… When she imagined a man’s, Hayato’s arms being wrapped around her body, that alone made her body shiver with delight even though Hayato was right in front of her.

Sakuna was already in her late thirties, no matter how much she looked like an older sister. Sakuna knew that having such an obscene thought as an old woman would only make him feel uncomfortable, so she mobilized all her reasoning and somehow managed to get rid of the unpleasant feelings she had. Finally, Sakuna was able to return to being a normal mother.

However, no matter how much she tries to hold back, her heart still desires for him. That incident proved fatal to Sakuna, since it had imprinted the existence of Hayato in her heart.(E/N: Heh, that’s good!)

But then, Sakuna was finally unstrapped by the facts revealed to her by Hayato.

“That… I lost my mother and father early in life and have been on my own ever since. This warmth reminded me of what it was like to be part of a family.”

Hayato said, wiping away the tears that flowed down his cheeks.

For a moment she didn’t comprehend what he was saying or more like accept, but then she understood that Hayato was truly experiencing loneliness up until now.(E/N: Reason why she couldn’t accept might’ve been because she didn’t think someone like hayato is actually living alone and even moreso, without a parent.)

When Sakuna saw the weakness that Hayato, who was so strong, so kind, and so dependable, showed her, she felt a maternal love that she couldn’t suppress, and a pure feeling for him that she thought she had erased back then.

The desire to be by his side as his woman, and to erase her insecurities as a woman, rapidly grew stronger and larger in Sakuna’s mind.

It is no doubt that she thought of something when she heard Hayato’s words that her two daughters didn’t even know about.

“… Um, I’m really sorry. For making you feel worried.”

He apologized for having the mood sink in, albeit slightly… How considerate he was, smiling as if trying to be strong. Sakuna involuntarily got up and walked to Hayato’s side. She then buried his face in her chest.

Wondering what just happened, he then said–

“Wait!”

“It’ll be fine. Let Mommy spoil you for a while.” [2]

While apologizing to her daughters in her thoughts, as the aforementioned looked disappointed that they were late.

Sakuna hugged Hayato as hard as she could. He looked uncomfortable at first, but then, realizing that it was futile to resist, he did as he was told.

“… There-there.”

After all, he was the same.

He knows the sadness of mourning a loved one, and he stood up to look ahead, determined not to fail, exactly as what Sakuna did.(E/N: If ur confused, like me, why he was the one mentioned here instead of sakuna, idk.)

However, unlike Sakuna, Hayato was all alone, and knowing this, Sakuna felt that she can’t leave Hayato alone any longer than he already is.

“Mom!!”

“… That’s cheating Mom.”

She was disappointed when her daughters pulled him away from her, but she learned some things about Hayato, so it was all good.

…Sakuna’s smile deepened when she saw Hayato being jostled by her daughters.

The dignified way he protected her from the intruder, the cute way of reacting he does when embarrassed, the way he looks like a little child seeking the warmth of family, all of them seem endearing to Sakuna.

Ah, that’s right, Sakuna finally came to a conclusion here.

“I wish I could be your mother…”

Yes, that’s what she thought, that she could be Hayato’s mother.

Even if it is impossible for her to be his real mother, she can give him the warmth of a family that can help heal him and ease his loneliness.

She won’t let him shed tears of sorrow again, and she hopes that she and her daughters can be his warmth…

“…But”

However, as she said before, there is certainly a part of Sakuna that thinks of Hayato as a man.(E/N:YESS!!)

She has been thinking of him ever since he saved her that day.

Day after day, she imagined him and endured the heat that burned her body.

Sakuna thought–

—I want to be his mother.

—I want to be the woman who serves him.

—I want to be the woman who conceives his child.

The many desires that should not be inside her, overflowed and did not stop, and this brought more heat to Sakuna’s body.

She is now in a state where she is fighting against her feelings as a mother and desires as a woman, which will not disappear even if she desperately tries to reason with them.

Sakuna could clearly feel the face of the woman she had already left behind in the past, crawling out from the depths of her being.

“Just like that person, everything I love is being taken away from me. Then what if I take him…” [3]

Sakuna shook her head as she got a hunch of what she would do if she did not want to lose.

There was no end to such thoughts, but fortunately, those thoughts remained firmly only on Sakuna’s mind.

But the feelings she holds are truly karmic. She never had imagined that each of her daughters would inherit what had grown inside her by seeing hope amid despair.

TLN-

[1] Can also mean a kind, nice guy.

[2] Demn this reminds me of Hahaoya, Mommy Mirei is the same, lusting after her own son, having erotic fantasies, but also very gentle and kind.

[3] This means she lost the man she loved in that accident, and now her daughter’s taking away Hayato from her. Also her daughters may leave her side to spend their time with Hayato. And she would be left with nothing. Demn.

[4] I’ll share Hahaoya link, haha…

https://zetrotranslation.com/novel/hahaoya-ga-ero-ranobe-taishou-jushou-shite-jinsei-tsunda/