Chapter 152 - Hurt

Bai Lei hugs me tight as he turns to the physician and asks him about Ren. "He will be back to new in a day. Just let him rest." The physician says with a small smile but when he looks back to me, his eyes flicker with... fear? Why?

Bai Lei nods and quickly drags me out of the small room. He doesn't stop until we're back in his courtyard. Little Bun jumps down and takes off to the snack bowl I set up for him in the room. Bai Lei pulls me back into a tight hug as he gently strokes my back. I push against him as I lean back and say "I'm fine." 

I try to step away but he doesn't allow me as he says "We need to clear up a few things." I lift my eyebrows at him and wait. He just smirks at me and says "I should have been more clear with you earlier. I don't think any less of you, Nova. I love you and the thought of you sleeping with other men had me jealous, not disgusted."

I frown at him and say "Man, not men." His dark eyes watch me closely as a dark smirk slips across his face while saying "If I had known you weren't a virgin... I wouldn't have held back so much." I look at him in shock before slightly laughing.

"That was you holding back?" I ask with disbelief. He chuckles and says "You have no idea how much I've been holding back so I wouldn't scare you off. You seemed so against my touch at first I thought..." My face instantly freezes as I quickly smile and say "As long as you don't think less of me or something." 

He shakes his head but his eyes narrow on me, quickly catching my unease. His dark eyes watch me as his mind races. He lifts a finger, gently pushing a strand of my hair back as he asks "You say you've been with one man... is he the one who hurt you?" 

My eyes turn sharp and guarded as I quickly push his hand away saying "I don't want to talk about that. Have the leaders come up with any other plans?" Bai Lei's eyes start to faintly glow red as he shakes his head saying "Not yet. We're searching old scrolls for a possible solution but we haven't found anything yet."

I nod my head as I think back to what I just did in the street. Should I tell him? I try to step away but Bai Lei's arms tighten around me as he says "I want to talk about it. What did he do?" I narrow my eyes on him as my anger spikes. "I told you I don't want to talk about it." I try to pull his arms away but he doesn't budge.

His eyes grow darker as the red completely takes over. "Well, I do. What happened for you to act like this? Do you still love him?" My anger hits an all-time high as I push against his solid chest saying "I HATE that monster! Stop talking about him! Just stop!!" 

I frantically try to get out of his arms as his eyes quickly change. The anger was gone, replaced by confusion and worry. His dark eyes look me over before flashing with something and bringing me to his chest.

He tightens his arms around me in a tight hug as he says "Okay okay, I won't ask anymore I'm sorry. I'm sorry." He runs his large hand up and down my back in a soothing motion as I force myself to calm down. I grit my teeth in anger, wanting to just walk away.

"I won't ask you about it anymore right now but we need to talk about this love." He says in a low soft voice. My anger and fear combine into a lethal mix, causing me to explode. A dark power surges forward and I use it to push away. 

Bai Lei stumbles back with a look of shock as I seeth with anger. I glare at him and say "Know when to stop Bai Lei!" I struggle to control my breathing as I turn around and storm off. I clench my fist as I try to find a place to go. 

Bai Lei watches Nova storm off with shock as he slowly reaches up and clutches his chest. Blood slowly slips from the corner of his lips but he ignores it. He was more worried about Nova. He always felt there was something there, something that caused her walls but he didn't expect this.

That bastard, whoever he is, had hurt her. He had hurt her bad... he has already noticed that Nova's pain quickly turns into anger as a way for her to handle it so he was able to quickly see past it. He clenches his fists in anger when he thinks about the amount of pain she's still carrying around. 

He reaches up and wipes the bright red blood off his lips as he thinks of ways of tracking that bastard down and killing him but when he looks down at the blood, he frowns. Since when has she gotten strong enough to hurt him?

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I storm off and soon found myself at Zhen's empty courtyard. I walk in and find the tree he always sits at to read and plop myself down. I bring my knees up and wrap my arms around them as I rest my head against them. 

My clenched fists slowly open to reveal my trembling fingers as the chill from the cold ground slowly seeps through my dress. I hadn't meant to lash out at Bai Lei but he just kept pushing. My anger got the better of me and I used my powers against him... I sigh in regret and hope with all my heart that I hadn't hurt him.

Whenever I think of that monster, my heart trembles in fear causing me to freak and lash out. I lift my head and release my knees to lean back and relax. I look up at the tree branches and see that they're nearly bald. Winter is nearly here...