Chapter 149 - Digging into her childhood (2)

As Shen watched Lina drifting off and falling back on the long couch in Dr. Hayama's chambers, he stood up abruptly, his heart pounding. 

"Let me in there! There's something wrong! She fell over!" he yelled at the receptionist. 

The thin, serious man stood up with him and looked calm. 

"Mr. Moshi, the Madam is within her subconscious, the doctor is helping her access her memories. This is part of the therapy. Please calm down, you can still see her and keep a watch on her. You did see that the doctor has only been talking to her. He has not induced anything or used any substances." 

As the assistant explained his point to Shen, the devil seemed to calm down and sit back down again. But his back was as straight as an arrow, ready to shoot up, burst in and rescue his wife whenever she needed. 

Inside the chamber, Dr. Hayama's smooth voice talked to Lina in her subconscious. 

"What do you see?" he asked her. 

"I see a little girl" Lina said groggily, her voice just a hushed whisper. 

"Where is the little girl?" the doctor asked again. 

"In front of a door" 

"What kind of door is it?" 

"It's a big wooden door, with a golden knob" 

In her vision, Lina saw the little girl again. The girl whose parents called her 'Lili'. 

She told the doctor what she saw as she lay there, her eyes closed, her subconscious having travelled to another dimension. 

The little girl stood teary-eyed at the wooden door. Her tiny hands started banging at the door. 

"Please, mommy, daddy, open the door! Where are you?" the little girl cried. 

In Dr. Hayama's office, Lina's eyes were moist as she stayed unconscious in her trance, tears flowing down her cheeks. She felt abandoned. Lost. Like she would never be able to get through this big door that loomed in front of her. 

Suddenly the scene changed in front of her eyes. She was no longer alone at that door. She was at a beach, her toes buried in the warm sand. She didn't see the little girl anymore, but the toes she looked down on were those of a young child's. 

The waves hit the sand softly and the gulls squawked above. The sun felt warm above her, as she raised her head up to the sky, shielding her eyes from the sun with her tiny baby hands. 

"Lili, angel, come to daddy" an older male voice sounded behind her. 

She turned around to see a familiar man behind her, his arms wide open, calling for her to run into them. She couldn't see his face because he stood tall and the sun was blinding her, but behind him stood the beautiful, familiar looking woman, her smiling face radiating joy. 

"My sweet baby girl, let's go home" the woman said. 

Lina felt her little baby hand reach out and point to a cliff in the distance where a small cottage stood above the sea.

"Home!" the little, kid voice came out of her mouth, as she saw her mother nod happily. 

"Angel, remember, this will always be our secret place, mine, yours and mommy's" 

Suddenly Lina's eyes flew wide open, as she sat up panting. 

"What happened!" she exclaimed, as she took a minute to see where she was. 

There was no beach, or sun or sand on her toes. 

There was no mommy, and there was no daddy either. 

She felt an unbearable pain in her chest, as if the life was being squeezed out of her. Tears welled up in her eyes as she willed herself to stop crying and told herself to pull it together. 

"Lina, I want you to take a deep breath in with your nose, and release gently with your mouth" 

Dr. Hayama could tell Lina was having a panic attack, which was something he expected. She had made yet another significant breakthrough today. 

"Doctor…it was me. Those were my parents. My birth parents. I lost them…somewhere" Lina's voice was strained and broken. 

But she continued to voice herself out loud. She had nothing to run away from. If there was one thing she knew for sure, it was that she had been loved and treasured greatly. 

"I won't forget them again. I won't commit that injustice again. I won't forget where I came from and the people who loved me so much" she said through her sobs. 

Dr. Hayama's face remained unchanged, but she didn't notice his eyes glittering, as if they were full of an insatiable hunger. 

"You're getting closer, Madam. Soon, you will be strong enough to process those latent memories and emotions. I think you have done a fantastic job getting this far. Shall we meet again soon?" he asked her, his low voice, reverberating in the warm, mahogany room. 

"Mm hm" Lina nodded, her eyes full of emotion and determination. She wanted to trace back to her roots no matter what it took. She refused to remain in the dark, she needed to know where she came from and the people who had brought her into this world.

She needed to know what took them away from her. 

As she was escorted by Dr. Hayama back to the waiting room, Shen was standing anxiously by the door waiting for her. 

Her eyes were slightly red and she looked tired. Shen's heart broke for her as he watched her put on a brave smile as she emerged from the room. 

She buried herself in his arms as soon as she saw him, feeling comforted by the warmth of his strong arms and broad chest. The memories of him she had regained some time ago flooded her mind, relaxing her after the intense emotional stress she had just been through. 

He would always be her strength, her pillar and her rock. Her worries subsided as he held her. 

Shen nodded in thanks to the doctor as both husband and wife left the place arm in arm. 

As she sat in the passenger seat of her husband's car, Lina turned to him, her face thoughtful. 

"Hubby, did I ever mention going to a beach, or a cottage at a beach to you before?" she asked. 

Shen frowned at her. 

"Angel, on the contrary, you told me you hated beaches. You said you'd never go to one, no matter what!" 

Lina's face reflected confusion. 

"Strange" she mumbled under her breath, as they drove back to Moshi Mansion. 

However, back at Dr. Hayama's clinic, the doctor and his assistant watched the backs of the couple as they left. 

The assistant immediately dropped his pretence and looked at his boss with a steely, focused gaze. 

"Anything?" he asked, quietly. 

The big boss' face remained unchanging, yet there was a hint of amus.e.m.e.nt in his eyes. 

"Yes. That girl always surprises me. The key to it all is a beach cottage. As far as I remember, she has never ventured close to one."