Do I believe it?
I don't know, I can't speak with my mouth wide open!!!
Walking in the cold street, thinking about the content that sun jinnu just told me, I really feel very sad. Ma Xiaoying is such a thing? How painful was she then? I hate her when the baby's gone. And the granddaughter, she thought at that time, what would I have done if I had known these things at that time?
Granddaughter, I feel that I love this woman more and more. If you want me to give up, I'm really going to die!
Looking at the haze of the sky, I want to laugh, but also want to cry, and before I cry out, God cried first, the rain line fell all over the sky, soon fell on me. I stopped, stopped in the middle of the road, let the dense rain hit me.
I don't know how long after that, an umbrella appeared about 30 meters in front of me, and a person came to me with an umbrella. It's Zhou Qi. She holds the umbrella on my head. Without saying a word, she just stands with me, very gentle.
Zhou Qi is also a good woman. I am not a good or bad man. It's unrealistic that I meet so many good women. I also have a relationship with them. Is this love? It's obviously hurt, it's torture, we all feel very tortured. Apart from poverty, the most annoying thing is emotional problems. Poverty is easy to solve. Emotional problems, there is a saying summed up very well, cut constantly, but also chaos, in fact, more than that!
"Qiqi, why are you so docile?" I don't know how long later, I said this sentence, and then the next sentence, "let's go back!" I don't know how Zhou Qi suddenly appeared in front of me. Does she know I didn't go back? See the rain, worry about me drenching? Anyway, at that moment, I was very moved.
I took the umbrella, held it, and walked to the hotel with Zhou Qi.
I suddenly feel that there is no pressure to be with Zhou Qi. She doesn't have so many messy things and so many messy requirements. She is the most docile, can accompany you crazy, but also can accompany you silent. This is her before, I am more used to her. I thought of sun's words. She said that if it wasn't for her, Zhou Qi and I would be a good couple. Is that true?
"I'm sorry to trouble you!" To the hotel, I found that Zhou Qi's whole back is wet!
Zhou Qi went back to her room after a sound. I also went back to my room and took my clothes into the bathroom.
Come out of the bathroom, open the curtains and watch the rain outside. I don't know what I want to see. I just look at it while smoking. In my mind, it's the question Sheng Peng asked me by his father. I've asked myself at least a hundred times. Do I want aunt Bing to wake up? Really? Do you really want to? Don't you want to? Don't you really want to? I'm struggling.
Suddenly, the doorbell rang!
Who is this party?
Sheng Peng?
Intuition tells me that it should be Sheng Peng, but sometimes my intuition will go wrong. Outside is Zhou Qi.
"Can you sleep?" Zhou Qi asked me that she was standing at the door of the room in her pajamas.
I shook my head, let Zhou Qi come in, she wants to come in, and I just want to find someone to talk to, hit it off!
"Sun is always a good man, and so is Sheng Bing." After sitting down, Zhou Qi said, "I don't have much to pray for. I'm barely happy. What I want in life is always more than what I need. Don't force yourself too much. If you think too much about some things, you will worry too much. It's a better way to go by feeling." It sounds familiar to me. Who ever said that to me? Brain is very confused, can't remember, I wonder Zhou Qi suddenly and I say these words!
"Qiqi, have you ever thought about your future?"
"The future?" Zhou Qi wry smile, "this problem is too far away, I dare not think! But I remember president Sun said to me, she said, knowing you, we are doomed to have no future. She also said that we have all done some wrong things, which have changed many results. Now and in the future, we may have to pay our debts for those wrong things, cause and effect. Now that we have done them, we have to bear the responsibility. "
I'm silent. Before today, it may be difficult for me to understand the real meaning of this sentence that sun mengnu said to Zhou Qi. Now I can understand it.
"Qiqi, I don't understand. Why are you so good? Even if this is a fact, at the beginning, I couldn't believe it, including aunt Bing, I found that you all seem to be able to sincerely In the face of it, do I take myself too seriously? Or are you all rational and clear enough? " Personally, I don't think many people can achieve their broadness.
"Heart to heart, understand? One person can infect another. In the face of Sheng Bing, if you are a little selfish, you will feel particularly shameful. You can't lift your head in front of her. In fact, Mr. Sun can do the same, but generally he won't let you see him. " Zhou Qi laughed, "I'm the most ordinary and the simplest. From the moment I lived for myself, I realized that what I wanted was very simple. I even forgot my father's hatred!"
"I won't forget. I said I wanted your father to die."
