Chapter 861： complex

James wants his mother Lena to tell him: in the past year, his conjectures are all false, everything is just his forced delusion; in other words, Hugo is just the child of a good friend of his mother. Maybe it was my mother who helped deliver the baby. There is such a memorable good story.     But unfortunately, the shock and panic of his mother told James that this is the truth.     "Don't tell your father." This was Lena's first reaction, which disappointed James. This was not the answer he wanted.     Although James does not know what answer he wants, it may be similar to "How is Hugo now?" or "All this is a last resort", this kind of reaction seems to me It would be better; but no matter what, the mother's first thought was to continue to conceal her father, and she did not consider Hugo's situation at all, which made James feel a little uncomfortable, even if he had nothing to do with Hugo.     Lina told James the fact that she had a marriage and had a child, Hugo Lancaster, but then divorced, she went to New York to survive. Later, Lena decided to return to the university for further studies. After her hard work and hard work, she won a full scholarship from Stanford University (.). She met James' father Douglas on campus.     In fact, there are countless stories like this in the United States. It is not surprising at all. Douglas knew that Lena had a marriage. He didn’t mind, because it’s nothing strange, but Douglas doesn’t. Knowing that Lena had a son outside, he grew up silently in a world they didn't know, and then became popular all over the United States.     The shock of this incident is that Lena concealed the existence of Hugo.     At the beginning of the matter, Lena never thought it would develop to this point. When she and Douglas started dating, she didn’t think much about it, and Lena didn’t conceal the past when they were dating. In her first marriage, Lena subconsciously closed her mouth when she talked about Hugo, even she herself didn't know the reason.     Maybe I was guilty of leaving without a Hugo and didn’t want to be condemned as an irresponsible mother; maybe I don’t think she and Douglas will get there, just dating and there is no need to say So many; maybe she didn't want to show her truest side so early... But whatever the reason-Lena didn't know it herself, as a result, she didn't mention that she had a son.     When the two people were talking about marriage, Lena realized that she had missed the opportunity to confess. Originally, she always thought: one day in the future she will confess, one day. But the wheel of life keeps advancing like this, day after day, the opportunity for confession seems to be consumed in the ordinary and happy days, and finally this should not be a secret becomes a secret that can never be disclosed.     Many times, if you miss the opportunity to confess, you may not be able to speak for a lifetime.     If Hugo did not become a top star, everything would still be buried in Lena's heart, but when Lena found out that Hugo had become an actor, she found herself She was caught in a terrible dilemma: on the one hand, she missed the opportunity to tell Douglas Stein, and in order to maintain the harmony of the family, she could only continue to hide it; on the other hand, she had been farther and farther away from Lancaster and his son for more than ten years. After the past, the figure of that cute little boy has become a decoration in the depths of memory.     Whether to choose the past or the present is not a difficult choice for Lena. Although Hugo was also her child, she had three children by her side at that time. To love her husband and have a happy family.     When he understood the whole truth of the matter, James only felt that he had too many thoughts in his head. On the one hand, he was angry at his mother’s concealment, but on the other hand he looked at pain. His mother is very distressed; on the one hand, he wants to tell his father, but on the other hand, he is worried that the consequences of the matter are too terrible; on the one hand, he cannot agree with his mother’s behavior, and the woman in front of him is not the mother he knows at all. On the one hand, Hugo’s happiness has nothing to do with him. What he should consider is his family...    A variety of messy ideas swarmed so that he had no experience to pay attention to himself. Sixteenth birthday.     This is a big event for their family. Suddenly he has a half-brother, and the point is that his father doesn’t know at all, and his mother doesn’t seem to have any plans to confess. , This feeling is really not very good, it can even be said to be tormented like hell.     Of course, James can be regarded as ignorant. Anyway, this matter is only known to him. It can be seen from the previous trials that Hugo was also completely kept in the dark. It means that as long as he shuts up, the peace at home can be maintained. Likewise, Hugo will not suffer any loss, nothing will happen, everything is just like before.     