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How can you say in your heart that there is no loss? I only hate me, not freedom.

But I want to believe him, I want to believe him, I have no choice but to believe him.

Shangguan Yu's arrogance made me more confident that he wouldn't submit.

If it wasn't a groundless matter, then there must be a shadow. I should blame them for saying it out loud. Presumably, the more complicated it is, the more careful I should be towards them. I don't know what they are planning.

Shangguan Zhong had left, even my heart seemed to have been taken away as I returned to the inn absent-mindedly. The more I thought about it, the more I felt disgusted, why should I say, I'm used to being alone.

In this world, who likes to part with me? I like to look at the back of others, see them off, and then look back on them alone. Only now did I realize that I wanted to look back because I didn't want to.

Looking back, there is no more shadow. I think, no matter who I send out, I won't leave first.

When I got back to the Gladys Inn, I was so upset that I went straight up to the second floor. Or I could paint.

It's only the first day. I have to wait here for two more days.

If Shangguan Bing doesn't know, maybe I can stay here and enjoy another three days. I'd rather he knew that the sooner the problem is solved, the better.

If this goes on, it will be bad for me as well as for him. Sometimes, it's just matters of the morning and the evening. We can't just wait. He's in such a rush, so my heart is more at ease. That is, he really cares about me.

In my subconscious, in my heart, I had long since associated my future with Shangguan Bing.

He didn't want to say it out loud, but it seemed like the time was not ripe yet.

I am also afraid, when I meet love, I have lost my confidence, I am afraid of being hurt, mother's tears, I have seen a lot, I even said, I dare not say, a woman, always crying, not for a man, or for whom?

I hate to part with him. It's so uncomfortable. I don't even have the chance to watch him walk away. If there's a next time, I won't leave first. I really don't like this feeling.

There are two paths placed in front of me.

I didn't want to think about it, but there was, and I couldn't escape it.

Shangguan, what if the situation is irreparable? I couldn't be with him, I didn't want to be a concubine, I didn't like it, when my mother was sad, I thought to myself, I will never be like this.

I had seen a lot of tears, but I couldn't shed tears too. There was nothing impossible, as long as I gritted my teeth and held on to my breath, I would keep on reading, drawing, and learning to fill my heart with sadness.

I want to laugh so that Mother won't feel even more sad.

I don't blame my father. I don't blame him. He is also a normal man. He doesn't have many women with him.

I don't know why I have to endure it. I, Ni Chu Xue, am not a person who likes to cry, but if the person who cries is someone else, then how could I possibly be happy?

Princess Yu Zhen … Princess Yu Zhen … how could Shangguan Bing refuse? Once more? I don't know.

Could the princess bear to see her husband take in concubines? I don't know, and I won't be a concubine. If it's fate, I'd rather feel heartache.

However, it was still too early to think about it now.

Shangguan Xue had already gone back to the capital, he would solve anything.

His arrogance and his unyielding attitude are my greatest confidence.

After tossing and turning the night before, I couldn't fall asleep. I sighed, lit the lamp, and sat under the lamp. I carefully studied the ink stone, adjusting the taste of the water and ink, letting me smell some comfort.

Spreading out the Xuan paper, I drew all the Heavenly Jewels I saw today, drawing one after another. It was still thin, still lacking some spirit energy, and yet it was still stiff.

He continued drawing until the sun rose and it was noon. Only then did he feel satisfied.

The entire room was filled with white paper, and all of them had a single black eye. They looked at me with a strange glow in their eyes.

I didn't like it. I rubbed the paper and tossed it into the little basket in the room.

He took the one he was most satisfied with and went to Lin Xin's room.

Lin Si is in seclusion painting, I do not want to scratch him, a person's inspiration ascended, the worst taboo is to disturb, this is for the emperor, certainly to draw well.

I gave the painting to little Mu Zi to pass on to him when Lin Xin was free.

After ordering some food and sending it to his room, he decided to take a nap.

I can't make myself look too bad. When I arrive at the capital, he will laugh at me and call me ugly again.

I found it funny. Actually, there were a lot of Black Eyed Heavenly Jewels, how did I draw them into Shangguan Bing's eyes? Luckily he wasn't there, otherwise I would have been more pleased with myself and my tail would have been raised.

Ye Zichen rubbed his sore head with one hand as he returned to his room. His eyes were truly sore.

In front of the door, standing a thousand miles away, he was the only one there. All of his followers weren't there, and he was leaning lightly against my door, waiting for me.

