Chapter 146

Lin Pei, Lin Pei, why is he the one who knows me best and thinks of me most?

I'm fake strong. I'm fragile.

I can't afford too much, but I can't afford too much. A brother is so kind that I feel sad and want to cry.

What I know best is not my favorite.

I put my head on his shoulder and sighed, "thank you, brother."

What you get is what you lose, isn't it?

Everything is in a mess. Lin Yu is a clear stream.

I'm still me. I haven't changed. I haven't committed suicide, earth shaking or cried.

Many people in the palace are watching my jokes.

Lin Pei and I painted crazily. In the middle of the night, we lit lanterns and drew exhausted in the painting palace.

The door was closed during the day, and I slept until night.

In this way, reversing the days can make yourself less painful.

Let oneself not adapt, tired to the extreme, will not think about anything.

In the evening, the lanterns in the painting palace were put up one by one.

I looked up at it. It turned out that the palace lanterns could be so beautiful, long and red.

Quietly illuminate the painting palace, which is light and warm. I stood far away and looked at it with appreciation. The corners of my lips smiled, but it was lonely.

I heard a sigh behind me and a slight sound of footsteps. I was surprised.

"First snow." he called softly.

It's him, the seventh prince. No, I don't want to see him.

I ran like crazy, covered my ears and didn't listen to anything. I knew I couldn't run him. But I just don't want to see him.

Push open the nearest door, hold it hard, and use all my strength.

"The first snow." he approached the door, did not push. There was a lamp outside, casting his shadow on the tall paper window.

I shouldn't be gasping for breath.

"First snow." he called softly.

My heart trembled gently. "You go," I shouted, almost ready to cry.

Don't see him. I don't know how to face him.

He didn't say anything? Sighing, for a long time, I looked up and saw the shadow outside the window getting more and more blurred.

Then he leaned against the door with a sigh of relief and gasped powerlessly.

The seventh prince, I don't hate him. He can't help himself and has the way of ruofeng.

But I really can't face it. In my heart, I'm not ready at all.

In front of him, I can't do it as if nothing had happened.

At first, if I didn't seem to be interested in him, it's all over. I don't want to think about it anymore.

Now that it has subsided, why not? Don't start a storm again.

I'm really scared. I'm helpless. How much have I lost in this storm?

I also feel heartache and gently wipe away my tears.

How long before I leave the palace? I've had enough.

Look down and see a touch of red. It's a heavenly pearl given to me by Shangguan Yu. Doesn't it mean it can bring me happiness? However, I am not happy.

Why come to see me? I don't hate him, but I don't want to see him.

Sighing heavily, three words of first snow made my heart tremble.

I don't want to think about it, but there are always some things that still exist and bother people.

If the wind says, you already know, why did you know and not clear it up.

If such a thing happens, it will be cleared. As for the follow-up, I am not interested in knowing.

My heart is hurt. I need time to heal. This is not a fall, pat your knees, get up and say that you will grow taller. I've lost a lot, a lot, and everything is bothering me.

I grind the ink hard and slowly calm my mind.

Lin Pei came in and lit all the lights in the palace. The palace suddenly became bright.

"If you grind so much ink, don't you want to draw a splash painting tonight?" he approached with a smile, hung a dress on his arm, and handed it to me: "wear more to avoid the cold wind at night. I'm afraid there will be a strong wind tonight."

I put on my clothes and didn't say a word.

He stained his pen with ink and said softly, "the leisurely style of Mingshan in the north is just suitable for such uneven ink."

I sighed, put my head gently on his shoulder and said weakly, "he's looking for me."

He didn't speak. He just sighed heavily.

I leaned against his warm shoulder and smiled gently. My heart was also warm: "Lin Pei, I want to go to the palace."

"Lin Pei, I just want to say that there is nothing. Don't worry about going inside."

"Lin Pei, I don't want to turn things upside down day and night, mental fatigue."

Why can't I go out? Can I live like this for three years?

How can I be so selfish? Now Lin Pei is with me, but he can't be with me for a long time. The emperor is back. He has his business.

I can be alone, but he won't rest assured.

I don't want him to worry about it either. He's done enough for me.

"After painting, go to bed in the middle of the night. Tomorrow afternoon, we'll go to Merlin," he said softly.

It's a very nice voice, with a warm feeling.

I smiled and grinned on his shoulder, "it's nice to have a brother."

