Chapter 117： why

Chen Ping paused in his footsteps, turning his back to Su Mengxue behind him, a hint of struggle involuntarily appeared on his face. At this moment, Chen Ping was in a mess, and he didn't know where his feelings came from.

But after a while, Chen Ping still calmed down, and said faintly, "No."

After saying these simple words, Chen Ping stepped into the hotel. However, these two words made the throbbing pain in Chen Ping's heart thicker and clearer.

Similarly, this throbbing pain also appeared in Su Mengxue's heart, but Su Mengxue at this moment forcibly endured this painful feeling.

Su Mengxue had never felt that she could have such courage. She seemed to have exhausted all her courage at this moment. She didn't hesitate at all. At the moment Chen Ping started to move, Su Mengxue raised her voice and said, "But I have something to ask you."

After being stopped by Su Mengxue twice in a row, Chen Ping's eyes also showed a sense of helplessness. But he still stopped. In any case, Su Mengxue is still his classmate after all, and it is difficult for him to completely reject others thousands of miles away.

At the moment, after hesitating for a while, Chen Ping still said softly: "If you have any questions, please ask."

Su Mengxue smiled, her face a little pale, she gently gathered a strand of long hair scattered on her forehead, her tone suddenly became gentle. But in that gentleness, there is still a sense of decisiveness.

She only asked the simplest question, which was only three words, "Why?"

Upon hearing this question from Su Mengxue, the struggling color on Chen Ping's face became more intense. It's just that Chen Ping is facing Su Mengxue at the moment, and Su Mengxue can't see the struggle on Chen Ping's face.

As soon as Su Mengxue spoke, the two immediately fell into complete silence.

After a long time, Chen Ping finally suppressed the fluctuations in his heart, slowly turned around, looked at Su Mengxue in front of him with deep eyes, and asked softly, "What and why?"

Su Mengxue smiled bitterly, then bit her silver teeth lightly, and said in a low voice: "Three years, you have always liked me for the past three years. But why, it seems to be overnight. In between, you have changed so much. Did my three years of waiting have been wishful thinking?"

Chen Ping was taken aback for a moment, and then asked pretendingly, "What are you waiting for? What are you waiting for?"

Su Mengxue raised her head, plucked up all the courage she had left, looked at Chen Ping stubbornly, and said word by word: "I am waiting for our high school graduation, waiting for the direction of our life. Already have a general goal.

In the past three years, I have often thought that by this time today, if you still don't make a statement, maybe I will take the initiative. Because I have absolute confidence in my heart, you like me.

Your share of love has been seen in my eyes for the past three years, day and night. So I firmly believe that today, even if you don't have the courage, but I still have it, the two of us will eventually be able to get together.

I can find a boyfriend who treats me wholeheartedly, and I always believe that that person should be you. But now, why..."

Su Mengxue's words caused Chen Ping to fall into a long silence. Chen Ping could explain the answer to this question very clearly, but he couldn't tell Su Mengxue about the answer. Therefore, the question Sun Mengxue asked, Chen Ping was destined to be unable to answer.

Between the two of them, they have always maintained such opposing movements. But the atmosphere became more and more silent. Even the guests of Sihai Hotel who occasionally passed by the two of them could perceive the strange atmosphere between the two of them and cast a gossip look curiously, but then hurriedly left. . The two men seemed to not notice the people passing by them at all.

As time went by little by little, the blood on Su Mengxue's face was taken away little by little, and finally turned into a complete paleness.

I don't know how long it took, Su Mengxue laughed suddenly. It's just that this smile is full of sadness. She smiled and looked at Chen Ping in front of her, smiled and said, "I understand. Thank you for your love for these three years."

After speaking, Su Mengxue turned around without hesitation and walked into the Sihai Hotel. Chen Ping was left alone outside the Sihai Hotel, standing quietly.

When Chen Ping looked at Su Mengxue's bleak but straight back, he couldn't tell what it was like, but it was extremely uncomfortable. It seems that there is another idea in his mind that has been affecting Chen Ping himself, and this idea is occupying an increasing weight in his mind.

He could clearly feel that it was also his own thoughts and thoughts, but they were contrary to what he originally wanted. At this moment, Chen Ping was a little flustered. He had some guesses in his heart, but he couldn't confirm these guesses at all.

Since rebirth, Chen Ping has not actually felt any difference, as if he was still the self who was nearly 40 years old. The rebirth was just using the body of his youth.