"It's meaningful to live for yourself. That's what my dad really wants to see."
This night, Zhou Qi and I slept together, cuddled together, just simply cuddled together, maybe we all need a comfort! I've never been so pure. Holding a woman in my arms, I didn't think about that. I really don't remember that. Zhou Qi, I don't know what she thought. She slept sweetly, but I didn't sleep until dawn.Later, I woke up. When I woke up, Zhou Qi had disappeared. I looked at the time. At more than ten o'clock in the morning, I immediately got up and went to wash. Then I went out to the hospital and rushed to Aunt Bing's attending doctor's office.
I can't believe the attending doctor told me that Aunt Bing was taken away!
Who picked them up? Is that Sheng Peng's father? Why is it so sudden.
I immediately called Sheng Peng. Sheng Peng didn't know about it. He said that he had morning tea with director Ding at more than seven o'clock. Before leaving, he and * * went to the hospital to inquire about Aunt Bing's condition. At that time, aunt Bing was still there. Sheng Peng didn't finish, so I hung up his phone, called his father, turned it off, and turned it off more than ten times. I stood at the door of the hospital until Sheng Peng and * * came!
Four days later, I didn't get any news from Aunt Bing. Nobody got it, including Sheng Peng and * * who had already returned there. I didn't know whether aunt Bing was alive or dead. It's cruel. I feel like I've been defeated. I can't eat, I can't sleep, and my head is full of aunt Bing. Those familiar and unfamiliar movies with aunt Bing are playing in my mind repeatedly.
I think I'm going to die, hiding in the hotel room all day, there is a feeling of despair spreading in my mind. I've tried my best. I've looked for all the hospitals in Wenzhou, and Sheng Peng has looked for all the hospitals there. He even had a big fight with his father, and finally he was driven out of the house by his father. His father said to Sheng Peng: Sheng Bing is not only your aunt, but also my sister. If you think I'm vicious enough to harm your sister, you can continue to make trouble, otherwise you can go as far as you want, and don't bother me.
On the sixth day, sun came home to recuperate. Zhou Qi and I went to pick her up.
In the ward, Zhou Qi helped her pack. I stood in front of her and looked at her. She also looked at me. Recently, we all communicate like this. Sometimes when we make a phone call, we listen to the dull atmosphere of the other side. It seems that we suddenly don't know what to say to the other side. It's very strange, but it's very real.
We don't need to be close to the hospital. We don't need to stay in a hotel. We used to live in a rented apartment called Qingning. They rented an empty house at the beginning, and bought all the furniture and articles by themselves later. Although they had few, they were very warm. There are three rooms, one for sun, one for Sheng and Linlin, and one for Ding Ling himself.
The discharge of the granddaughter is good news and exciting news. As soon as Linlin and Dingling came back from work, they bought a lot of food, and Zhou Qi cooked a big table for us. It's just, who has an appetite? At least I didn't, and neither did sun. We all forced ourselves to smile at the dinner table!
After dinner, Zhou Qi and Lin Lin go shopping. Ding Ling and sun mengnu go to the cinema. I didn't go out. I was sitting on the sofa in sun's room. The light wasn't on. I was smoking in the dark. I'm thinking about a question, should I go back? After I go back, I go to Sheng Peng's house every day, whether I sit or lie down. If Sheng Peng's father doesn't tell me where Aunt Bing is, I won't go!
Isn't it too rogue?
It seems to be, but there's only one way.
But, here, sun has just been discharged from hospital. What will sun do if I leave like this?
Shall I go or not?
I was tormented by the above problems, I feel like a ghost now, completely lost.
Tired of sitting, I lay on the bed and went to sleep slowly.
I didn't know how long it took me to find someone to hug me. It was Sun Monv, who had a faint smell of medicine in addition to her familiar perfume. She hugged me tightly in her arms and buried my whole head in her chest. This posture is very similar to the posture of my mother coaxing me to sleep when I was a child, with the feeling of maternal love. I miss this feeling very much. I'm also holding demon sun tightly. I think I really want to vent it, but I don't know whether I should cry or how.
"Shall we go back there?" Suddenly, she patted me on the back.
I didn't speak!
"I know if I don't go, you won't go. I know better that if I don't go back all the time and don't let you go back, maybe everything will be a different result. " "But it's not what I want, and it's not what you want. You want me to be happy, I also want you to be happy, your heartache, I also heartache! You can't do this. Promise me, OK? You can't solve any problems like this. You should be positive. Only by being positive can you solve problems. "