But... can everything really be as if it had never happened? Can he really keep this secret forever?     James knows that this is too difficult. After learning the truth, James’s mind has been tumbling. A younger brother knows what will happen in the future, what will happen if the whole thing explodes like a bomb, whether the parents’ marriage will fall into a cold war, whether they can talk about everything, whether a peaceful and beautiful life will be set off In the stormy sea, will their family be broken... and, will Hugo become a part of their family?     There are countless possibilities tumbling in James’s mind. For the sake of family peace, he chose to shut up; but he himself has no way to cross this threshold.     It is reasonable to tell him that shutting up is the best choice, and everything can be kept as it is. What's more, Hugo, father, and younger brothers who don't know the situation now, aren't they all doing well? Perhaps this is the best situation. Didn't the mother just shut up for more than ten years?     But his inner feelings were telling him that it was unfair, unfair to Hugo, unfair to his father, unfair to their three brothers, and unfair to his mother. James will always think of the 1989 issue of the Los Angeles Times.     In that interview, you can see how much Hugo hopes to see his mother again. The irony is that Hugo lives in Los Angeles and has come to San Francisco many times before and after. The Franco family lives in Palo Alto (.), which is only 30 miles away from San Francisco. Los Angeles is only three hundred and fifty miles away, but Hugo never knew that the mother he was looking for was here.     If James does not know, then forget it, but he knows the truth of the facts, he has no way to hide it, whether it is to Hugo or his father, they should know the truth, as after knowing the truth How things will develop is not something he needs to consider, nor is it something he can consider.     Sixteen years old, just sixteen-year-old James was dominated by impulse. He joined the "Road to Glory" tour in San Francisco. He always wanted to find opportunities to tell Hugo all the truth. However, he always lacks a little courage.     James kept describing in his mind Hugo's reaction after learning the truth. Are you ecstatic and can't wait to find your mother? Still resentful, complaining that his mother has not come to find himself for so many years? Or is it a pity that the mother and son are so close that they have never seen each other?     At the same time, James is also very curious, how should he face Hugo, they are half brothers? No, they are just strangers who have met several times. They are people who live in two completely different worlds. So, what stand should he tell Hugo about this? Speaking for the mother, speaking for the father, or stating the matter objectively?     Thinking of this, James even thought about shrinking.     But after all, James followed the band all the way to Houston, James made up his mind and decided to tell Hugo the truth.     So the scene just now happened, but Hugo's reaction left James at a loss.     Looking at Hugo turning and leaving, without hesitation, resolute and decisive, James suddenly realized that perhaps the impact of this news on Hugo was much stronger than himself, because Hugo was abandoned. That person. Not only did my mother not search for Hugo for eighteen years, but she also formed a happy family in Palo Alto, but in this family, she did not belong to Hugo. How angry should Hugo be? How angry should you be? Perhaps, his appearance is the biggest irony to Hugo.     So, looking at the back of Hugo calmly and calmly turning away, James can only stand in place, unable to move forward.     At this time, the chaotic thoughts in Hugo's head were surging, and it was difficult for him to sort out a line of thought, because he turned and left without hearing the truth. He subconsciously blocked all the news.     Hugo doesn’t know where Lena lives, he doesn’t know whether Lena is happy or not, he doesn’t even know if James is Lena’s adopted son or his own son; he doesn’t know James Why do you want to tell yourself this He doesn't know if Lena is guiding behind James' behavior, he doesn't even know if Lena is on the scene now; he doesn't know how he should face it, he He didn't know what he was thinking at this time. To be honest, he didn't even know what his emotions were: anger? absurd? ridiculous? Complain? sad? Still ignoring?     Hugo knows nothing, he only knows the fact that Lena has appeared again, from James Franco's mouth, and he refuses to know further news.     Hugo originally thought that he would be calm, he would not care, he would be calm, but the fact is that his brain is now in chaos and he can only turn around and leave.