He smiled gently and stroked my hair: "you are very tired tonight. Go and sit there for a while. If you want to sleep, just call and I'll take you back."

"Well, OK." I sat in the high chair, my feet shaking freely below.

"Lin Pei, if you go out and don't know where the direction is, shall we go to see the world together?"

"Not good. Chuxue, don't think about this." he was a little distressed.

I looked at the moonlight and said softly, "I miss him, but I'm sorry for him. It's been seven days. Day and night are upside down. I don't want to miss him, but I still can't stop."

Originally, acacia is unstoppable and uncontrollable.

Shangguan Yu was everywhere, but he was angry and very angry.

He came to me, I don't blame him, I'm not angry.

He is such a proud man. I'm afraid he will do anything when he is angry. For example, he will marry Princess Yuzhen, or spend too much wine and drink outside, which will hurt his body.

I don't know. I deliberately kept myself silent.

I don't know anything. I don't know what's wrong with him?

What to do? How to live a long life.

I also want to be strong, but it's not enough.

"It's much more comfortable to say it." Lin chuckled.

I nodded: "yes, it's much more comfortable. Lin Pei, I want to sleep."

His work and rest is normal, because he wants to accompany me and becomes abnormal. His dark circles and tired eyes are painful to see.

I jumped out of my chair and blew out the palace lantern one by one.

Without love, I don't have nothing, do I? I have friends.

"Lin Pei, get up early tomorrow to smell the fragrant plum blossom." I winked and smiled at him.

He sighed and cleared his hands: "I have something to do tomorrow morning. I can't draw plum blossoms."

"Oh, that's OK. I'll just be lazy and sleep in." my main task here is to help Lin Pei draw.

Thank you for seeing me off. I want to walk alone and be quiet.

Walking in the palace corridor, my fingers gently touched the corridor trees one by one, feeling their ancient and helpless breath. I looked up at the high hanging palace lanterns. It was quiet, everything was silent, and I could only hear my own gentle footsteps.

I stretch out my hands and enjoy the darkness of the night and the cold of the moon. My skirt floats under my feet and radiates freedom in my heart. The drooping hair made the wind blow. I was very comfortable. Through the corridor, I saw a small figure standing at my door. As soon as my heart was warm, I stepped up a few steps.

"Aunt." Xiaojing gently changed.

I smiled and squatted down: "Xiaojing, why are you here so late?"

"Aunt." he touched my face, and his little hands were cold.

I put his hand in the palm of my hand and rubbed it. "Why are you here so late?"

He looked at me, bright as a star, full of care.

I smiled: "it's cold outside. Come into the room."

I know the concern expressed in his eyes.

Auntie, Xiaojing, look at auntie. She's going back. " He whispered, "Xiaojing has to practice calligraphy in the evening."

"Well, I can't sleep either. I'll go back with Xiaojing and talk to Xiaojing." just in time, let me go and pass the time.

He shook his head: "aunt, don't go to the east palace."

"Why?" I asked softly.

"I don't like my aunt going to the East Palace," he said stubbornly.

"Well, I won't go. Xiaojing, thank you. Don't worry about my aunt. My aunt has nothing to do." even the child knows this.

I sighed low. Xiaojing has wise eyes and eyes different from those expressed by her age.

"Aunt, Xiaojing grows up and marries aunt."

I was happy and patted him on the head: "no, I'm an aunt."

"I want to accompany my aunt and don't let anyone bully my aunt." he said firmly.

The little voice, also clear and firm, is especially crisp in the quiet night.

I nodded: "OK, when my aunt is old and can't walk, Xiaojing will accompany my aunt."

"Pull the hook." he held out his finger.

Said he was not a child, but also a child. I smiled gently and stretched out my fingers: "pull the hook, don't change."

He smiled happily: "don't change, aunt, I'm going back."

I hugged him, closed my eyes, and then let him go: OK, Xiaojing, go back, my aunt will be happy. “

Xiaojing's decision is so strong that I think he is small now.

However, when Xiaojing grows up, she is so stubborn.

My new life, I always have to go out, otherwise, no one will go for me.

It's just that the night is too long and I'm too awake.

Sitting on the porch blowing the wind, I heard the faint sound of Xiao.

I was unmoved and smiled bitterly. What is love?

I was no longer seduced by the sound of the flute, nor did I escape into the room.

If the crown prince wants to find me, it's easy and reverse.

Under the shadow of the moon, slowly, the figure becomes clear, and the flowers and trees are scattered, which is very beautiful.