I stood at a distance, looking at him warily and not saying a word.

"Why? Ni Chu Xue didn't recognize me after a day. But, you look really terrible."

"Thank you. You don't need to worry about that." Blocking my door, hateful.

"Do you not have the word 'thank you' in your eyes?" he pointed out impolitely.

I laughed. "I don't have to thank you for anything. This is just courtesy. " "It's the same whether you say it or not, but he really is making a joke out of me. How funny." "Excuse me, please."

"Ni Chuxue, you look so bad. You must be able to stay up all night. You need a cup of tea." He chuckled.

At the corner, the person who had appeared without a sound was actually carrying a cup of tea over.

That faint smell, it was obvious that it was the smell of ginseng.

I looked at him with a headache. "Qianli, what do you mean? "If I don't paint for you, then I won't paint for you. You can always think of something else. If you do this, I will not change my mind." If he changes it, then he must be prepared for more. I won't draw for him, and the more he wants it, the more unusual it is. I can understand the logic behind this.

I also said it before, although I like the Black Eyed Heavenly Jewels, I can still reject them.

Now that Shangguan Yu is gone, I don't want him to be all-pervasive.

I rolled my eyes at him. "Don't you think you always have to make me more defensive? "Then, I won't draw it for you. You'd better give up."

"What a great saying, why don't you ask me why I'm so confident?" He still had a confident look on his face and was holding that cup of tea in his hand.

I turned my face away. "I'm sleepy. Please don't scratch me."

"I wonder if Miss Ni has heard of someone called Yin Jing?" He looked at me leisurely.

Little Jing? I was startled. "Do you know where Jing is? Is that true?"

"Of course I know. He's not doing well. Along the way, the Yin Residence got sick and had no choice but to sell him to be a slave." He spoke with such calmness.

I was scared silly. Why? Little Jing? Little Jing?

"Where is he?" I asked urgently. My calmness, whatever it was, was gone.

"Draw a picture of a yellow mountain, a sea of clouds?" He smiled.

I nodded and gritted my teeth. "I'll draw it for you. I want to see Little Jing."

He shook his head, "Not now. Time is still a problem. He won't be here within these two to three days. Moreover, you are just a palace maid, so how are you going to arrange things for him?"

"Then take him to Shangguan Yu's house in the capital, he'll help me settle it." I said quickly.

He raised his eyebrows and chuckled. "You're not afraid that I'll lie to you now."

I shook my head. "You don't need to, you already have the news about Jing. Alright, it's just a painting, I drew it, and it's done. Tomorrow, I will send someone to fetch it, but I promise you, you will have to settle the matter with Jing. I don't like it, someone lied to me." I looked directly at him and realized that he really was a very deep face.

He passed the tea leaves to me, "You need this. Believe me, I won't let you down. Don't worry." He smiled at me. " I just want a painting. Otherwise, I wouldn't need to spend so much effort. "

I can't even think about whether these things are worth it. I just want all the people I care about to be safe.

He clapped his hands. "Bring me the Xuan paper."

As soon as he finished speaking, the man in black hiding in the corner brought the paper over with both hands.

I looked at the piece of paper and he chuckled. "These are the ones you threw down the other day. You found them all in one go. Can you understand my determination?" Do not worry. You will still know how to count the things that I have said. After drawing, the Black Eyed Heavenly Jewel will be given to you. Actually, I have always been a very easy person to talk to.

"I have a headache, so I don't need to say too much. I can just draw. Really, don't say anymore. I don't like listening to you talk." I feel so powerless, this is a threat.

Actually, it's not that hard to draw, it's just that I'm not willing to draw for him.

It was astonishing how determined he was to do it. If it wasn't for Jing, I wouldn't have agreed to draw it.

Just think about it, it was only a sea of clouds and mountains. After drawing for so many days, what did he have to gain? So be it, there's nothing to it.

At noon the next day, he personally came to retrieve the painting. Looking at my face, he said with some dissatisfaction, "It wasn't a very good painting."

I shrugged. "It's not bad. I'm very tired. If I could, I'd rather not draw."

He pointed to the corner. "Not signed?"

"Nothing good. You can say that you drew it yourself." I don't usually sign.

He smiled, "I hope that you can write your name down. Ni Chu Xue, there is someone who wishes for me to bring that child to the capital safely. I don't mind telling you that he was still sick when I met him."