In essence, his soul is still his previous life. But now, Chen Ping has noticed that something is wrong, as if there are two souls living in his body, one is 18-year-old himself, and the other is 38-year-old himself.

Although it is Chen Ping himself, everyone has different thoughts and feelings at different stages of life. Just like Chen Ping in his previous life, 20 years ago, when he was young, he deeply liked Su Mengxue, but 20 years later, he never liked any woman again.

It can even be said that Su Mengxue is the only girl Chen Ping likes in her life. Chen Ping in the previous life, at the age of 38, met another woman, met Chen Ping, and stepped into the marriage hall together, and it was at the wedding scene that Chen Ping was reborn and returned to 20 years ago.

That woman, although in the last stage of Chen Ping's life in the previous life, was about to become Chen Ping's wife, at that time Chen Ping did not necessarily really love that woman.

To put it bluntly, the two people are just living together, and they can look at each other pleasingly. Because at that age, Chen Ping had already forgotten the taste of love.

So, Su Mengxue should be the only girl Chen Ping really loved. After rebirth, Chen Ping fell in love with Lin Yuwei. He always thought that he had forgotten the love he had for Su Mengxue 20 years ago, but now, Chen Ping's heart is in the midst of a battle between heaven and man.

He seemed to understand all of a sudden that even though Chen Ping had 40 years of his previous life after being reborn, in fact, he was still an 18-year-old himself.

Rather than saying that Chen Ping from the previous life was reborn and became Chen Ping now, it is better to say that Chen Ping now has memories of the next 20 years.

It is precisely because of this that the feelings that Chen Ping now has in his heart are still 18-year-old Chen Ping himself, but the moment of rebirth, and the memory of 20 years since this time, have been instilled into Chen Ping’s. In his mind, Chen Ping had an illusion.

Now that this illusion is awakened, what it brings to Chen Ping is endless entanglement and pain. For a while, Chen Ping's eyes were filled with a sense of blankness.

Standing at the door of the Sihai Hotel, it was obviously summer weather, but he clearly felt a trace of coolness, slowly spreading all over his body.

After a long time, Chen Ping sighed long. Since rebirth, there has never been a moment when Chen Ping will be at a loss as he is now. He doesn't know how to deal with his feelings, let alone how to deal with his identity. He can't even tell whether he is 18 or 38.

Although he was the same, he had a schizophrenic feeling. This kind of feeling will not be good on anyone. For a moment, Chen Ping felt as if he was really suffering from schizophrenia, and even for a moment, he was wondering if he had any symptoms of delusion, and he conjectured the memory before he was reborn.

This feeling made Chen Ping's heart painful, and his face even turned paler than Su Mengxue just now. However, after standing at the door of Sihai Hotel for so long, Chen Ping also gradually recovered.

Regardless of whether he is 18 years old or 38 years old at the moment, after all, Chen Ping has already had 38 years of life experience. No matter what his true identity is, at least he is no longer a real 18-year-old man. The mental state of the young man changed.

Chen Ping quickly returned to normal, and buried this struggle and pain deeply in his heart. Chen Ping is very clear that this is not something that can be figured out in a moment, so he doesn't think much about it.

After sorting out his own mood, he walked slowly into the Sihai Hotel. When Chen Ping walked into the appointment box, the classmates in the box also looked over After seeing Chen Ping, many students smiled and greeted Chen Ping, Chen Ping They also dealt with each other with a smile. However, when he saw Su Mengxue who was silent and didn't even lift her head, Chen Ping still flashed a touch of extreme pain in his heart.

However, he has completely calmed down now, and finally did not show any strangeness, but just found a corner of the room and sat down.

This position happened to be the farthest position from Su Mengxue, and it was also the position facing Su Mengxue.

The classmates at the dinner table were full of joy and laughter, but no one noticed. Although Chen Ping and Su Mengxue would say a few words with the classmates who came to talk to them from time to time, they both remained silent most of the time. among.

Suddenly, a boy in the class raised his voice curiously and asked, "Su Dabanhua, why haven't you come over the past few classmates? What are you up to?"

Su Mengxue raised her head, smiled reluctantly, and then said softly: "Nothing is busy, it's just something at home."

The boy also nodded clearly, but then he asked another question, "By the way, why hasn't Xu Tong been here these few times? You good girlfriends, why haven't the dragons been seen during this time? The tail?"

Su Mengxue smiled slightly, and then said: "She recently traveled abroad and will be back in two days. She will definitely be there for the next class reunion."

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